It is around five in the morning and I should be sleeping, well I tried to sleep but sleep just wouldn’t allow me to take pleasure in its embrace. I’m going through my port and various others. I see that like me, there are others awake adding little things here and there when they should be sleeping. I sit here staring out at the snow realizing just how blessed I am to have the little things that I can call my own.

I have also realized something else about me that disturbs me. I make myself available to my loved ones, however that is not returned in them, well not all, and others well . . . they can be flaky about their availability. I learn something new all of the time, and recently I found myself having to re-learn the personality of all of those around me.

I feel that I am changing my views on things, people, relationships, my life. I look forward to this new year with a certain excitement. I believe it is because I have a plan of what I want to do where as before I only had a half-assed view of what I wanted to do.

Being awake so early in the morning knowing that those I love most are sleeping saddens because I’m left alone as always. Looking at all of this snow, the little of it that there is, is boring. I’ve decided that since I’m changing things up in the new year. I might as well start here as well. I’ll be letting go of my premium account that ends on the 15th of January. I love having it, but just can’t keep up with it unfortunately. I think it’ll be hard to get rid of things that I have spent time creating, but one must do what one must.

I’m tired, so tired. This year has not been kind, but it’s not over yet.

I think I’m going to bed now.

I’m grumpy, and I just need some sleep.

Good night, or Good morning.

Hell, Good Afternoon, Good Evening.

I suppose it depends on whenever you read this, if anyone reads this that is.

Happy Holidays
 

I want something, yet I know I am barred from it for practical reasons, but I still had high hopes to get it. I have an anger in me lately from being unhappy that I’m able to express in many ways. I choose to do it in a different way, in a creative writing way. I had an idea for a story, but mostly my stories always have a set to it. I find my mind blazes a path for so much information that it doesn’t take the time to actually focus. This is in part because of the excitement of actually writing to the point of what I see in my head. It can be bothersome at times.

From today on there will be a count down for me. I only have so much time that I can offer which is upsetting. In a way I hate how things have changed. Nevertheless, I’m not really one to complain, so I just take everything with a grain of salt, still I’m not happy. This weekend was a waste with some highlighted delightful spots, though not as delightful I’d like them to have been. I know that tomorrow will be the beginning of a week I’m only looking forward to sort of.

I only write this here because it gives me a way to both get things off my chest, and a chance to just write it all out. A from of therapy I guess. I feel once you write something out depending on whatever it is you have a chance to really reflect over what is ailing you.

Sigh . . .

Tomorrow will be better I’m determined for it to be. Next year will be very different for that I’m sure.


 

Today isn't one that I can't say I care for too much for multiple reasons. I'm not in a good mood which is really saying something I suppose. I haven't felt all that well today, and with the constant arguments about nothing lately with the family is really getting to me. I found myself on the defensive when having a conversation about something from my past.

I feel like this: if I had dealings with a person be it for good or ill I have the right to talk about it because whatever happened, happened between that person and me. I should be able to speak my mind about it freely because it is something that happened with me and nothing to do with anyone else no matter the outcome of whatever went on with them.


Sigh...

I hate this month.


 

For several years, a man was having an affair with an Italian woman. One night, she confided in him that she was pregnant. Not wanting to ruin his reputation or his marriage, He paid her a large sum of money to go to Italy to secretly have the child.

He told her if she stayed in Italy to raise the child, he would also provide child support until the child turned eight-teen. She agreed, but asked how he would know when the baby was born.

To keep it discrete, he told her to simply mail him a post card, and write 'Spaghetti' on the back. He would then arrange for the child support payments to begin. One day, about 8 months later, he came home to his confused wife.

"Honey," she said, "You received a very strange post card today."

"Oh, just give it to me and I'll explain it later," he said.

The wife obeyed and watched as her husband read the card, turned white, and fainted.

On the card was written:

"Spaghetti, Spaghetti, Spaghetti,"

"Two with meatballs, one without."

"Send extra sauce.."







