whewww so I haven't blogged for aggess..sorry..I'm in the middle of exams!!!...ughh so boring..but I've only got 1 left on thursday!!..then I'm free forever!!!!...and I've done no work all weekend...ooooh well lol haha..not much else is going on in my life..today I went out for lunch with my friend......and we were acting reallly immature so I think the person in the cafe thought we were lesbians or something....oh well

sooo how is everyone doing??!

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OMG!!!..TOMMORROW I ELOISE AM 18!!!woooo ..im actually soooo excited and nothing can get me down tonight...not even tonnes of exams!!!......cos not only can I legally drink but im 18 and it will be my birthday and thanks just bloody exciting




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ok so this my third attempt at writing this..haha..seeing as it has cleared itself about 3 times..lol aah ...so I'm majorly stressed...if got loads of exams coming up and I seriously feel underprepared and I know I dont have time to do them...hmmm oh well ....just one fat fail coming up lol haha.....and I doubt il do any work on friday cos its my BIRTHDAY! ....hmmm im just fed up...ugh oh well..oh and some other good news..you know that poem which I wrote the other day! it came first in the competition!! Thanks everyone who reviewed it etc!


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Ok so instead of much needed revision today..I tended to another need..much 'needed' shopping ...I bought this really cute multi colour stripy bikini....and my mum was incredibly unsubtle about my birthday present...we were in boots and she was like...can you wait in here for about 20 mins while I just tend to something lol haha...then she came back with this massive grin on her face haha....I hope iv hinted enough about these two perfumes that I really want!lol haha

...ooh dear revision this holiday has been attempted but still rather minimal..I'm sort of worried...actually no scrap that im v.worried..but have reached the stage where I really couldn't care less its sunny and exams can go stuff themselves...:P hmmm ..I only need two Es to go to music college...but it would be nice to have good grades...history is going to be the death of me ...I can feel it...bloody Russia from Alexander II to Krushchev and silly Phillip II ...oh and just to top things off a retake which I originally got a B in on Luther and the German Reformation joy joy joy joy joy NOT

as they say in the film 'History Boys'
'history is just one f**king thing after another"



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Its so sunny !!yayyyy

sort of not helping the revision...because everytime I see work I look outside !lol hahaaaah Frank is beautiful as usual......and I realised today that its my birthday in exactly a week!!!!!!!!..how exciting..so I'm quite cheery today..despite work work work..lol 'work' ......ooh I can vote...I really want to vote for the Monster Raving Loony Party..who just want parties all the time!perfect eh!..but apparently there not enough members lol oh well...all these silly parties telling me lies...I hate politicians hmmmmm so the choice is..which one is the best of the worst??? lol

haha a quote for the day..from my favourite ever Frank

'come on Mr Putin'-

me: 'who's that'

Frank: 'ah thats just the name of my computer'

OMG HE IS A GENIUS!!! I loveee him...but sad sad news everyone...tommorrow and sunday are my last ever sessions with him ever .....AND guess what I found in his house....a 40th birthday candle he's 40 ..how depressing..thats old enough to be my dad oh well....some women have toy boys..so men can have toy girls I don't care

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So after about 2 years of no writing....a lightbulb has suddenly pinged...lol

so...here is my new poem

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I saw Frank today!!yayyy ...he was off in Croatia over the weekend with his wife ..ergh lol ha but he was sorting out his project for summer where he will spend two months in Croatia helping a community with building etc...aaaaah he is PERFECT ...shame about the wife though can't she just become a lesbian and then Il be the next person he sees as his tutee of course...and then he'll have to marry mee ....or maybe not.......hmmm the age gap would be rather large lol ....well he now is growing a beard..why oh whyyy Frankky ...oh well now he's more rough and ready rather than debonair...either way..its all good

thats it for now folks..not much else going on ....constant 'work' lol

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I just heard my neighbours having sex..ewwwwwwww why???!..for goodness sake and I just heard a bee die in my light!..great this day gets better lol ..haa I have literally done barely anything since the last blog post...on saturday night I went to the opera with my parents...which was fantastic...we saw Peter Grimes which is quite creepy but apart from that the singing was excellent ....and since then I have done nothing..except vague attempts at revision...but its been so sunny outside..and I just end up looking longingly outside lol..hmmmm and I realised that I left a history book at school which is really really irritating...hmmm oh and I've been swimming twice..yesterday I did 50 lengths and today 54!..wooo go me lol ....tommorrow I see the lovely Frank again (my HOT german tutor) ...he's been away in some country saving children this weekend..or something like that lol ..aaaah he's beeeautiful ...mm I wonder if his wife will be there?!..ok i've snapped out of that little daydream lol ...sorry haha my arms are aching now from swimming so I should stop typing lol

