So yesterday was Valentine's Day. If you read the post under this one , you'll see how bad of a mood I was in. After I wrote that, my day definitely turned around.

I was supposed to have volleyball practice that night. We got the carpool and when we were five minutes away (a 45 minute drive), we got a call saying that it was cancelled. My dad wasn't too excited, but he actually drove us to get some ice cream! Even though it was 17 degrees, it tasted DELICIOSO. I got a chocolate concrete with chocolate chip cookie dough pieces in it. Yumm.

Then when we got home, we had to stop off at a neighbor's to pick up flowers. We weren't home so the company delievered them to the neighbors for us to pick up later. My dad thought they were from a client for him, but the tag said, To Kaitlin. I opened the wrap and inside were white roses and red carnations! I was SO surprised. I took out the note and it said, "Happy Valentines Day! From, Your Secret Admirer." I FREAKED out, but almost automatically I knew who it was from. Stephen. My best guy friend who I can tell everything to who's one of my closet friends. Best guy friend. All my friends told me he's planning to ask me out once he can get some alone time with me, but I have no idea what I'll say. I mean, I don't want to break his heart. He's probably one of the nicest guys I've ever known; he's almost like one of the girls. I thought of some theories:
Say no, I just want to be friends
Say yes, I want to be in a relationship with you
Say yessish, I want to go on one date with you, but no relationship.

I really really reaaaallllyyy like the last one. I thought I was pretty clever when I thought of it. So if he does eventually ask me out, I think I'll use the last one. Suggestions? Help? PLEASE?

But overall, my Valentine's Day that turned out horrible ended in happiness. And the flowers smell good. Really good.

Song of the Moment: It's Not Over by Daughtry
 

Valentine's Day. The commercial holiday where you express your love and thankfullness to your significant other.
And if you're single, it makes everything a lot worse.
It's a SAD day: Singles Awareness Day

Today was very unproductive. I ate a lot of food that people brought in and it is proven: chocolate does make you feel better. But all my friends were going on about how they got roses from their boyfriends and how they called them in the morning to wish them a, "happy Valentine's day."

Actually, while writing this entry, I found some very interesting news. In recent entries, I was talking about how my mom was sick with a virus called Epstein Bar and bronchitis. Well, I found out it was all a lie. None of it was true. It's a disease called hypochondria. She is so far into it that she can't function anymore. She see's the hospital and her doctors more than she see's me anymore. Today was the final straw; she went to her doctor again and wanted more tests done. She was in and out of the hospital five times in TWO weeks, getting pointless tests done. She requested that she get them done, and her doctors had no choice but to approve. Well, now she has officially reached the deep end. Her main doctor called my dad and they scheduled an immediate meeting with a psychiatrist. But hychondria is a extremely weird disease. I had no idea how bad she had it until now. It's scary; she thinks she's dying. It's hard to cope with (especially being the child and thinking you're going to lose a parent) and we're trying to deal with it the best we can. Hopefully, she'll be on the road to recovery soon...

Happy Valentine's Day to meeeeee.

Song of the Moment: Say it Right by Nelly Furtado


 

We had a snow day today! It was awesome. I slept in till 11 and got up and read Seventeen Magazine for two hours. Then my friend, Jen, came over and we went sledding for a little while. Then we took her home and my dad and I picked up a pizza.

That's all my day was. It was AWESOME.

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day. Woo hoo (sarcasm)

I'm working on my entrance essay more. That's basically it!

Song of the Moment: Glamorous by Fergie

 

So I got into AP biology instead of AP American Literature. Weird, much? Yeah, basically. I think I'm actually going to take AP bio because I heard it's good to get it out of the way and then I won't have to take it senior year.

