Artificial Sun

As I stare at the paint peeling off of the walls
One next to none, I'm the only one to fall
Not only in love, but soon into your past
And against my best wishes, I'm falling too fast

They say loves a double edged sword
And I've got a gaping wound in my chest
I wish to feel your touch for once
I wish I was better than the rest

But I'm not
I'm shot
And I'm starting to bleed
Theres no sign of a gunman
But its getting harder to breath
I think about your smile, and how it makes my entire week better
But I don't think I'll ever have the chance
So I suppose now it doesn't matter...

Laying on my floor
Eyes wide open
Always hoping
That you'd light up my room with your laughter
But the lights dimming
The amount of light is fading faster
And I'm crying, but I'm silent
You can see the tears, but not the scars
On the inside, I've grown violent
Such a torrent, such a wave
I'm a loser in my head
It controls me, I'm its slave
I wish I could be a stronger person
I wish I could be like you
Your perfect

You will always be my light, you are my beacon
Everyday that passes I look for your subtle glow
For warmth
For comfort
I'm screaming inside my head
But I'll let it out with ink
All I wanted to say was that

I love you...