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Ok so I know I haven't blogged in a few days!!..sorry!!..I've been ridiculously busy...I had my music AS retake the other day which was quite good except for the ridiculously hard harmony questions at the end which everyone just guesses lol hmm and then we had a concert in Bath last night..so we got to spend an hour or so hanging round Bath!..which was fun...my friend Myles and I were wandering round the shops...and I swear that if he didn't have already have a girlfriend you'd think he was gay....

haa he was like 'ooh lets go to a shoe shop' and he loved all the pink stripy shirts ..especially ones with flowers on the inside!lol ...then he was obsessed with these black heels ...for me obviously lol ..but they were a bit expensive ...ha so I said that he really wanted he could always get them for me for my birthday which is 1 week and 6 days away!!

...I've now finished school forever!! and im at home for half term for a week ..no more lessons ever!..only 7 more exams though im so stresed..its so unfair..the government are mean mean people!lol

ooh and I went shopping today I bought some make up and some magazines and few other bits and bobs..not a big shop...I didn't get home from the concert til midnight so im tired ......

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How can someone be so bloody tired...cos I am completely knackered...ugh I just have never ending piles of work....and all lower 6th and Year 11 are on study leave now..but upper 6th are not on study leave until 2 weeks..but I suppose after my exams end I'll be finished with school forever!!....how scary is that!!..I'll have to act all responsible..I'm not sure I'm ready for proper responsibility ....I mean im excited but completely terrified..I don't even have accomodation sorted out for next year yet.....I could live at home but do I really want to be at home for uni!..I don't think so...lol ...

Every little issue I have lately is just getting blown out of proportion in my mind....Everything stresses me out.......and I've just realised I'm actually going to really really miss people next year..right now I feel safe...next year I'm on my own ..I have to start again completely..make new friends....and that seriously scares me...I've got my set of friends ..I know who I can talk to...I'm going to have form those bonds again...ugh its just terrifying...and what if I don't like it at music college?!.....ok I need to stop this now...I just can't stop thinking and worrying..thats all I do..worry..its ridiculous and I shouldn't..and my mum always says that im the most paranoid and neurotic person in the world...but maybe I don't want to be like that anymore..but I can't stop it...I over analyse everything anyone says .....ok im going to bed..im exhausted

night night

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Yesterday was ridiculously hectic!I had a full morning of saturday lessons then at 1 after downing my lunch lol in about 15 minutes I hopped on the coach (not literally)(I wonder if you could hop on a coach..it would be rather dangerous)
...then it was a 2 hour drive to honiton devon where we had rehersals all afternoon and a concert in the evening and some little church..seems like a bit of a waste of a concert travelling so far when we could have done a concert to the same amount of people, also at some little church about 20 minutes away..we didn't get back til about 12..aah so tired...but right now I'm all snuggled up in bed ..aah I love sunday mornings!

oooh and apparently England came 5th in Eurovision Song Contest last night!wooo finally!!..ok...I'm really not that sad that I care what happens in Eurovision ....maybe

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Sorry I didn't blog last night I was really stressed cos today I had my german exam!..which surprisingly was ok...well at the least I thought the writing# was...I got the question which I really wanted so I was happy..I dunno I think the listening and reading was ok...but I think there were a couple of iffy bits I dunno if thats just me though........ugh tommorrow I've got a concert in devon..I'm going be on a coach and in a church from 1pm til 12am!!!!!...aaaaa....so not in the mood....ooh dear iv got a bit of a fit of giggles at the moment cos my friend becca said that she was feeling a bit windy at the moment then my other friend iona said yes it is a bit windy today..and now the rest of the common room are getting pissed off with us giggling ..I suppose that is quite hypocritical of me seeing as the other day I was getting reallllly pissed off with people for giggling oh dear

I'm in such an odd mood today..thats what doing exams does to you.....aah I can't wait til sunday ..no more sillly concerts which take 2 hours to play one piece in......but I have got a few history essays which need doing oh well {e:laugh

see youu later

or in german

tchus

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why is everyone so annoying???!!!!...everything is getting on my nerves the whole time...omg I just feel so ridiculously claustrophobic..its like im in a prison!!..I just need space and there are always always people everywhere...and in the common room in the evening EVERYONE chats so you can't hear the tv and its just sooo frustrating....and in the evenings when im trying to work my roommates Helen and Emma (who don't get me wrong are lovely and really good friends) are either on the phone or watching movies.....so I end up working outside on the landing on the floor ughhh.....I everything is just getting to me...its not even Christmas and im feeling bah humbuggy lol :P....maybe im just a moody poo but everyone is just so annoying recently.......oh well....anyone good at german? because I've got a listening paper that needs doing which is impossible .....fun fun fun

