and I have decided to become a third-party representative. I'm gathering everyone's stories and such... I'll just have to see how this goes.... [More]

I drove a car today. Now I want my permit. Sigh... [More]

I found out that a play I am starring in opens the exact same weekend of that I have the state swim meet in Vegas. And there's no way I can do the two. I don't have an understudy for my part and there are only five guys available that play parts that require a male part... So then I had to consider what I would miss in each: For the play: National Thesbian Society points (which I need to enter my play into this contest), a load of respect from the other actors, and above all, a lo... [More]

I learned that a car alarm goes off about every twenty minutes in a Walmart parking lot, and is usually silenced within ten seconds. Crappy psychics are a waste of money. True psychics are totally worth an hour and 15 mins of handing out fliers. Rolos and MilkDuds are amazing. When I wear white goul make-up, the green in my eyes burns with a center of gold. (Vanity moment.)... [More]

I am looking at the anthology I am now published in. I am published. I feel great. Distance swimmers aquire a rather remarkable ability to automatically build each distance they swim. They also have a long-term super-burst they can activate when they need. Sprinters lack this.... [More]

I've found myself addicted to Forgive Durden. I actually begin to shake when I'm on withdrawl. Forgive Durden is a musical group. No noise at night is much better than music. Then again, I may just be getting really tired. I almost grew an addition to cough drops... but I still have this damn cold. It isn't contagious, but I'm still coughing every day. Maybe it's in the water I'm drinking... Keva Juice... Mmmm I will not tollerate immaturity from little fre... [More]

No longer shall this blog be about the things that I did today, but simply the thoughts I have throughout the day. These can be comical or depressing... Here are my thoughts over the last few days why I was hacking my guts out while sick: The energies of my room have shifted once more. I have to stop sleeping backwards (with my head at the foot of the bed.) I wonder just how easily it is to stab a knife into my mannequin's back. Does Pandora deserve to live after betrayin... [More]

I just spent the last five days in Oregon, driving along the coast and seeing plays in Ahland for their Shakespeare festival. I saw Macbeth, beautifully done and interpreted into a cold, dark, military-styled masterpiece. The acting--brilliant. I wish I could've seen more. And the rest of the time was spent wandering down the coast. I got to see the Cape Blanco lighthouse and the scrawny cat that prowls the grounds. But now I'm back here, in Nevada... just in time for a swim meet. ... [More]

The damn heat waves have rooted themselves in the infertile earth and are now looking into my window, breathing songs of hopeless, meaningless life. I'm sitting here with my laptop, and somehow I can get the creativity out of my fingertips. My grandpa told me it's a unique gift to be able to create in the heat. I guess it is... Also, I found this awsome book called "Wreck This Journal." I especially enjoy it as a writer. That enjoyment is increased ten fold with my attration t... [More]

Friday was my REAL first day of lifeguarding... and it was a lot more boring than I thought. And you wouldn't believe how many stupid little shit heads decide to hang out at the pool. This little fat kid asked me if he could climb up onto the lifeguard stand. Another guy asked me if both he AND his friend could jump off the diving board at the same time. People are just a huge pain in the ass. But today I did the second day of swim lessons. Those aren't much better, plus you have t... [More]

No idea what that means. but summer has started again and I feel no different. ... [More]

On Wednesday, it was my first day of weights in a few weeks. I hurt... quite a bit... And right after practice I went to my writing class, and then right after that I went to an hour-and-a-half-long improve show. when I got home I had to do my four-page math packet, due the next day, but I hadn't yet taken a shower... so I got in the shower, hurried out and did my math packet... but then creative energy struck and I had to write the first scene in a new paly idea. I went to be a little befor... [More]

And today I did absolutely nothing. Literally, along the lines of doing nothing productive. I sat around and watched cartoons (of all things) and Japanese commercials on YouTube. And that's my week in a wrap. Very little productivity there, but I did end up earning forty bucks house sitting. I had a swim meet all weekend, one I had to set up for Friday, a completely different one Saturday I had to swim in, and one on Sunday where I dropped time in all my events... which I haven't ... [More]

