I am loving all the changes that are being made to writing.com. It seems like SM and SMs along with all their help from others (mods and above) are really shaping this place up.

I wish there was an easier way to format stories and such though. It should work that if you copy something from your computer to a spot in your port that it looks the same way without having to save it and realize that the spacing, especially between paragraphs, is all wrong. It should look in the editing/saving part the way it will look after you save it. Also the tabs need to be better. I don't indent my paragraphs because it is too much hassle and the tabs are too deep. The formatting for items is really not writer friendly. Just my humble opinions.

I got the drawing books so I am doing sketches of my different races. I haven't drawn the main character yet, I am waiting for my sketching to improve. I hope to get a sketch book and start really sketching different things. My sketching isn't good enough to do illustrations, but someday it might with practice. I would never offer my services as an artist however. My talent lies in my writing and the only sketching I will be doing is for my own writings.

I got some clay to try to make tools for my Wiccan practices. It's not going well. I need to look at something to make it and I think I am trying too hard. I have to admit though that when I was young I used to be able to do pretty good roses but even those are lacking this time. Like I said with my sketching: practice, practice, practice.

At least all this is giving me something to do, along with my sewing and crocheting. It's all going fairly well and I am enjoying just being able to take the time and do what comes to mind and where my inspirations take me.

Wth me not being on the computer that much Bob has been on a writing streak. I knew that I was in his way or at least giving him a good excuse to procrastinate. I guess one of his stories is just about finished and he might go for publication soon. That would be really great.

I also have to say something here about how great he has been for me. He lets me experiment and find my own way instead of trying to make me what he thinks I should be. It sometimes makes me feel like I have no direction, but he gently reminds me that's because I am so used to everyone else pushing me to be what they want. I have been able to find myself, experiment in things that I would have never thought I was truly capable of, and just be... me, whoever that is. I'm finding out slowly, thanks to him.

I thank the dieties every day for Writing.com. If it wasn't for here, I wouldn't be trying to write anymore, and I definitely would have never found Bob. It has enhanced my life more than anyone can know and blessed me with some of the best things in my life. Thank you just doesn't seem like enough.

Peace, Much Love, and Blessed Be,
Kristiana


 

... a little rain must fall. I just wish my family would stop getting torrential downpours.

My sister was in a car accident yesterday morning. She's fine, just has a brace on one leg that goes from high thigh to mid shin. However, their only car was totalled. Stupid guy ran a red light and clipped her front end. She has two witnesses so all she got was a ticket for not having proof of insurance in the car (it's John's car and for some odd reason he carries it on him). Anyhow what was going to be a skimpy Christmas has turned even skimpier as she has to help invest in a new car, and until then everyone has to take busses to work. Lovely. At least she is off work until Tuesday.

We had to invest in a new water heater. Ours has been acting up and now it's making this clicking noise like it's having trouble turning on. Oh well. At least we have one on order and they are going to take payments.

my brother is still in financial stress. He is going to school on a grant, but that doesn't help the fact that his unemployment runs out soon after the first of the year. As it is he's been going to his in-laws to eat and they are paying for his lot rent. That's not going to save his car if he doesn't find another source of income and quick.

I wish I could help them. I wish we had more money. I wish, I wish, I wish. I wnat my computer set up. I want my office to get more organized. I want, I want, I want. My hope is fading, my dreams are all on hold. Everything I do seems to cost money that I don't have. I suppose life will go on and I should be grateful for what I do have, but sometimes it doesn't seem like much. All I can do is go from day to day with the little hope that I do have that things will get better. I just hope they start getting better soon.

Peace, Much Love, and Blessed Be,
Kristiana
 

I actually wrote something yesterday. If I get the chance later I'll put it in my port.

I did do some work on a story that I have been playing with, but I need to get drawings done. I am creating my own planet around a character that I've been working with for a while. I just started playing with where she came from and such and a whole planet is forming.

Other than that I've been working on crafts. I made a throw pillow using my new sewing machine, and I've been crocheting a lot as I have a baby blanket I am working on and another to make, and I plan on renting a booth at the beginning of the year and selling crafts and other things in it.

Not much else going on. As the title says, SSDD.

Peace, Much Love, and Blessed Be,
Kristiana
 

I just put this as a post in my Writer's Encouragement Group but it seems appropriate to copy it here:

I am putting all my goals on hold until the new year. I just can't seem to do anything as far as writing right now with all that is going on in my life (and what that is I really couldn't tell you). I just know that I need more structure to my life before I can committ to anything. I need to take some time to evaluate what my priorities are and should be.

The only real goal I have in my life right now is to make it through the holidays and to keep Bob as happy as I can. I have had a lot of morbid thoughts lately about losing him and my sister and I really need to evaluate what is going on in my head. It seems that right now I have more fears than goals.

I know that you all are going to try and help me understand and I will appreciate it more than you know. I do need encouragement at this time but it is more along the lines of being able to get my life in order and find some structure than for my writing.


I really don't know what is keeping me going from day to day other than Bob. I know I have things I should be doing and that I want to do but I just can't seem to get the motivation to do them. I keep procrastinating as to "well it can wait until I get this done" and "I just don't feel like working on that today and I've got plenty of time
 

Even though both of us have been sick on and off, Bob and I have been getting a lot done. We have been cleaning out the storage bedroom so that someday it just might be a bedroom. Yesterday Bob went out and was working on the yard. I have been reorganizing and cleaning my office. (I got my comp set up on the desk but it isn't even plugged in yet).

