As I do not have internet at home, I only get to write in snippets; in between work tasks; as I sit at my shift from 15:30 to 04:00. I live a bit out of the way, and they want too much for the hook up. Perhaps, in time, I will put out the expense, but not at this moment. So....if anyone goes to read any of my work...especially my "Novella"....please understand that one chapter is not complete until you see an entry for the beginning of the next. If you begin to read a chapter, and there is no further entry below it, it is still a work in progress. That is, until the final chapter, of course. That entry will be finished when I add the word final to the entry title. I hope someone gets interested in my musings at some point. |
One of my favorite cousins (I have 25 first cousins) died 5 years ago. They took his cowboy boots, that he always wore, and put fake flower arrangements inside. I asked if I could have one. When asked which one I wanted, I asked, "Was he right, or left, handed?" Upon being told he was right handed, I claimed the left boot. When I was asked why it mattered, I explained, "Because it was his balance....his core." |
I don't believe in friends any more. They are just a myth. |
"Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken." ~~Evanescence~~ |
Nobody ever wants to know the real you. They only care what can be seen and perceived without giving it any thought. Once they get a glimpse of the inner workings of your true self, they either run for the hills, unfriend you, or just pretend they didn't hear what you had to say. It's easier for them to do that than to admit that they can't handle it. Better to run, break your heart, and preserve their own version of how they believe the world works, rather than traverse the depths of the mind, and see things how they really are. Surface bull s*** is everything. True knowledge is a waste of time. And.....if you believe any different, behave in a way that they don't understand, or show that your mind works differently than theirs, you are condemned to oblivion; an outcast;......a position you believed would go away as those around you matured. Unfortunately,though, as time progresses and those around you try to play catch up in the area of understanding, you have grown as well. By the time they have reached the level you were at 20 years ago, your own growth has leaped light years ahead. You're lapping them. Therefore, while your paths may cross on occasion, you can never connect, because your paces don't match. This I have realized. This I have accepted. I believe I'm done trying. |