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My place to think with my fingers and who knows just what might pop up. |
| I'm just getting this all set up and I'm praying that I'm doing this right. I'm not sure just what all I'll talk about in here, so who knows. |
| Boy do I feel like I'm running behind in the race of a lifetime -- life has become a topsy-turvey ride that I wish I could escape from -- NOW! I've been in and out of the doctor's offices this month more than I have since I was in my last trimester of pregnancy and she's 18 (oh and her wedding on 10-04 was BEAUTIFUL). Anyway, this month has been insane, and work has even been worse. We had our annual picnic on the 2nd where they brought in AFLAC to do their sales pitch in hopes of getting everyone to sign up for more insurance that no one at this plant can afford because they don't pay enough in the first place -- boy what a mouth full. Then, only eight days later, after people have been hooked by the insurance, they laid off 22 of their employees -- I was one of those 22. When I found out that there was going to be a lay-off I figured I would be one of them because I have medical issues, but the plant supervisor assured my husband that I wouldn't lose my job -- ha ha ha! To be very honest, I did not like the job I was doing and have had every intention on quitting just as soon as my medical issues were taken care of, but they beat me to it. Now I'm facing possible surgery and am trying to get it all done before the end of the month. I'll know everything for sure next Thursday. Mentally I'm holding together fairly well right at this moment, but ask me again in an hour or so, things could change. I am very happy to have the time to do things that I really, truly want to do like WRITE. I spent a few hours at our local library, which is one of my favorite place in the world, and I came home with 28 books! Only one of those is just general reading, the rest is either research or books on writing! I have been locked into reading ever since (almost  ).I've been having more trouble with my WiFi connection -- all these darn trees filled with leaves so close to us is really pretty, and don't get me wrong -- I love trees, but they don't help my WiFi connection. I'm going to keep my spirits up though. I signed up for my unemployment on Tuesday and I'll collect that for a while and during that time I plan on writing as much as my little fingers will let me. |
| My brain has been working overtime today while I was at work at my 'other' job (I pray I don't have to be there too much longer). I had no intention of writing an epic poem, but I've started one! All I was doing was thinking about castles and my brain went into overdrive and now I'm overwhelmed! Overworked, overwhelmed, overdue and underpaid for all of it. Oh well, guess that's life! Anyway, this poem has kind of taken on a life all it's own and I have no idea where it's going to go. |
| There's no telling which direction my brain might go. I don't even have a clue as to whether or not I could write a convincing crime drama book, I have come up with an idea for one. I don't have all the bugs worked out yet, but I have asked my daughter who worked in a PI office to do a little research for me. I'm a little worried to do much research on my own considering the whole -- "you don't know who's watching" idea. The government could tag my computer just because I'm wanting to write a story. Now I sound paranoid! I guess I've watched too much tv. It's getting closer to my daughter's wedding. My oldest girl isn't coming out for the wedding, but with any luck she'll be coming out in November. My mother-in-law is coming in for the wedding though which is going to be cool -- I think. I've been working to put together a bunch of my poems in a notebook. I've been using my Printmaster Program and making backgrounds and then putting my poems on them. It's just for me, so no one has to warn me about copyright laws. I hoping that when I'm ready to really put my poems together I'm going to try to get my brother to do drawings for my collection. |
| I've been busy, but I'm still here! I just finished submitting my entries for the anthology which is published by Rome Area Writers. I've very excited because I am actually going to be a part of this, the 9th volume they have published. What's really wonderful is that one of my entries is a short story which was intended for a contest entry here, but my stupid internet connection would not let me get it put into my port in time! I wasn't even intending to submit it for the anthology, but I took it to our critique group and after we were through with the critique they said it was good enough for the anthology. How could I argue with them, they're the submission committee! Anyway, now I'm looking for more contests and I'm working on another short story, so I'm writing. I'm hoping to get more added into my port very soon. I'm also trying to get another job where I can just work part time, or at least, that's what I'm hoping for. My plate is quite full right at the moment. My 18 year old daughter is getting married October 4, and there's so much to do and so little time! I'm looking forward to it in one respect, but really nervous at the same time. Shortly, both my girls will be married off and thankfully, my son, is NOT planning a wedding any time soon! Well, I suppose that's about it for right now. I know I was doing a lot of reviews and have slacked off, but as soon as this wedding is over, I should be here quite a bit more. |
| I've been working on a short story for Beyond the Writer's Edge and I've been online and then as soon as I finally got the story finished I haven't been able to get online! I was finally able to bring up my port, and get the story type up but now I can't get saved into my port. Now, it's past the deadline and I've written this story for this contest. I'm just frustrated with my lack of steady connection with the internet. |
| I didn't get much writing done, but I had fun! We spent all day at the Pow Wow in Rome, (Georgia). I finally put some regalia together for myself again so I could dance and we were there until after dark. It was wonderful to see some of the people I only see once a year. Friday evening we took our van over and set up a little spot so we'd have shade next to the dance area and we would have the van to keep our stuff in. My step-kids dance too and we have them this weekend. The coolest thing though that happened was a writer friend of mine was sitting just in front of our awning when I arrived for grand entry. I hadn't seen her in almost two years, so we got to catch up a little. She's finished her first mystery novel and has started her second, but is working on other stuff too. I told her about WDC and I'm hoping she will join. |