We went fishing on Sunday. We didn't catch anything but it was still fun. I just wanted to get away from the house and outside for a while. I think next year I am going to invest in a fishing license.

Got my Missouri State ID today. I am now officially a Missourian. Bob is so proud I figured I might as well saying that it doesn't look like I will be getting my driver's license anytime soon.

I haven't been keeping up with any other journals except this one, not even my handwritten offline one. I cleaned off my desk when I set up my computer and haven't gotten it out since. I have a bunch of little things like that I have to do today.

I have been working on, in my head at least, creating a new race of critters. I have most of it worked out in my head, but there's still a lot to be worked out and I really need to get it down on paper before I forget most of it. Hopefully I'll do that sometime before the end of this week at the most.

I spoke to my nephew in Germany on Oovoo yesterday. That was so awesome. I could also see his wife and two daughters in Mississippi. At Christmas time his family will be joining him in Germany. He is an MP for the Army. I am so proud of him. He has really made a great life for himself.

My great-niece, the oldest one of them, Monica, turns 13 on the 15th of this month. My friend Nancey also has a birthday this month. I'm going to have to make up for Nancey's birthday at Christmas because I can't really think of anything to get her at the moment. I'm not even sure which day hers is.

I checked into renting a booth at the local flea market type place. The one's available right now are $65 a month and are a little too big for me. I'm going to wait until one of the $40 booths open up. I plan on selling some knick-knacks and hopefully some stuff that I make and other stuff I happen to come across (like I might start doing puzzles but gluing and framing them then selling those, and putting models together and selling them). I like to be creative but I don't have the room to keep it all once I get done making it.

Not much else going on. SSDD talk to ya all again soon.

Peace, Much Love, and Blessed Be,
Kristiana
 

Hello.

It is 5:30 a.m. approximately here. I just finished up some games on scroll. I can't sleep. Been having this problem for a few days now. Should be good for a writer, right? Plenty of time to write with no distractions. Yeah, right.

I don't know what I am doing on the comp at this hour. I just couldn't stand to lay there any more. I've been awake since 4:00 a.m. If it wasn't for Bob I probably would have sat up in bed and read or something. Then again, I probably wouldn't be able to concentrate on it or something.

Okay I'm rambling. I might add more to this entry later.

Peace, Much Love, and Blessed Be,
Kristiana
 

.... go through my port within the next week and clean it out, switching some stuff around and possibly adding some more.

I think I might start a list of those things that need to be reviewed from my groups. I don't get around to doing that much so this would hopefully be some more exposure for them, not to mention a good place for me to start I have groups that I belong to and others that I might join that rely heavily on reviewing as part of membership.

There's so much I wish I could do, and so much more that needs to be done. I just wish I had the motivation to do it. Here's hoping to get some soon.

Peace, Much Love, and Blessed Be,
Kristiana




 

Other than doing laundry all day from the fact that I peed the bed during seizures last night (ended up in the hospital for a couple hours) I've been basically taking it easy. There just wasn't much to do other than take care of Bob, who is down with a cold.

I probably got Bob sick yesterday as we spent from 3:00 p.m. to 5:00 p.m. fishing and it wasn't exactly warm. I caught about 3 small bluegill but it was a catch and release pond. Still, it was fun.

Things aren't going that well yet. With me being sick last night and Bob being sick today there just isn't much energy or motivation going around. Oh well. At least I was better than he was so I made brunch and dinner and got the house cleaned up.

Peace, Much Love and Blessed Be,
Kristiana
 

While at the fundraiser last night I quit Avon. I have already put more than a month's pay into it and have seen very little back.
Besides, it was starting to be as much of a headache as school.

So now I do nothing with my time. I have no obligations (other than here) so hopefully I will be using the time towards more creative efforts. I may even start writing again

I have been doing research into the subjects of my workbooks. I also have been remembering some stories that I wrote when I was here before and longhand so I might finally get those back written and submitted here. We'll just have to wait and see.

If nothing else, I might keep up my blog better.

Peace, Much Love, and Blessed Be,
Kristiana

 

I've got a fundraiser that I'm going to help out with this evening. Only problem is that I need Bob to take me and we are going to have to babysit his daughter-in-law's mother and he has to pick up Klayten from Soccer at 5:30 pm. I have to be in Shell Knob (about an hour away, at least) at 4:00 p.m. I might just have to go earlier. Hopefully things will work out.

I keep thinking about writing but that's all I've been doing is thinking about it. I really need to do more of it.

I'm considering deleting "Mousey Collection" and just putting those items in my regular port. It's not like I don't have the room. I'm probably also going to delete my guestbook as no one has signed it.

I did do a review yesterday, in a roundabout way. I had help. Bob was over my shoulder. I hate doing long reviews but I need to learn how to do them. I also owe some people reviews (I haven't forgotten about you Sultry) and I really should do more.

Here's to hoping I can get myself of my lazy butt soon and do more of everything....

Peace, Much Love, and Blessed Be,
Kristiana