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Today I have lied through my teeth, and I know it was wrong. It needed to be done, so I did it.

Sigh, in light of this lying I have written the following Haiku.

Hey there,


It's been a while since I last actually made an attempt to sit down and post a blog that had any real meaning. It has been a long arduous road this year. I sat down today while I had time to wait for my significant other to think about the many things that have gone on in my life as of late. A part of me hasn't really wanted to write as I tend to think back over things that have gone on as of late.

Thanksgiving was painful for the most part, it was already a precarious time due to the loss of loved one's that always seem to plague my family during this time of year, and this year was no different.

Just days before Thanksgiving we were rocked by the death of a family friend who even though there were bad times and hurt feelings we were all close. I immediately thought of how the little one's would be taken care of, and what the arrangements were even though it had been some time since I had actually had a conversation with them.

Then the day before Thanksgiving I was rocked with another death that just shocked me to the point of not believing because it just didn't seem real. I didn't want it to be real. I write this and just can not contemplate the implications that this is going to have on the people that I know. I sit here confused, angry, and sad.

I have so many emotions going through my mind it's ridiculous. As a way to help myself get through I jumped head long into NaNoWriMo which was a great turn out as I was able to clear a good 125,000 words. I know most of that will be cut down and most left on the cutting room floor. I have since joined a writing contest "Experimental Plot Challenge"  to keep my mind off of the month of December which has proven to be another bad month for my family and me in-particular.

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ID: 1825336   (Rated: XGC) Curse of the Rune Sword  My Experimental Plot Challenge Book by Lonewolf - Catching up

Today is proving to be very frustrating in terms of writing and otherwise because I just spent a good part of the day writing only to lose it due to an update my computer was attempting to do as I tried to save. The only good thing I have to report for the day is that I was able to do something nice for my mom. I had an idea for something a couple of days ago, but I was only able to put it into action today. I can’t say that I’m in a good mood at the moment because of an argument I had a couple of hours ago not to mention I learned that the rapper Heavy D has passed away.

I used to listen to him all the time doing silly little dances, but the name holds significance because I used to tease my mom with the name with one incident in particular that had us all “My brothers and sister” laughing remembering all of the old times at our previous house when we were all together.

I’ve decided that I’m going to make an attempt to contact my father, and this decision hasn’t been an easy one in the least. All of this stems from me not having a real functional family, and it is for this reason that when I do have children they will place value in family, or at least that is my wish for them. I want them to know that no matter what they can come to me or their mother for anything.

Today has been a real let down especially with all of the things I’m learning about people I thought I knew, or once knew, and how they are treating the people that I love is really pissing me off. This day just isn’t getting any better.

I hold my tongue on a lot of things trying to keep the peace, or stay in my own lane as I heard so many times through the years. However, I believe my limit has been reached. The one thing a blog does more than anything else is allow you time to concentrate on the events of the day so that it can be told is a semi-cohesive manner.

I’m tired.

The story I created for NaNo this year has taken an unexpected turn. Have I brought this up before? I planned and prepped only for all of that to be thrown out of the window.

Last night something was brought to my attention, and I hope to rectify that ASAP because I know how I would feel if I were in that position.

I have been plagued by horrible dreams as of late, it makes me not want to sleep.

I have a headache now from all of the stuff that is going on. I still have to post my word count of the day.

People lying to hurt others make me angry.

I can only hope my day gets better.

Remember, remember, the fifth of November, The gunpowder treason and plot. I know of no reason why the gunpowder treason should ever be forgot.

This is an awesome quote, and goes so well with today, it being the actual 5th of November. I have even decided to name a chapter in my book after it. What can I say it stuck in my head.

The day has been one I would not soon forget especially after the dream that I had. I also had a sudden thought I shall put into action for people to see tomorrow, although the other project I have in mind will also come out tomorrow.

I have also been doing a lot of thinking about my family and the type of legacy that will be left to my future children and I have decided to restore a balance that was upset roughly 19 years ago.

