After having been out of work for almost 5 weeks, it was hard for me to want to go back. My job isn't hard but being home, cooking and eating like a normal family made me want to stay home. I usually work nights and being able to sleep at night and get up during the day is totally different. Since I am not rich I had to go back. I am not giving up hope that I can find something else to do but until then I need to make some money. Maybe I can win the lottery. I keep playing. One day I will.
 

I write this only because on TV there is a couple planning there wedding to be held in Florida. They have given the wedding planner a budget of $500,000.00. There will be 3 different events held over a 3 day period before the wedding. I know it is up to each couple to spend what they want to get the wedding they want but to me that is too much. It doesn't matter if you spend money like these people or go to the courthouse, in the end you will be married. My own wedding turned out good and I didn't spend thousands of dollars. To each his own but with the way the economy is that money could do so much good for something else. I know it is their money but I know everyone has different feelings about some things and I know wedding ceremonies is one of them. Just thought I would share.
 

My daughter finally got a car. With the way she drives I'm sure it will last her a good, long time. I'm not complaining at all. She seems to be a safe driver the few times I have ridden with her. I hope she drives the same way when she is alone or with one of her friends. It just amazes me that it was only a few years ago that she depended on me to get her places and now she has her own way. I know children have to grow up, but I didn't know it would feel this way. I know she will still need me but I can't help but worry about her since she went to live with her dad. I know he loves her but I can't help but think that mothers are more protective over their children than fathers are. No offense to any men who may read this. I have read that mothers are the nurturers and I have also heard that a woman's work is never done. Until next time....
 

In a previous blog, I mentioned that I was misdiagnosed with bursitis. I had a MRI done, and now the doctor tells me I have a hiar-line fracture in my hip. My doctor has taken me out of work and I am not supposed to be putting any weight down on my left leg or hip. It is truly hard to stay still and not move. I have a child at home that needs me. My main concern is how long the doctor will keep me out of work. I am not made of money and I have bills to pay. I know everyone does. Just thought I would share my continuing saga of pain.
 

I really like my job. It is probably the easiest job I have ever had. Working with premature babies beats working with adults. I am currently working 12 hour shifts. In March, they are cutting us back to 10 hour shifts. I don't like it but I have to work so I haven't said alot about it. On our 12 hour shifts every other week I would have 5 days off, going to 10 hours shifts that won't happen anymore. The most I can expect is 2 maybe 3 days off. I sure am going to miss those 5 days. I am glad I have a job but no one said I have to like everything about it.
 

With Spring and Summer coming up alot of people will be invited to wedding showers and those happy baby showers. To me when you invite someone to either you should be thankful for whatever they choose to give. It isn't like they are obligated to give anything. I know I was. When someone created the Gift Registry, to me that took all the fun out of choosing a gift that a person would want to give. Yes, the happy couple or expectant parents may want certain items but some people have expensive tastes and the Gift Registry may put stress on the person receiving the invitation. Not all people have the funds to pick out certain items they wouldn't have chosen to give in the first place. My suggestion is to take what is given and you be responsible for returning it if you get multiples of the same item or you would rather have something else. I know everyone will not agree with me on this. When I receive an invitation, I may take a look if they have a registry, but I feel that since I am spending my money, I am going to pick out something I want to give.
 

I know that Doctors are human but my regular doctor told me I had bursitis in my hip. She gave me medicine to take and it did nothing for the pain. She sent me to a specialist. He said that I had bursitis and sent me to get physical therapy. In physical therapy, all they did was attach a patch soaked in liquid prednisone to my hip and then attached an electrode to a box that was suppose to be helping push the prednisone into my hip. After 8 visits and no relief, I called them and told them I wasn't coming back. I went back to the specialist and after talking to him he now tells me that he doesn't believe it is bursitis. He now thinks it may be a nerve problem or something going on with my back. I am scheduled for an MRI. I really hope that they can find out my problem. Walking just in my house is painful but when I have to walk at work, by the end of my shift I feel like I am going to collapse. Sometimes the pain is unbearable but I have to work. Please pray that they diagnose the source of my pain and can correct the problem.
 

