My days have been getting mixed up lately, I feel. Usually around this time of year, I'd be getting excited, or something. I mean, there's three (sort of) big holidays coming up. I should be all "hip-hip-hooray" and whatnot, but...everything is just dull nothingness.

Around the time Halloween comes around--a rocking holiday, I feel--I'm wanting to watch creepy movies with my friends and family, or something. I mean, I've thought about it lately, but the same energy I usually get just doesn't show up.

Did I mess myself up somehow lately?

And though Thanksgiving will be coming around the corner, I don't find any enthusiasm for that either, even though there will be some days out of school for that as well. I don't remember much excitement in the past for that holiday, but it wasn't boring every-day feelings when the holiday was getting closer.

And then there's Christmas coming up.

Every year I start getting excited for the colors and scents and traditions for Christmas, but this year there seems to be nothing. It's not looking good. When am I going to want to start wishing for Christmas songs, or look forward to the cold sort of nights when I get to freeze a bit, but then have our crazy heater come on, or get blinded by the snow, or slip on the ice, or freeze my nose off in the morning, and blah blah blah? I hope my days straighten out a bit so I can start being excited again.

I feel I'm sort of a creature of habit, I guess. That's why I start feeling out of place when things start to change.

Anyhow, I haven't been looking forward to the cold lately. Usually when I can smell (yes, I'm kind of a weirdo) the cold, bitter winter winds come during fall, I get sort of cheery, knowing Christmas and such is on its way. When I notice that these days, I'm like "Can I just go somewhere sunny and warm now?"

I used to love and appreciate my pine-green and gray town, not caring much about the sun-orange and beach-yellow cities (that's how I imagine some of the coastal cities), but now I'd rather be near a beach or something, someplace warm.

I'm not going to dwell on that right now, though. I hear lots of people around this time of year complain about it being so cold or how they'd rather be in Florida or something. I'd rather not be like that, even if I already am.