I'm already planning my courses for next year (junior year) and senior year...which leads to college...
This is perfect example of how fast life moves. Sometimes, a day or week can seem to drag on forever, but if you look at it over a perspective, it's really short. This year for me, my sophmore year, has literally flown by. It seems like summer and lifeguarding was only a couple months ago. But thinking about college and my future is scary. It scares me to realize how hard the world is and how competitive life will be once I start searching for a job. Colleges will be hard enough to get into, but what about life in the real world? Getting by, raising a family, being successful, having a job that supports me, just everything. I know I'm only a sophmore and it seems kind of ridiculous to be thinking about it, but they're preparing us already. I do go to a college prepatory school, which is kind of the point, but it still doesn't refrain from stressing me out. But once I pick my courses, I can relax. I just need to pick and choose...

But anyway, school today was okay. I got my Spanish essay back, and it's basically just red with corrections. But I drop Spanish tomorrow anyway, so I have more time to work on it.

I'm also working on my entrance/statement of purpose essay for my Young Writer's Conference for this summer. What would you rather read about: Four nouns with definitions on why I want to go, or the heart with its two atrium and ventricles and how they represent my drive and passion for writing? I think I'm going to try to write both and see how they work out.

Winter Forecast: 2-6 inches of snow by tomorrow morning! Everyone is planning for a snow day tomorrow and I REALLY hope we have one! It would give me so much time to catch up on homework...and sleep.

Weekend Itenerary (sp?): Friday: Mardi Gras Dance and basketball game
Saturday: Devin's birthday party where we dress up and get all fancy!
Sunday: driving lesson (usually on mondays, but I had a dentist appointment today)
Monday: sleeping in because it's President's Day and probably something fun!

And..I just found out my really good friend who moved to Ohio is coming in!!!! I'm so excited!!!!! My weekend is action-packed...and it's only Monday Hopefully it moves SUPER fast.

And Friday is Fine Arts Day at school. They have a bunch of random people come in and teach different courses. My first choice was Hip Hop Dancing! Please refrain from laughing in my face. It looks like fun, ok?! And then I signed up for other random stuff, like jewelry making, and cell-phone decorating? I don't know. It's just a day where you can take a bunch of different courses with no CLASS, HOMEWORK, or TESTS. It's a nice day.

I think I'm starving; I'm basically about to go eat the couch right now. I need fooooooddd.

Song of the Moment: I Don't Wanna Know by New Found Glory
 

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I probably spelled disappointment wrong. Or something. Because this week/weekend has been full of disappointments. Here's the list:

1. I didn't get into CC (College Credit)/AP American Literature for my junior year.
         This was the biggest one. I was almost counting on getting in, but I only got into honors. Woo hoo, honors. How awesome. But I REALLY wanted to be in CC English!! Everyone was so shocked when I told them because they know I love writing...I guess my grades aren't high enough. I hang out with the REALLY smart girls in my class and they all got in...but they don't write. I guess they did it by grade-point average instead of the love to write. That was a bummer.{/indent}

2. My weekend with guys fell through.
         I was supposed to meet a lot of new guys this weekend, but it didn't pull through. I met one of my best friends, Emily's, boyfriend at the mall this weekend with a bunch of my friends. He said he was going to bring some of his, but he didn't. Ugh. Then last night, I was supposed to hang out with Gloria and her friend's Mikey and his friends. We didn't even hang out with Mikey; we hung out with each other and saw Because I said So, which turned out to be pretty cute. I also saw Norbit the day before, which I thought was going to be retarded, but it was actually hilarious. I kind of lived at the movies this weekend. {Insert rant where I rant about not having a boyfriend here}{/indent}

Actually, those are all the disappointments. Overall, my weekend was pretty good. I didn't spend any time at my house and spent it with my friends, which I needed. My mom has literally been driving me off the deep end. She's a hypochondriac. She thinks she's dying and she's not even that sick. She's been talking to me about her dying and if she's been a good mom, and I just want to SLAP her. I can't take this anymore!!!! It's driving me and my dad crazy- after she gets over her Epstein Bar syndrome, hopefully she'll go into therapy or something because she's getting ridiculous. It's making me crazy. I just burst into tears the other night because she's preparing for her to die...she's not going to die anytime soon, she just needs to get her head straight. Seriously.

And she supposedly passed out at our grocery store last week and was taken to the hospital by ambulance. And I find this out now. THANKS MOM AND DAD.

