Hi Shellyville,

I'm looking for something to do today. I am so bored already. I should never be bored. Life is full of all kinds of things to keep me busy, yet...I feel I have run out of ideas.

Shame on me! I shouldn't, wouldn't, couldn't be like this!

When will I ever feel my internal fire burn again? I even hate to say this, let alone think it, but it is time for me to get some kind of job. Yikes. I said it.

I need more. It is time to go volunteer and make myself known in the mental health community. I don't have to wait until I have my degree. I should be doing something now. Life is slipping by and I am watching it.

I can't wait to help others...so what is stopping me?

Fear. Ever hear of it? Fear is a wild beast that roams my mind at times. He robs me of confidence. He tells me I won't find anything. He tells me I won't be good enough. I hate that voice. I wonder why I let it determine my happiness. Why would I let this monster roam free in my precious mind?

Today, I am going to set the beast free. I am going to go take my shower, get dressed and look for something to occupy my mind. I can do it!

Love,
Michelle