Song: "All the Right Moves" by OneRepublic

So that song is pretty good. It puts me in a good mood, at least for now. Though maybe I was in a good mood before I listened to it, again. Anyway, it's the day before Veterans' Day, but I'm not going to let it depress me.

Today my class and some seniors to ASVAB tests. It's supposed to help you figure out where you'd be if you wanted to join the military, to help you learn more about yourself, and to help you understand what job might be best for you. So, hearing those things, I was pretty psyched to take the test.

I have a lot of trouble trying to decide and think about my future. Supposedly I am good at a lot of things, and that's not really a great thing. I sort of wish I was great with one thing so I didn't have to figure out by myself on what I want to do. Usually when I have to think about college, school, my future, and other stuff, I tune it out and just tell myself I won't have a future. I pretty much have myself believing that, but maybe this test will help me choose something besides being a homeless person in the future.

It'll be kind of sad, or maybe ironic, if the test says I'd do best if I joined the military. I doubt that would happen, but it would still be ironic to me. Though maybe that's what I'd need.

Oh, my dog is starting to play fetch. That's kind of exciting, to me. Playing fetch with a dog is kind of amusing for me. I don't know why.

Also, I'm sort of getting back in the mood to write. Even though I'm in the mood, though, it's still hard for me to accomplish it. So far I'm halfway through writing another chapter (whether it's bad or not) but I still need to add more to it, though I'm not sure what I need to add yet.

So I'm no longer sure of what else to write. Well, the feeling of big holidays coming up is getting stronger; I'm starting to get kind of excited. I hope to sing some Christmas carols and stuff with my voice lessons soon. I think that could be fun. Plus, I sort of feel like I want to be something almost big in the future, like be in some music or acting deal. Like, I think it would be cool to go to different places and sing for people, but probably not by myself. It would be fun to have a band with some friends or something and be good at it and be recognized for any skills we have. So today I told Tyler that we should sing some sort of duet for the chorus concert, just because I want to get good at singing and sing in front of people. I once told McKayla and possibly Abbey that we should write an awesome song that people would like to sing along to (like "Rooftops (A Liberation Broadcast)" by Lostprophets) and sing it during the Talent Show at school. But McKayla doesn't want to draw attention to herself.

All in all, my day was pretty ok. There were moments Josh picked on me--he always seems to do that now--but I'm mostly tolerating it. In art class he didn't say much to me, but I did tell him to shut his mouth at one point, I guess. In lunch I made a shooting-myself-in-the-head gesture--I do that a lot, I suppose--and he'd said "Just do it already!" and I stared at him for a bit, but then Tyler swallowed his food and was like "Oh, nu-uh! We only do that to people we don't like; we like Amber!" I was sort of amused and kind of glad Tyler stuck up for me (usually I'm left to fend for myself), and I was still kind of happy even after Josh was like "What?! No." in what I suppose was his way of disagreeing on the "we" in "we like Amber!" But oh well. I'd just laughed.

So, yup, today was good. I'm still in a good mood. Hopefully I will be for the rest of the day, and I think it would be great if I got to stay home tomorrow and be in a happy mood. Yeah, that'd be real nice.