Have any of you noticed that some people once they get a title behind their name they seem to change? Well, there is a nurse I work with who acts like that. She works within the educational part to make sure everyone knows what they need to know and then some.
Recently she and I talked. She went to one of the Asst. Nurse Managers and told her I was rude, and she felt like I didn't portray an employee who wanted to be educated,etc. Of course I was talked to by this ANM.
I told her that with as long as the other nurse has known me she should know that I am always kidding about something. It has gotten to the point I don't know who I can talk to and what I can talk about. I was not rude to this- golden nurse- and now I realize that some people aren't what they portray themselves to be around others. I am pretty much the same unless I am not feeling well. People know this, that nurse knows this and I just don't understand why she had to blow the whole conversation out of proportion.
 

I'm sure if anyone out there has children, they have had this happen. My son spent the night with a friend of his last night.(Sat. night)/ Everything was great. When he came home Sunday afternoon, he was complaining of a headache, sore throat and just not feeling good. I gave him some Tylenol and called my mom later to check on him. I have missed some work lately so I went onto work and left him with my parents. I bet when I pick him up Monday morning to take him to school he will start saying he doesn't feel well and beg to stay home. I go thru that everyday even when he isn't sick.
 

I don't know about anyone else, but I didn't realize after having been out of school for awhile how hard it can be. When I was younger, all I had to do was worry about school. Now that I am older, I have a job, a family and I have been going to physical therapy 3x's a week. I am learning stuff I didn't know and relearning stuff I seem to have misplaced somewhere along the road to adulthood. I am sure these classes will help me so I am going to tough it out. I keep Tylenol by my side just in case a headache comes in while trying to juggle all that I have to do.
 

We don't get alot of snow, where I am from. So, when it snows or people even think the weather will be bad they run to the grocery store. Loading up on milk, bread, soup and other easy to eat stuff, just in case the power goes out. I stayed off the roads because some parts were really bad. When I went to work Wed. I left early just so I could see where I was driving. It amazes me when certain people act as if they are the only ones who have anywhere to go.<crazy drivers. Another thing the temperature has dropped, as a good friend of mine so eloquently stated,"It is colder than a well-diggers' ass!" outside. I'm sure what we experience is nothing compared to lots of other places.
 

What can a person do when they feel someone they care about may be in trouble? A real good friend of mine is in a relationship that is not healthy for her. I know she will not leave because she cares for her husband and he is sick. His sickness does not give him the right to treat her like he does. If it wasn't for her he would probably already be gone. He really has no one else besides her. My friend has a kind and caring heart and I know she feels responsible for him. I just wish he would straighten up and realize what a prize he has instead of treating her so badly. I know she would feel bad if something happened to him but life is too short to live under all the stress she is in. She deserves so much more than what she is getting. I truly hope that one day she will realize what a great person she is. All I can do is be here for her but I really wish I could do more. She and I have had many a laughs, so funny we couldn't stop and had tears running down our face. Everytime I talk to her we can find something to laugh about. What more can I do?
 

I first want to say that I was recently reminded of what a true friend is. There are many people who you may call your friends and many may be called your best friend but I don't think everyone is on the same page when the definition is discussed. I have tried to be what I think a true friend is. I feel that I have bent over backwards at times to show my friendship. Either I am missing something or the others involved don't feel the same way. I don't expect reciprocation just because I do something for someone but it would be nice to know it is available if I ever need something. I hardly ever ask because I am pretty sure there will be excuses for not being able to help. I am referring to someone I have known for about 10 years. The few times I have asked for her help the returns have been about 50-50. I don't do things for people so I can pat my own self on the back but it wuld be nice if she were to do something for me without my having to ask. This has been on my mind for awhile. Does anyone else out there feel the same way?