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Again an entry, sparked by Satuawany . She's blogging on her dreams for a contest, and I figured I wouldn't clutter up her comments, but make my own entry on what my brain does when I'm not around.
I'm not a constant dreamer. I remember few of them and always have. I have always dreamed in color, and sometimes the colors are very intense and dominate the whole dream. I've had an orange dream, a blue dream, and one that was predominantly green and purple. Mostly, the colors are just realistic, so you don't realize they are there, but there's usually a very colorful element in it that I remember, like a piece of clothing or an object on a table or something.
The intense color dreams always have a special meaning to me, and they are always beautiful. The blue one was about sailing, and the sea was such a strong and dark blue, it seemed painted. I felt at home, safe and free, and it may well be the most beautiful dream I've ever had. The orange dream played out in autumn, the leaves were yellow and red, the sky was golden, and I found two tiger babies in a cave. (Don't ask me where that comes from.) There was nothing religious about the dream, nor am I religious, but in the dream I felt I was experiencing something spiritual. The green and purple one had a symbolism that I found very befitting at the time I had it. I was planting (purple) seeds below the leaves of a large plant.
In my dreams I spend a lot of time, looking for things in labyrinthine buildings or cities. The buildings rarely ever have a straight line, and apart from walking I often find myself climbing up a wall, or gliding down a tunnel. The light seems to come from all directions. Often the dreams end with the classical being unable to move motive.
One thing that is peculiar about my dreams is that I have deja-vus in dreams, or more precisely a dream memory that is independent of my waking memory. What I mean is that in a dream, I might realize I've been here before, and I can recall an incident that happened here, errh, there, whatever. But the memory is from an earlier dream, and more than once, when I woke up, I knew I hadn't remembered the dream when I had dreamed it first. So when I'm in one of these strange buildings, i might know exactly where to turn because I remember it from another dream.
I've had lucid dreams. In the first and best one I taught myself to fly. I had wings like a dragonfly. But these days, lucidity occurs only in nightmares. When I've got nightmares, I fight. In dreams I've killed several errr characters. They are mostly humans. It's when they turn to monsters that I realize I'm not awake, and then I order myself to wake up. It's not always successful because then I dream waking up and being in my familiar surrounding. Once I found myself on my sofa with my boy-friend sitting next to me. I told him I was so happy to see him because I'd had a nightmare. He bent over to kiss me and his face turned into a devilish visage. I woke up screaming.
I've died only once in a dream, and that was last week, and I was killed. It wasn't a nightmare; the atmosphere was rather comedic. I dreamed I was lying in bed when a trap door opened in the ground, and three young people got out. A man and two women. Young, good-looking guys. The boy took out a gun and shot my boy-friend and me. I got up and scolded him that this was a nasty thing to do. "You killed me. You can't do that!" He went pale and apologized; in fact, he was completely shocked. I figured it was because I wasn't supposed to be speaking, being dead. Then I told him to leave, and he replied he had something to do. He summoned the two women and they went out to the balcony. I waited for them to come back, and it took me a while to realize that they had jumped. I felt guilty, I shouldn't have been so hard on that guy, I didn't want him to kill himself. I ran out to the balcony and looked down. The police were there, I could see them several stories below. Two plain-clothes policemen stood directly in front of the balcony. They were very large, but not enough to account for the height on which their head were. I could look directly into their eyes. But they weren't floating either. They were talking about the suicide, ignoring me completely. It was then I realized I was a ghost, and I thought, well, then I should be spooking. So, I tried to say boo to one of the men in front of me. But I couldn't move, and then I woke up.
If that tells you anything about my personality, I'd be interested in hearing it. If it tells you, I'm nuts - I know that already.
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