| Just when I think things are going good something has to happen! My youngest daughter who will be 18 on the 22nd of this month will also be getting married on October 4th. These should both be joyous occasions for both her and me; however, right now, I'm neither happy or joyous! The wonderful creation of MySpace can allow for some pretty terrible things to be posted in each person's blog and my dear daughter is no exception! Her latest has left me both terrible hurt and quite angry. Everyone has a past with events and decision which we can look back on and realize that we screwed up and I am no exception to this rule. The trick to life is living through your mistakes and learning by them. You have to know how to forgive and grow. My daughter is clinging to an ugly past which we shared and blaming 99% on me -- and hating both of us because every time she looks in the mirror she see a reflection of me. (We look too much alike.) As of a couple days ago, I have found out that I'm really not even welcome at her wedding. It seems that the only thing I'm good for is paying for her wedding dress. Her sister, who just got married in February this year, is suppose to be her matron of honor, but she doesn't even want to fly out her for the wedding anymore because of everything my youngest has been saying about me. I can't say that I blame her. Her and her husband are both very upset about all this, and all my husband wants to do is protect me! With all this going on right now, my creative juices aren't flowing quite the way I would like them to right now. I'm sure that I'll be able to find some kind of story in this about twenty years from now, but right now I'm just a big raw nerve. The depression has made a return with vengence and I would like to crawl in a hole somewhere and hide. I did go to my writer's meeting Thursday evening (just after I read my daughter's blog entry) and despite all the chaos blooming around me, I made sure that I enjoyed myself in the company of my peers. I was warmly welcomed. I have to decide which poems I want to submit to our anthology in the next couple weeks which will give me something to concentrate on besides my loving daughter. I know there's plenty of you people out there who have gone through the craziness of having teens that seem to be out to hurt you, I'm not the only one with problems and I'm not looking for any sympathy, just a little understanding and a way to vent. |
| I am now a member of the Rome Area Writers aka RAW! I went to my first meet last Thursday which was a critique group (small and informal). I felt very welcome there and enjoyed myself completely, so much so, that I was bubbling over when I got home and babbled on for hours with my husband! (Bless his patient heart). Tomorrow, is our general meeting where we'll have a speaker and we'll having readings with critiques also. I'm quite jazzed about the whole thing right now and at the same time overwhelmed --- because --- RAW puts together an anthology each year, and as a member I have the opprotunity to contribute my own writing. Since I will be submitting poetry, I can submit several (3 or 4) which leaves me in a delema because I just don't know what to submit! I have until September 11-- my first real due date since college! Anyway, for anyone who has been coming and checking on me in my blog, I'm still here! I have had a very difficult time with my WiFi the last couple weeks which has had me very frustrated, but I'm still here! I have some stuff I'm working on and hope to finish very soon! To top all this off I have only about six weeks until my youngest daughter gets married and I'm trying to get things done for that too. So, to say the least, I'm busy. What's new? Ha! Sorry I haven't been around to do any reviews -- I've missed the reading, which luck and a few well placed prayers I'll be back in the game soon! I miss you all. |
| It's just been one of those days when things just don't want to go the right way. I've been depressed and run down which doesn't help at all. Saturday I worked real hard to get a poem finished to enter into a contest by 7pm Sunday, and I didn't get on the computer at all. I had fallen asleep on the couch and my dear husband didn't know I needed to do anything on the computer so he didn't wake me. Oh well, at least if finished the poem. And to make matters worse, I was in such a fowl mood today at work that I didn't even trying writing on my breaks! Now that I'm sitting here, finally with the 'wanting to' I can't really write because I have a fiddle student who will be here any minute. Then I'll have to make dinner and by the time I'm done with that it will be time for me to shower and go to bed. I really hate Mondays because they always seem to go sour. Of course, things will be better tomorrow -- I get to go make a payment on my daughter's wedding dress who has decided that all I'm good for is paying for her dress! She's written me out of having anything to do with her wedding! She's having someone walk her down the isle that she didn't even want anything do with growing up, and then it's him and his wife that she wants to answer, "And who gives this bride away?" AND NOT HER OWN MOTHER WHO WILL BE STANDING RIGHT THERE! Yes, I'm just a little ticked! I've talked to our pastor, who didn't know a thing about it, and she asked me not to say anything to her yet, she's going to talk to her! OK, I have that all said and done, maybe I'll calm down a little bit. |
| I just read something that made me think -- there is a writer in each or us, every human being on earth. We all have thought, a conscience brain which puts one thought together with another. As long as we bottle these musings up inside they lay dormant. This might be alright for some, but I know that it's better, healthier to release these thoughts and feelings. Whether or not anyone else reads them is totally up the you, but I tell you, from experience, it is far better to release these pent up feelings, thoughts, and emotions onto paper then to allow them to fester deep down inside. For me (and it should be for many others) writing is just what the doctor ordered! |
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