My blog that'll chronicle my adventures here. |
Hello everyone! This will be a personal journal that will highlight my adventures with this account. |
It's been quite a while since I wrote in here. It's now 2017 and the new year is a month old and has begun with a bang. I'm so angry. The anger has been spread out evenly. I'm angry with myself for the horrible decision making. I'm angry with Matthew for not taking responsibility for his actions. I'm angry with John for being a horrific father. Matthew's first semester in his sophomore year was a total disaster. he failed Algebra. He isn't applying himself. I'm the only parent he has to rely on. I thought, wrongly of course, that with my help and encouragement, he would go far. I don't know what the future holds. Only God knows that. Whatever it holds, it's my hope that I can deal with it. |
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It's been quite a while since I last wrote here. A great deal has happened since then. Both ACE and WorkInProgress have been paid their respective Social Security payments. I am not receiving any SSI as a result. I don't particularly like this arrangement. The part I dislike is the fact I get nothing. I never thought this would happen. Life is a BITCH! |
It's HOT out here It's HOT out here and still we complain Can the weather ever Satisfy our disdain? When it's -20 F and two foot of snow We still gripe because that's all we know The weather feels bad and is at a loss It seems to never win We always seem angry and cross Will there ever be a time when we're happy and pleased? and our gripes and complaints will be forever eased? That may only be when we find an ideal place to hang our hats and have smiles on our face In the state where I live There are only two temps: hot and cold Is this all there is? If so, boy it's getting old |
My relationship with my mother has deteriorated even more today. I need to vent my feelings somewhere. I guess no place is safe. This relationship reminds me of an impossibly entangled ball of thread.. AS much as I would like to TRY to untangle it and get down to the root core of our problems. I do know one thing. I will NOT go through the tongue lashing I got today. She had no right. Yes! I did post those comments and I don't take any back. So, take your dressing down and SHOVE IT Corrine. |
I haven't written in this blog for a while. I feel closer than ever to a divorce. John is turning into Perry more and more. He thinks it's fine to lie to me. I never gave him that impression. On a much lighter note, I want to begin decorating AvidThinker's port. Creating new stories, poems, opinions, and other items motivates my creative juices. I can hardly wait. Good Evening all. |
I can't sleep tonight. I have too much on my mind. I'm literally living as a single parent. John is useless, a blob of wasted space. I know and realize that if I didn't marry him Matthew wouldn't be here. That, in itself, isn't true. After all, I was pregnant before the wedding. I'm writing this at 2:43 am. I just had to expel this penned up anger. |
Well, it's time to write again. We ar se buried in the frozen, white stuff. It's a never ending deluge. I hate being at a stand still. I want Spring/Summer year round. I went as far as searching for Section 8 housing in Hawaii. I would love to live there forever. The biggest pro would be not having to deal with the snow ever again. Here I go again, dreaming of what won't happen. I shouldn't dream. What's the point? They won't come true. Reasons? Lack of money. Motherly interference. What I need to do is take the bull by the horns; confront my fear and conquer it. If it wasn'tfor Matthew, Larry and Laurie, I'd tell her off, take what's mine, and depart to destination only known to me. I feel stifled. like the breath has been stolen from me. I need to feel the freedom to spread my wings. Right now, I feel like a jumbo jet that is stuck on a tiny runway. Right now, I feel that the only way for those dreams to materialize is to have Corrine gone. Problem; i would encounter the same situation. I'D never get the answers I seek. |
Well this is my first entry in this new journal. After much debate with self, I took the bull by the horns and began a new, second account. So far, I've created the account, wrote the bio block, biography, and review section. The one thing I don't understand is why second authorized accounts can't review items. On the one hand, I could understand that there would be double reviews on the same item. However, I would think that one member may like a certain genre, while the other may go in the direction totally different. Time will tell whether this venture was a good idea or not.i It better be. I sank some well earned gift points to do this. I'll keep this posted weekly. Welcome to the world of multitasking! |