I'm sick, for the first time in quite a while. I'm conjested and my throat is red and sore. I can't go a minute without caughing. Yesterday my mom took me to the store to get a jalapeno to clear out my sinusses. They didn't have any jalapenos so we got this tiny, little green pepper instead. My mouth burned for an hour and it was so awful I cried. The juices slipped between my jaws and up into my ears and down in my throat. It cleared my nose for five minutes. At the swim mee... [More]

And as the title suggests, I went to the carnival this weekend. This is what happened: 1.) We got on a pendulum boat ride. After we were seated, two women (whome I'm sure were drunk) came in and started making jokes about which seats looked the sexies... (I really wish I knew what they were talking about.) They decided on one and sat down. A few seconds later, one of the women looks up and goes, "this seat is wet." So then they moved. 2.) We went into the house of earthquakes. ... [More]

What's on my mind today? A little slice of: Some G-G F E(flat) D, E, D, D, E, D, G. Would it be mad? (D, C, B(flat), C, G.G) If you planted a seed and outsprouted a man and he can (A(flat), A(flat), G, G, G(flat), G(flat), G, G. Yes, a new song and it's pure chaose, but in my head it's wonderous! Truly it is. I've been on such a philisophic-creative mood. It's tres fantastic! But since my cat is clawing at my ass right now, I guess I should go fead her.... [More]

So my life in review since I ast updated-- A girl passed out at a swim meet two weeks ago and slipped under the water, despite her being an expirienced swimmer. They cancelled the meet and won't be redoing it. My writing class is back up (same teacher, same time, same place.) so I now have something to do on Wednesdays. I also have a new story idea about fungus and alternate realities (but not dimentions... ooo, scary!). My new play idea, also, is now at 40 minutes after working on it for... [More]

My play is now at 29m 30s. That's about it... [More]

I finished my novel just five minutes ago and I feel very satisfied with the ending. It's completed stage is 106,000 words. Now it needs to be revised...... [More]

So I am going to attempt to write the rest of this blog entry in Frech without using a translator: Je ne ce pas quell je parle. Je n'aime pas le vent dans mes cheveux. Ma chatte aime dormir sur les portes. Je veux un peguin dans mon chex de la marrionettes. Hehe. Ma famille est tres dysfonctionnelle. Pourquoi? J'aime beaucoup le pluie et le neige. Je n'aime pas nager. Je cree avec mon crayon. Je n'ai pas une copine, ou une cherie. Je veux tomber amoureaux. (I do not know wh... [More]

And so I was at a swim meet in San Franscisco. the change of location was really nice I have to say. When Sunday morning came and it was raining like the world had been turned upside-down and then back over again, I knew it was going to be... great(?). I would be fine if the pool was indoors, but it sat outside in the rain and the cold. Durring warm-ups my towel fell on the ground--with everyone else's--and got soaked, but not soaked enough to wring the water out... just enough to make the t... [More]

I started my spring cleaning early and have now deleted all the items in my portfolio which I have no use for. Other than that, things are okay.... [More]

And that philosophy organizes the world by those who contribute to society: Visionaries: Have a passion for an art or contributing to society. Accomplices: Have a passion, though not necesarily for art or society. These people help and take a major part of the Visionaries' lives. Followers: Those who believe in the cause or work of a Visionary, but don't have a real passion. Majority of the population. Vacuous: Those who do nothing and take nothing. Parasites: The individu... [More]

I love a super bowl. You can fit a ton of icecream and cereal inside... However, I HATE the Super Bowl--the football one--in which there is next to no entertainment. Sports offer nothing to society other than low levels of blood-lust entertainment, unlike a play or story which has characters and plot. We are next to animals when we watch to entities fight one another for some purpose or another, using no part of our human logic. They say sports require strategy and endurance. All that's i... [More]

But I've started this writing class... takes place on Wednesdays for another 7 weeks. that's about all that's happened.... [More]

That's how many words my novel is now... AND I GET TO FINALLY CALL IT A NOVEL! This is great! And yet I have an odd feeling that I've had ever since about noon today... It's a question that's been hanging in my mind for the last week, but it really became clear what that question is. Why? I don't know what I'm asking why about, but it's given me this feeling of light depression and dread... I don't know. It's wierd.... [More]