haa what else happened today then...well we were used as an orchestra for some conductors workshop which was rather amusing....why do some people think that the 'crouch' position is a good way to conduct lol ..ha then in the cathedral I knocked the priest guy which my stool in his crotch...he let out a rather large ''ooph" sooo embarassing lol
oh dear im just too clumsy lol

night night
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Anyone ever seen Summer Heights High? its this Australian comedy set in a school...and omg its actually hilarious!..haa..well its helping me procrastinate from doing work anyway lol hmmm I got back my german coursework today..ughhh I got a C/D which im soo pissed off about seeing as I handed it in to the teacher about a month ago and he said to me that it was fine and good and that I should just check grammer a bit so I did and I thought I might just get a B or an A on it..but ooooh no he is a stupid arseface man..and so yeah im pretty pissed off...hmmm and also Im just finding I can't actually work...and I'm so tired the whole time so my eyes just shut when I try ...tonight my friend Becca and I went swimming....we were in the girls changing room for about 20 minutes! because there were about 10 guys from my school in the pool and that was it...and due to a slight mishap my daarling mother decided she'd send me my bikini rather than my tankini....soo I felt like I was basically standing in front of a load of guys in my underwear..which if you think about it is basically what a bikini is!lol ohhh dear...haha we felt sooo unfit we were panting and out of breath after half a length and my mum, who is in her 50s can do 54 lengths without stopping!!..how shameful!..my mum's more fit than me
.....and I'm sort of missing home a bit...im just feeling quite claustrophobic here...I think its because I wont have gone home until half term which means 6 weeks of wells which is in the middle of the countryside..which means sheep sheep sheep oh and the odd cow or buffalo?!!? maybe not ,,,,,and normally I go home at least one every 6 weeks but I have exams and loads of music commitments ugh I just feel so fed up the whole time at the moment...aah these exams do not help..there are so many things I'm dreading this week as well..namely rehersals tommorow from 1:30-6 then on thursday from 5-6 and 7-9 then friday I have an exam then straight after a rehersal and a concert then saturday school in the morning rehersals in the afternoon and a concert in the evening...aaaaaaahhh

sorry this seems to have turned into a boring ramble about work..which is not what I wanted to think about..but I can't seem to get the work out of my mind..aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

to end on a happy note...to quote Summer Heights High which if you haven't seen you absolutely HAVE to...

'she's a naughty girl with a bad habit, a bad habit for druugs...e e e e ecstasy'.....ok I just realised that might have put you off hahaha but trust me its completely hilarious

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so...well my friend Jen has been suspended...and she misses our last ever summer ball. ( however she isn't going to be suspended til the last week of term which is really sad..I suppose I do feel sorry for her but she did bring it on herself...everyone is talking about her and stuff and she's all over the rumours board! which to be honest I think is a bit unfair..after all she does have feelings and yes, she did do something very very stupid but still..people should just mind their own business..hmmm nothing else that interesting is happening in my life..I have a ton of work and my silly history teacher ripped apart an essay which I'd spent dayys on which is just so frustrating..I've got a German A level on friday and im just terrified...im not ready..I don't feel prepared and im completely exhausted....tommorow iv got SCO (string chamber orchestra) rehersals all evening which means I can't go to yoga ( and friday and saturday I have concerts...aaaaaaaaaahh I need a man in my life lol...haha at least to cheer me up a bit....but right now I'm at a boarding school..where the best looking, nicest or single guy is a sheep!!for crying out loud....I might as well became a nun for my last term lol :P...oooh and the most embarassing thing happened today..this guy Nathan who was a bit obsessed with my friend and I was asking us out to the pub and stuff...and he hadn't texted in agges which was so refreshing...and now guess what...he's started working in the starbucks down the road!..geeez can I not get any piece and quiet!!lol ....iv got a busy day tommorrow so I should stop attacking my computer and sleeep

nighty night everyone

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ok...so wow its been ages since iv logged onto writing.com!..I suppose time just goes sooo quickly and other things take priority... ..well I'm in my last year of school now and its slightly scary that I have exams in a few weeks and to be quite honest..I feel less than prepared....