But on the brighter side of things...
16 DAYS TILL I TURN 16!!!!!!!!
Whoa, haha 16 and 16. Sweet. I am driving NON-STOP and I will hopefully get my license on my birthday! That'd definitely make it a sweet sixteen.

And I'm planning a huge party with my friend, Liz. It's coming along...kind of OK? It's taking a while to plan and it's hard to pick a date. Really hard.

Song of the Moment: Drive by Incubus



 

Guess what I got on my chemistry test!!

89%!!

Okay, it might not seem like a good grade to you.

But for being at one of the hardest schools in the city and in the advanced class,

I'm basically rejoicing.

It basically made my weekend/week. Yay!

But for other things...things are going kind of okay. I'm planning a joint birthday party with my friend, Liz, so hopefully that will go well. I'm excited- 22 days!

But as long as family goes...my mom isn't doing so great. She has epstein-bar (mono for adults except x10 worse...) and it's been going on for six weeks and it's STILL not letting up. And to add on, she just got bronchitis. And she's taking it really hard. She's tired all the time and is upset she's been sick for so long; she's at the doctor almost every other day. And there's nothing they can do to help; it's one of those things that you have to wait for to work themselves out. Which sucks. Big time. Hopefully, it will get better soon. I really, really, really do.

Volleyball=pretty good. We just got 3rd in our tournament! I played kinda crappy the whole time and kind of stressed out, but it might have been because of me being sick. I felt like I was going to puke before the start of every game; I hated it!! Hopefully, I'll get out of my funk soon and start playing like normal. But my team is so much better than last year; I like everyone on it. No one seems mean to anyone else, which is really awesome. And my coach is really cool too; she's young and doesn't have her own kid to favor on the team and that's the best part; that's how it happened last year (my coach's kid was on the team). And she's really nice and funny. I hope I'll get better this year; I really want to play a lot on varsity (hopefully) next year!!!

Goals:
- to get a lot better at volleyball and to work really hard at practices. really hard.
- to get my grades higher in spanish, chem, and history. please.
- to remain positive about everything and stay focused.
- to get into that writing camp that I still need to finish my application for.
- to get a definite summer job.

Song of the Moment: You Could be Happy by Snow Patrol
 

So the winter formal was on Saturday night. Guess how many people went? Around 50! Barely anyone went to the dance! The before-party at Peter's was fun though...I kicked everyone's butts at DDR, as usual. And then we took about 209348043958 pictures, then headed off to the dance. I wore my friend, Ali's, dress and had my hair done. It was curly, half-up, and had some pieces hanging in the front so I didn't look I had half my hair pulled really tightly back. My date, Stephen, told me I looked good and that made me smile. He's such a fun guy; he's almost like one of the girls, as I said before. And I'm repeating it for this reason: he might like me more than a friend. Ahhhh! I don't like him like that! He's just one of my best friends...hopefully it won't turn into anything.

But I still want a boyfriend.

Just not him.

Anyway, 30 minutes before the dance ended, mostly everyone left except my group of friends, 9 guys and their dates. The DJ started playing AMAZING dance music and we went absolutely crazy! My friend, Gloria, and I just ran around the gym, dancing like psycho's. It felt a.m.a.z.i.n.g. I loved it! Since last week sucked, I really got to let it all out. By the end of the dance, I was sweating and out of breath. It was awesome! I had to come home right after the dance though and miss the afterparty. Bummer.

The next morning, I had to wake up at 5:30 in the morning. Volleyball tournament. Blah. I had fun riding down with my coach and teammate though. But in the tournament, I played SO badly. Worse than ever. I got really down on myself and basically gave up. I didn't feel too snazzy either. I won't be doing that again. Hopefully my team won't be mad at me.

So I just took a Spanish quiz today, and I'm absolutely positive I failed. I did the entire backside of the quiz wrong (I conjugated a verb wrong) and I'm basically screwed. I had a history test on friday and I really hope that went better than I'm expecting: failing. I get it back tomorrow, and I'm really hoping I did better than what I usually do: an 80. Bleh.
But today at school, EVERYONE was in a bad mood. Something bad is going on in everyone's life right now, and we all were sour. Hopefully, this week will get better as it goes on.

