Sorry I havent been around in a month (now I'm expired and have to renew again akk) I just read back quickly through your posts and ... sigh. You are facing a lot of challenges in your life and I'm not sure I have any great wisdom as my life is pretty much insane as well ( nooo time to blog at all!!)

But know that a fellow insane lifer over here in rainy (and cold) vancouver island is a least a fellow sordid spirit of sorts and sending you some west coast thoughts - for what they're worth.

hugs

oh boy .. how's the box holding out these days??
hugs

*hugs*

sometimes you just gotta let go

It's hard not to worry when your parents are so far away. One of the reasons I moved back closer to home a few years ago. I hope that you connect soon. Is there a neighbour's number that you have?? And a house, garden and friends are good, but still I'd worry too.

Hope your days settle ... you sound as busy as me!!

hey Porland! Just a skip (ok and a ferry, ok and a lot of Kms) but still closerish!

I think typical uber parent thing is ok ... better than not hanging out with your son at all. I wish you lots of luck job hunting, it can be tough, but don't worry - the perfect job will come along and you'll realize that there really is no decision to be made. All will fall into place.

Cheer up!

I'm glad that you have good 'alone' times together. You're a good man to make sure that there are no derogatory comments going on ... many people are not that discerning or aware of the 'damage' it can do to the little ones to be playing sides.

I want curry!!

Well you can say you're no angel .. that's fine. BUT, I do feel you are a good person and your gesture of giving her the $1000 will not go unnoticed in the grander karmic realm of things. I also think to start putting a little away for yourself is a good idea based on the insecurity of your life ... well it's a good thing to do regardless.

That's a good writing gig though ... congrats. Hopefully more of those will come your way.

hugs

Sounds like all in all, it was a good day. Sorry your son didn't win his races, I hope he wasn't too disappointed. Kids can be so hard on themselves, and sounds like there may have been a lot of expectations from everyone.

And I'm SOOO glad you didn't' get fired from your writing job!! That is so depressing when that happens. Happened to me once and I didn't even know it until I looked at the magazine issue and saw someone else's name on MY column! But I was kinda happy to see that I thought their writing wasn't nearly as good !

Have a good week!!
bugz

I am eating while reading this and kinda squinting and gagging (you do have a descriptive way about you) but then when I got to the end I totally cracked up.

I love those (not pot-induced) moments of totally abandonment laughter to tears. How lovely you can still share those private memory collecting times together.

Keeps you going through the rougher spots

Smell on!!

ohh how was the sport's festival????