My Infrequent Blog

#861543

October 2, 2015 at 4:20pm

I had my first work as a professional scriptwriter produced and performed on Wednesday night (30/09/10). It was part of a compilation, four fifteen minute monologues. Massive first night nerves and doubts of my own ability, as I hadn't been able to get to see any of the rehearsals. How it would received? How would it stack up beside the others works? Would the producer and actress have modified my script to be worthwhile? Would I even be recognise it? Mine was the last one to be performed... [Read more]

#824046

July 31, 2014 at 6:22pm

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#818496

June 2, 2014 at 7:01pm

* I will listen and learn from others because I only know a tiny fraction of anything * I will let go of anger and replace it with love and curiosity * I will love myself - flaws, strengths and all... [Read more]

#807496

February 18, 2014 at 2:26pm

I've pretty much done what I set out to do a number of years ago - I stand apart from almost everyone I know. I let only a small handful of people anywhere near my true self & my true feelings, and yet all along this is what I have wanted. Not to get burnt or caught out again by liars, players and fair-weather friends. To remove them from my circle of friends. What I've been left with are one or two far flung friends that I rarely speak to by email, and a couple more closer to home. T... [Read more]

#749169

March 19, 2012 at 3:44pm

Seriously, what the F*CK is wrong with our species? Today, 19th March 2012, some guy in Toulouse has killed a rabbi and three children, two of them the rabbi's own, in broad daylight. The worst bit of this? Inital reports state that the youngest child was three. Three years old! And some individual, some person who belongs to the same species as me, and you, chased a terrified three year old back into their school to ensure that she was dead. Oh, and make no mistake, he made sure. E... [Read more]

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July 31, 2014 at 6:26pm

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#726763

June 21, 2011 at 5:48pm

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#713122

April 22, 2011 at 5:40pm

I have no fear of the concept of death, it holds no terror, dread or anxiety. I accept that at some point in the future my life will cease, and that is natural. In some ways I wonder if it is the sleep of peace that it is made out to be? I wonder if in death we are truly at peace. Billions of years ago our world was formed from stardust, out of that rose life. I wonder where we go from here? At the end, when our world is destroyed by whatever cataclysm, where will the solar winds s... [Read more]

#713077

December 5, 2010 at 8:36pm

Even before I write this I think I already know the answer, my various aspects encircle my core: The playful cocksure – comfortable and at ease bantering and teasing The curious explorer – searching both inner and outer realms, and ideas. The dispassionate observer – cold and aloof, not letting the world affect him The burning rage – seething below the surface, a buffer between outer personality and inner The reserved friend – a friend, yet always holding somet... [Read more]

#708937

October 20, 2010 at 6:27pm

People create conspiracy theories, religions, even philosophies, I believe, because of one reason – they understand that the world is chaotic, perhaps they have seen that the affairs of humans is without true guidance, that in the final analysis the world is rudderless and directionless. I believe that they are incapable of dealing with that realisation and so create fantasies in which there is a power behind the chaos, a guiding hand and a master-plan simply because the alternative is ... [Read more]

#706487

September 19, 2010 at 1:30pm

I'm tired. So very tired of not having people who I can turn to who are prepared to listen. I have people who tell me they are friends, who say that they are there for me when I need them but in truth I don't. I have perhaps four or five people who I would consider close, all of them women and out of that maybe only two who I can talk to about absolutely anything without feeling judged in some way. The rest of the people I know are merely associates, in many cases people who I... [Read more]

#705869

September 12, 2010 at 6:58pm

I write to question. Question what is going on in my head, in my heart, my feelings. Question the actions I take, those of the people around me, of the world at large. The rules we are all supposed to live by according to our lords and masters, those more in the know about our individual lives than us But lately I'm struggling to question anything. So unconnected from life I'm drifting through it in an unauthentic haze. I'm no longer asserting myself as an I-self. I've sunk ba... [Read more]