I am simply exhausted today. Not because I had a lot of work, but because I've been moving around pretty much since I woke up at 7am - the only "resting" I did was during two mentally challenging lectures: not exactly relaxing. I thought I would have trouble waking up today because of my hectic day yesterday, but I actually managed to get to bed at a decent time (considering that I was trying to read130 pages starting at 10pm) and get enough sleep so that I felt somewhat refreshed in the morning and able to wake up. But then my day just dragged on and on and on... first with a 2-hour early morning theory class, then with a 2-hour physically demanding kayaking class, then with a 4-hour dish-washing shift, and finally with a 2-hour intro to drama class. In between each, I had maybe half hour to an hour, most of which was spent walking from one thing to the next, or eating. Pretty much, I was on my feet or moving my body for a fairly large portion of the day, and now I can hardly stand, my feet and legs are so sore.

... and yet, I still plan to go to the dance with Ricardo tomorrow. As a matter of fact, I spent some time with Ricardo today, too! Totally unplanned and unexpected. Pretty much, I got out of my Lit. class and had about 45 minutes to kill before my ride came to go to kayaking. Just as I was sitting down by the bookstore parking lot to wait, I hear a voice say, "Oh hey - fancy seeing you here!" I look up and there's Ricardo. He was going to the bookstore to buy a book (obviously!). I said I was waiting for my ride, and he made to go to the bookstore, saying "I'm going to go get a book, but I'll come back...?" I shook my head and said, "Nah, I'll just come with you. I'm just sitting here, anyway." He got his book, we returned, and the next half hour was spent on a conversation about sleep deprivation (my current state), and various combinations of sugar/caffeine in the dining hall, including one concoction he made that was straight half and half and vanilla extract, or something like that, which he says tasted really good, but made him sick afterwards (I wonder why! ;)). We examined people's shirts, and compared social lives from last year, which then got extended into a discussion about whether or not I was antisocial or just shy, as a child. Then Tatiana arrived, and Ricardo said, "Oh - hi! I didn't know she was the one giving you a ride..." I said, "Remember at the dance, when I said, 'Hey, she's the one giving me a ride?'" "No, I was busy dancing, I guess..."

One of the people getting a ride from her was late, and we were parked there waiting for her. Ricardo lingered outside the car for a longer while than I thought he would before finally saying farewell and heading off home. Then the missing person arrived, and we set off. This kayaking expedition, we got lucky yet again, and there were dolphins. There were also sea lions swimming fairly close up, an otter kicking it wrapped up in a bed of kelp, jelly fish, regular fish, pelicans and other interesting birds (including the one that sounds like a cat)... and one person even said they saw a sting ray swim by! Talk about an interesting experience!

Then I had work... and then I had class... and just as I was getting home, and was ready to crash into my bed and never get up again, Kim came out and said "Wanna go to Safeway?" I didn't, really, but then I thought about it... going now would be better than going this weekend, AND Kim has a car. Much quicker, much less effort, much more space to buy heavier things. So I sighed and agreed. I now have everything I need to make some delicious pumpkin bread... EXCEPT for the pumpkin! Gah. Safeway was out of pumpkin - apparently, October is a popular pumpkin month (who'd have thought? ).

I have also discovered that when I am tired, but awake, I am prone to be really, really silly. For instance: English accents, large words, inverted sentences, wacky topics, random thoughts. Oh, and I say "oh boy" much to often. I even decided that tomorrow was my self-proclaimed pajama day... before remembering that I can't wear pajamas to work. I then proceeded to spend about an hour thinking over the options of what I should wear to tomorrow's dance, seeing as last time, the friction of my jeans against my thighs created a long-lasting after-pain. I considered pajamas, shorts, skirt, dress... Kim recommended the dress, but I say nay, I hesitate to wear the dress, for I am an extreme dancer, and it is a low-cut dress, and while it's got some pretty good, tight support, I really don't need to draw that much attention to my boobs. I played frisbee with Kevin in that dress, and even that little movement was awkward because all I could think about was how my boobs were bouncing around when I moved. If that happens for frisbee, just think of how it'll be for dancing...?!? Then again, my dress is cool and flexible and good-looking... but again, too much exposure. Then I considered pajamas - they are comfy, very easy to move in, no rigid parts to rub up against you... BUT, no pockets. Same for shorts - no pockets. Also, my running shorts are unattractive. Especially the black ones... they really bring out the whiteness of my legs. I joked with Kim: "Well, sorry Ricardo, you get to see me in my pajamas." I even considered calling Ricardo up and asking : "So... dress, jeans, pajamas, or shorts?" I swear, I have no shame.

I think the pajamas won. I really don't want to wear a dress. I'm surprised I even wore it that one time last week. It makes me feel like I'm trying too hard. Which is stupid because I'm not... I just like the dress... but I don't want OTHER people to think I'm trying too hard. Hehe. If you got it, flaunt it, right? No - not right. If you got it, make sure it's comfortable and NOT flying all over the place. That's my take.

... and I should probably stop now. I know I'm just procrastinating. I've been procrastinating ever since I got home. At the very least, I could just admit that I don't want to do the reading right now and go to bed - that's what I SHOULD do, since I'm so exhausted - but I'm not, instead I'm sitting here recounting every detail of the crazy day. *sigh*