Birthday: 27 days
Young Writer's Conference Application due date: 30 days

What am I worrying about more? The Young Writer's thing. It's a camp for two weeks- I need to start working on it. Ten pages of creative writing sample. Oi. I have about nine right now...I need to start digging through old journals and actually start typing some of it up. Or bring some of the old novel back. Most of it is poems, though. I'm not sure what I should do; poetry, fiction, or creative writing? Creative writing consists of poetry, fiction, and creative nonfiction. My strong suit is in poetry, but I would like to get better at fiction. Any ideas?

Song of the Moment: For Good by Original Broadway Cast of Wicked
 

In my state, the weather changes from day to day. It's ridiculous! One day, it's snowing, and the next day, it's 70 degrees! It drives my allergies up a wall, but I've learned to deal with it since I've lived here my entire life. But for right now, it's freezing. 30 degrees. Burrr.

School right now is getting really hard. I thought it was supposed to be easier after mid-terms, but I guess not! I'm getting help from my history teacher tomorrow because my grade's aren't too spectacular in that. And I'm getting help from a junior for chemistry.

We find out in two weeks if we get into our AP's that we applied for. I applied for AP/CC (college credit) English, and I am DYING to get in that! I didn't apply for history or science AP's because I heard they're so hard, and one's enough! I am just really hoping I get into AP English...

3 days till the winter formal! But it's not my winter formal; it's my friend's (all-guy school's) winter formal. I got asked on Sunday, and the dance is on Saturday! A little more than a week in advance would be nice, thanks! But it's not entirely their fault- they found out about it pretty late. I'm going with my friend, Stephen. He is SO nice and he's almost like one of the girls. I can talk to him about anything and I love it! He's awesome. A bunch of my friends are going and we're going out to dinner before. I think I'm wearing my friend, Ali's, dress. It's a blackish/greyish strapless dress and it's cute; I hope I'll look okay!

Then the day after that (Sunday), is my volleyball tournament! It's an hour and a half away- I have to get up at 5:30 in the morning! Ew!! And after the night of a dance; needless to say, I'll be dead the next day. Hopefully I won't play too terribly.

My mom is currently in the hospital right now because she's getting more "tests" done. She's been in and out of there four times within the past two weeks. It's driving me crazy! She's had a virus for about a month, and it won't go away, so they're testing to see what it is. Personally, I think her doctors are doing this for no reason, but whatever, I can't say anything because I suck at chemistry.

Tonight= a new Grey's Anatomy! I love that show. The Office is a repeat, though. Oh well! I love my T.V. shows...haha, I know, it's sad.

I'm working on my application for a Young Writer's Conference this summer up north in the US. I'm so EXCITED. I REALLY hope I get in. This week, all the teachers are telling us about AP's, and I'm not the smartest person at my school (I go to a private school where you have to test to get in and it's one of the best in the state). I get upset sometimes because some of the girls at school are just SO smart and I'm not overly brilliant like them. I just kind of accepted it that I'm not going to be good at everything. I just really want to get into AP English!!

Song of the Moment: What Goes Around Comes Around by Justin Timberlake
 

Here it goes for the first post- ah! I always love starting new blogs, but I don't necessarily like everything about myself. But it's something that has to be done, right?

Luckily, you read most of it up there. But for right now, I'm just trying to get through my sophmore year in high school. I go to an all-girl high school, so things are different. I do know a lot of guys, and trust me, there is still a lot of drama over them even if they don't attend the same school we do.

But what, do you ask, am I going to write about in here?
Little things that happen in my life- big or small.
A place to rant. Why not?
Talking about friends and guy friends.
Discussing random issues I like/have problems with.
To come back to this later on and look at it and see how I've changed and matured
Because blogs are awesome, hello!

I'm going to try to write in here everyday, but since I am in high school and it's crazy, I highly doubt that will happen. But now with this awesome upgrade, thanks to RAOK!, I'm inspired to write in it a lot.

Welcome to the mind of a 15-year old. You've been warned