Thoughts on life and society can be pointless, but that's what books are for. I've never enjoyed reading. It's always been difficult for me to read. Sometimes, I imagine little demons pulling at my eye lids. The Devil is in the details. I like people, who can act. They're fun to watch. I guess I wish I could be an actor, but I just don't have that charm and I stutter. My life is meaningless. I just lope from one place to another. I think that's my strength. Most people need a career and family. .. Family is a nice idea, but I've never had a nice family. Is this becoming annoying? ... Let's start with Vertago! He's cool and a stud. He also is popping up a lot in my movie watching. The mind can make association: like is the guy on the radio talking to me? Or why am I seeing so many eye balls in my movie watching? Jeeeze! I just saw CASE 39. A really scary movie with an eye ball scene that's very icky. This guy has a hornet come up out of his eye's lid.. tear duck. Any who, it's scary. Well, when I was Veratgo on Private Games.com my picture was of my left eye. It was trippy. Just a note to the CASE 39 writers: Lilith is not evil. I'm talking about Adam's first wife, expelled from Eden, because she "Would not be his beast of burden." Lilith is the first feminist in Bible Lore, she is immortal. So you can't drown her. Nope, only God can stop her. Okay, this Vertago guy is still effecting me. Strangers will look at me and cover their right eye, cars will shut one headlight off. That's dangerous! I had an elderly woman pinch my butt an call me "Vertago." in the mall. There was a Vertago concert. There is a Vertago song by U2. I started writing about Vertago in the 90's on an Australian web site Private Games.com. That's when I was working at Wal-Mart. Wal-Mart was awful. I had an over night manager slap me in the face. I just wish people would stop dropping pennies around me. I mentioned that Abraham Lincoln is looking to the right, while all the other presidents are facing to the left, because he was assassinated. Now, I get penny's dropped around me. I wish I had mentioned the dollar bill and the star of David over the eagel's head. It has twelve stars in it for the twelve Apostles. Feel free to throw dollars at me. Reflections: I wasn't completely honest about what I said about the penny. I was quoting the old Civil war lore Lincoln was facing right because he freed the slaves and turned his back on the brotherhood. That's what I wrote on Private Games.com. I'm not in favor of slavery. |
I think Bill Maher is right , "It's cool to be cruel." Another high school massacre and no one can stop it. When I was in Cambridge Ringe and Latin there were knife fights. The fight was between two guys over a girl. The idea of killing strangers was not real. Kids settled their grudges with the offender. One notorious playboy got chased by a group of boys off the school grounds ... He jumped a chain linked fence and caught his pinky ring in the prongs. His pinky popped off and he never got it back. He had nine fingers from that day on. Most of the fights were between boys over girls or drug dealing or both. This new generation of killer has a grudge against everyone. A terrorist wants to disrupt the community with violence for a political cause. These sociopaths have no such agenda.. They only hate. It worries me when I go to a theater or any other public place. Is there another homicidal maniac around me ? I like nihilism and anarchist music and movies. I like to play with these concepts. I wonder why God allows evil .. And I enjoy erotic massages. Am I a sociopath? I have known mean kids and now they are gentle parents. Is this all biological or genetic necessity ? I don't know. Honestly, I just do what feels right. I am the product of a Catholic home which had many faults. Here's what tickles my cerebral right now ~ Your angry. Do you act out your anger ? Do you shrug it off ? Do you get an erotic massage ? What tickles you ? I like Simon&Garfunkles' The Sound of Silence and the Flipper theme music. Wolf Tones are cool... or Lady GaGa and Tony Bennett ~ The Lady is a Tramp . God Loves the One Who Got His Own. Spinning Wheel. ? =+= |