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| A Slow Reemergence | Entry #653277 |
It appears that I may be making a slow re-emergence into WDC after my long vacation. Classes are going well even though it's a brutal schedule (2 classes M, Tu, Th from 10 - 3 plus an online math class) and my business is still making sales and progress albeit not as fast as it was. I'm managing adequately, much to my surprise. I'm tired, don't get me wrong. By the time Thursday gets here I'm usually so exhausted I can't think. Forget doing homework Thursday, I'm lucky if I can get back to it by Friday night. I usually spend all day Saturday and Sunday studying, with little breaks to be with Libby.
What I realized last night is that I'm not doing this all on my own. Sure, the studying and the attending classes I am but I have a lot of help too. My best friend watches Libby anytime I need her to. The kids swap off watching her on Saturday mornings so that I can sleep in or do whatever I need to do for a few hours. Everyone accepts that I'm just hardly ever home any more and when I am, typically I'm ensconced in my room.
What I'm having a hard time adjusting to is how much I miss Libby on a daily basis. It simultaneously warms and breaks my heart when she runs up to me and says, "Mommy, Mommy, I miss you!" I know she's saying it because she really has missed me and she's happy I'm back but a part of me hates that I've had to be away from her. She's growing so fast I hate missing it for even a second but I'm doing what must be done to give us a better future. And sometimes in life you just have to make the tough choices and the sacrifices to get to a dream. I've been dreaming about being a writer for over fifteen years and part of that was to go to a really great writing college and get my Master's degree. I'm almost 30 and if I don't do it soon, life will have passed me and my dreams by.
Surprisingly, even with as crazy as everything is, I've managed to post a new essay, do a couple reviews, participate in a couple auctions, and send about a dozen emails to people around the site and in response to reviews. I've been looking over my writing trying to determine what I want to start working on with my advisor. If I'm going to graduate school, I have to have some very polished pieces done and I'd like to have some publication credits to include as well. I have some poetry and nonfiction but not really any fiction yet.
Speaking of poetry, I realized yesterday after my Lit class why my poetry is written the way it is. It's written in an imagism style. Somehow I picked up that very simplistic style from William C Williams after reading The Red Wheelbarrow. Considering I wrote my first poem the same week as I read it, that would make sense. Most of my poetry falls into that definition, although I've started developing other styles in the last year (thanks to WDC).
So anyway, I may not reach my prior activity level but you might start seeing my name pop up a little more around on the site. |
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