And I have to say it was a great 08... despite the math teacher retardation in 8th grade. I'm already use to the new year though, they really aren't that different from one another... But yesterday (New Year's Eve) I: 1. Checked on my cat and discovered that the bottom of her pad has now fallen off and putting the antiseptic on her is going to hurt like a bitch... 2. Re-did my lighthouse drawing that I have here online, but this time I did it on sketch paper with charcoal and ... [More]

My cat's paw has been cut open somehow, probably when she was playing in the garage. Two of the pads are cut open and she limps everywhere and can't run. she's been sleeping most of the day and I've been putting anticeptic in the wounds to help fight infection. The last thing I want is for an amputation to occur. right now she's snuggled up on my bed with her tail over her nose. And speaking of my room, I went through my desk and cleaned a bunch of crap out. on the way I d... [More]

And so today is Christmas... and we finally had snow on Christmas. The last time that happened was when about six years ago... but just like Nevada weather, it has to get out of control with awful winds that knock you off your feet. I didn't get much today, just a book with writing excersizes, The Thing (1980's version) on BlueRay, a binder of sorts (which I will not go into detail on), and a new notebook for when I run out of room in my other one... but I'm just ahppy that it... [More]

despite the finals... I have all A's so that's what I'll be finishing the semester with... practically. I have three finals tomorrow and then three more on Thursday, but then I have an all class minimum day on Friday... We did our annual white elephant gift exchange today instead of swimming... Horray!!!!! I ending up geting a five pound box of fudge and my gift, a bag of pastachios went to none other than my swim coach... who loves them. And so I have three more days left... t... [More]

was just amazing... despite the fact that they only picked about 15 acts of the 50 that auditioned (this being bad because I was not one of those acts) and a demented 8th grader got my phone number... let her know that I am going to delete it from her phone tomorrow!!! Muwahahaha But I know what my contest play is going to be about which only took me the time to pull an element out of my failed novel attempt "One By One". On Thursday for Game Day, we played soccer, but since some o... [More]

No, it didn't snow... no, I didn't write and publish the great American novel yet! But I have been delving into the mysterious relm of playwrighting... and there is a national contest for young playwrights. All I have to do is write a 30 minute play of any theme, send it in and if I am one of the four people chosen, then I get to go to a thesbian festival and turn the script into a play in a week of chaos. so that's a new goal that I have. I also auditioned for the school talen... [More]

has come and gone, just like the wind singing a song... even though song and gone technically don't rhyme... Thanksgiving was amazing and wonderfully delicious... and NaNoWriMo has gone away... another one that I was about to participate in, but got distracted/lost inspiration in the story... which is good. A sacrafice of something quick for something of quality. And so the countdown to Christmas is upon us... if you're one to celebrate that. Something odd has happened today. My... [More]

The most that dared to happen this weekend was at swimming. there are these tings called dead men and you basically lay face down in the water for ten seconds then push off the the wall and do 50 yards. The thing is that you have to hold your breath from the moment your face is in the water to when you touch the wall. I managed to do two of these on Friday night. And so Thanksgiving is coming up. My uncle and his girlfriend are driving up from Vegas to stay for a few days and I plan on doing ... [More]

As I was watching the news today, there was a huge story about how the new Twilight movie is coming out and how the first few shows have been sold out. I have never been a big fan of the book, or anything to do with vampires, so it didn't interest me much. I continued to do my English homework. So then my grandpa asked me if I thought it would be awesome if I wrote a book and I got millions of dollars in revenues from it and the movie. I (also having to point out the fact that they majori... [More]

I was in Las Vegas for the last four day for the state championship swim meet. I took time of of stuff and did fairly well I guess, but I'm not too concerned about swimming, unlike my friend who's, with all due respect (assuming some can be found), nothing but an ass-kissing muscle head. All he does is complain about things to his "friends" and when he's around the older kids he is at their feet, polishing them with his mouth... damn it's annoying... But I wrote over 1... [More]

It went really well. I had a great time... And I started NaNo... and the site wont upload my word count... so...... [More]

Mon is what a French cow says... So tomorrow is Halloween and I am planning the final details of a get together I am planning... And there is morning practice tomorrow. But it rained! And it got cloudy and I got some amazing pictures. No school tomorrow in celebration of the state's birthday. Nevada is a wasteland state, but we get the last Friday of the month of October off.... [More]