This weekend has been such amazing weather!!...today my friends and I were sitting outside on the grass for the whole day...I felt so lazy ..lol :P...well my head sort of hurt from the sixth form party last night ha...I went as a ballerina and wore a bright pink tutu which was completely awsome...my friend jen got in sooo much trouble though...because she drunk loads of wine beforehand and got sent to slodge (the medical centre)....I know this sounds harsh but I don't feel sorry for her..she'll almost certainly get suspended tommorrow when she has to see the deputy head mr cain and i won't be surprised if she gets banned from the sixth form ball...especially seeing as at the last sixth form party she went to she got suspended for drinking ooo dear..hmm I don't think mrs walkey (the head of sixth form) appreciated being told to "f**k off you homosexual" :P OH DEAR I told her she just needs to cry a lot and basically beg forgiveness..but hmmm I doubt it will make a difference..she's a bit of a plonker if you ask me..hmmmm tommorrow will be interesting....

Eloise xx
 

Today has been a pretty shit day...

basically last night a girl and guy in the year below were caught having sex in the conference room..butt naked by a teacher....oops lol ...the whole school is talking about it...whether they'll get suspended or expelled...technically they're already suspended until the end of the half term which is the end of next week...but hmmmm its all pretty confusing....

Secondly iv just been feeling a bit shit today because I dunno..but I feel like im not as good friends with some people anymore...and it just feels different..hmm I need to think about it more...

..but good news..I'm going to Hong Kong on a symphony orchestra tour for 10-11 days in the easter holidays...well technically I only miss about 3 days of the holidays and about a week of school....lol but yayy its really exciting..but nerve wracking as well...the longest flight I've ever been on is about 5 hours and I've never been jetlagged so its going to be hell coming back...

I'm also stressing slightly because I need to sort out uni applications...I've already sorted music college applications..but I'm a bit worried that they've received all the information and that my application has been processed...I dunno..maybe I'm just being paranoid...but its quite stressful...ugh..

I'm going to bed now...so night :)

Eloise xx
 

Today I had a double bass lesson...and my teacher says I should have no trouble getting into music college but I suppose I'm just still really nervous..and I still feel I'm not really doing enough practise..I mean how much is enough?? lol...and I Hate my history teacher!!!!!..she is such a bitch to me...basically I wrote this essay...and she was really annoying and basically read out to the rest of the class all of my bad bits and asked them why they thought it was bad!!..what the hell..who gives her the right to say that...ok so my class is only two guys or..'the 2 George's' as they are known..and I get on well with them..although recently they've been irritating me but still..its embarassing...ugh

Tommorrow I'm going home until thursday night!!!.yaaayy ..because its the Jewish festival of Yom Kippur...although it is the Day of Atonement..but oh well..at least I'm going home

I'm up to date with work so thats all good...but I've still got loads to do ugh and amusant fact of the day..tonight we watched the 'sex education show' lol and a woman on it had sex 60 times with 60 different people between the ages of 15-16..hope that has cheered you up..

Eloise xx
 

absolutely nothing really..thats the truth...well..I'm back at school..have tonnes of work...have to apply to unis etc...although I've already applied to music colleges now...I've got my auditions in just over a month, how scary is that!!!?? I can't believe...I suppose I'll never feel prepared enough but especially now..after auditioning for String Chamber Orchestra..I have been made sub-principal..which I suppose I should be happy about ...but I wish I was principal..especially seeing as the guy who is principal is an annoying arsehole and a bit of a shit really and is also applying to music college...

...I just feel like my life is one big competition at the moment ugh......there is sooo much more to say right now...but I'm just too tired to say it all...so I suppose it will have to wait...ughh..another big procrastination in my life...

Eloise xx
 

I have been away in Berlin over the weekend..which was sooo nice except for my parentals driving me mad....my mum kept on making me ask random people questions in German so I could practise!!..and I would take my dictionary round all the art galleries and museums so I could translate all the audios and written things...ughh stressful or what..on Saturday night, we went to the Berlin Staatsoper...and the president and major of Germany were there!!...which was hilarious when this man came onto the stage and said this and the whole audience starting clapping and looking over at them and going "oooooh" in their German accents.....then he left and everyone was going "oooh" to each other and then they all started peering over again and clapping ..lol

hmm on another note...I haven't seen Nick at all since the last time!!!!..I was meant to be seeing him and some other tonight...and one of the main reasons I was going was because he was going to be there lol..but he's had this amazing deal with this singer songwriter who he's writing a song for so is going to be in the studio with her all day ughhh and I have tons of work still left to do and packing because guess what...I go back to school tommorrow!!..great...and I'm really annoyed because I was going to check with him tonight that it was still ok with me crashing at his after his barbecue in a couple of weeks...but I won't see him til then...hopefully he's remembered..or he doesn't mind still..otherwise I'm screwed...lol ughhhh

Eloise xx