Last night I met my friend Jules' sister who is the funniest dork I know. We went to the local haunted house, a thrill atttraction known as Grimes Castle... that goes on once a year. the entire time we were walking through it we would point out the obvious places where the people were hiding and then laughing about it once they popped out. There was a time when a deformed clown was standing in a doorway and he told us to go right. So we did and Jules' sister went "Oh, it's going ... [More]

This morning I got a flu shot. Now this seems unpleasant to a lot of people, but I actually kinda enjoy getting shots... It's just one of those affinities I have. Then I wrote 3,000 words in a new story today... one that is a potential novel idea. I'm not releasing any details yet from fear of being acused by your super religious people... And today was topped with a medium rare, 16oz. steak. It was amazing!... [More]

YES! A fantastic day. Even though i had to get up early... and on my own to go to swim practice, today was great. No school. I worked on my NaNo novel preperations, I drew an awesome picture of one of the delusions that the protagonist has... well that was a week ago actually... and openned my Baldwin Upright and covered it in fake spider webs. I also got a chance to use the intergrated webcam that my laptop has and it works great. I talked to my friend over Yahoo messenger... even though she do... [More]

I have finally received my laptop and it is fantastic! i absolutely love it! Tomorrow is a day for all the teachers in the school district to go to school so the students do not have to go to school... i still have morning practice, but then I'm free to go home and relax... Hey, weekends are NOT enough...... [More]

It snowed... It actually snowed on and off today! None of it stuck... but... Today was just all around good... Until I checked my e-mail, but I discovered that only complaining about the reviews that I get brings opression so I'm not going to complain... because that causes opression... which leads to more complaints... And that is the magic of circular thinking... And I have a list of why I actually like swimming: 1.)You get to know a lot of really cool people who offer advice ... [More]

Why I Love swim practice and the swim team: 1.)There are awesome people who are full of wisdom and advice, such as "Vote for Obama, not the creepy old guy with the bulgy cheek." 2.)Swim meets are the best! If the weather is at its extremes, then you either freeze to death, or suffer from fatigue and sunburns. 3.)Lengthy IM sets build character! 4.)Being in the pool makes time go by slower! 5.)A.M. practice in the outdoor pool wakes anyone up. 6.)Weights in the hot, stuffy gym... [More]

Nothing has changed... I've been preping for NaNo... But everything else, sadly, is the same...... [More]

Very slowly. Over the last 14 years it has gone from happy times to recession, especially increasing over the last three years. My grandparents hate each other and are constantly arguing. My grandma prefers to sleep out of the couch because she can watch tv without disturbing anyone and because that means less time she has to spend with my grandpa. They both act like they're grandiose over each other but they are just as bad. My granma only bitches about how crappy her life is and yells a... [More]

Odd title, yes... but I am looking foreward to NaNo. I'm actually doing it this year. Half day in school today... Now I have a lot of biology homework to do. and French 1 stuff... yay? I'm beginning to feel like I'm slipping way from other people in my life. I can't explain it... My thoughts are really jumbled right now. Sorry for the inconvinience... [More]

I found out why my mom has been gone a lot recently... And it's because of her cardiac problems... She was crying today because she almost had to go to the hospital. I've never seen her afraid of her own mortality before...... [More]

or being in a discovery science class with ditzy sophmores and one odd sub is really fun. The other day we learned the difference between magic and science... No joke... seriously... we did. And then the sub tried to convince us (And was 90% successful at it) that magic is science... so when she asked us to identify what was magic and what was science... things got really odd. Pretty ODD. She has a lot of energy... But that is my super science class. Le Woot? And I realized how much ... [More]

Instead of blistering heat today, I awoke to a rather chilly room! Yes, the heat is beginning to back off. The air is only 70 degrees... and that's a little cold actually. But I finally feel comfortable. I saw Journey to the Center of the Earth and the effects were really neat. The story line reminded me of one of Clive Cussler's books. I don't remember which one, but it's the one about Joule Vern's diary... Anyway. I'm happy. The wind outside is blowing, but it is ... [More]