I haven't fully made my mind up on how the wrong will be righted, but it will happen more sooner than later.

I believe people get married far too soon for it to actually work. I believe before you even think about marriage there should be a time where you really get to know the person, and then should it even be broached in conversation. Also, once you do get married all avenues should be pursued before divorce. I have noticed that these days with the exception of a few marriage seems to be another form of dating which I believe to be wrong, but that is just me. I do hope to be married one day though.


Oh, as an added bit of awesome. The video below I thought was cool and it put a smile on my face that I really needed. I hope to one day dance with my daughter. Enjoy.

Not a lot happened today, just did my daily for NaNo.

I've had some time to reflect on a few things and people. I didn't really like what I came up with.

I actually found myself to be a been out of sync today with things.

NaNo is coming along okay I suppose.

Song of today is below and if you want to sing along you know where you can find the lyrics "Below the video"

An Irish Blessing

by An Unknown Author


I wish you not a path devoid of clouds,
Nor a life on a bed or roses.
Nor, that you might never need regret,
Nor that you should never feel pain.

No, this is not my wish for you. My wish for you is:
That you might be brave in times of trial
When other’s lay crosses upon your shoulders.
When mountains must be climbed and chasms crossed,
When hope scarce shines through.
When every gift God gave you might grow along with you,
And let you give the gift of joy to all who care for you.

That you might always have a friend who is worth that name.
Whom you can trust.
And hope will be, in times of sadness,
Who will defy the storms of life by your side.

One more wish for you:
That in every hour of joy and pain, you may be close to God.
This is my wish for you and those who are close to you.
This is my hope for you, now and forever.

There is a story that has just been brought to my attention that I will tell one day. This blessing has significance, more significance than I ever knew before.
 

Okay, so the day didn't exactly start out as I had planned. I learned there was a rumor going around about a friend of mine that I met when I was on the road last year. Since I have come back I have been out of touch with a lot of people. It would be just my luck that when I'm gearing up to do NaNo the proverbial shit hits the fan, not for me of course which I'm fine with.

This month has been hell for my family since 1999. I used to enjoy Thanksgiving, but since I want to say I, but it wasn't just me. Since we lost my grandmother on Thanksgiving it has been a bad month, because it was the first time I had to be the strong one for my mother. My family as dysfunctional as it is became even more so when we lost her. We lost my Grandfather on New Years of '99, but found he had been sick on Thanksgiving of '98.

November is not the best month for us. I'm determined to change that though. I know my Grandmother wouldn't want us dreading this month. So I have thrown out a challenge to my mother for this year. Oh, yeah, it's kick ass food challenge face off.

I have challenged my mother to a cook off only one other time in my life, about 14 years ago. My god that makes me seem soooo old. Joking. I was 16 and thought I could beat my mom making a turkey because I had a kickass recipe and thought I was going to win. Well, I didn't exactly lose, so it came to a tie. My turkey wasn't served until after the holiday so there was no clear winner. I gave the win to my mom though.

This year, I have challenged my mother to a Lasagna cook off. Now, my mother makes the best Lasagna hands down. However, within every family the torch must be passed to the new generation at some point. So, I'm staking my claim to that this year. Hell, I'll be glad to come close to her. I thought it would be something good to keep her mind off of other things.

As for Nano, I was able to start off pretty good. So..."BAM!" In your face Nano!

In a little saying from my previous blog.

"Shit just got real."

Song of the day is below, it really came in handy when I was writing up my Nano. Lyrics are below the video so sing along I know I am.

It's Halloween and it's another year that has passed by with nothing really going on. Last year was interesting in it's own way. The day was fine I suppose with the a few bumps here and there and a huge misunderstanding that caused me to go for a walk.

I was able to see a few kids with their parents enjoying themselves, and made me hope that one day when I do have children I'll be able to experience something with them that I never got to do, and that is go trick or treating. I have always wanted to do it, but something always seemed to come up.

November 1st is tomorrow which is the start of Nano. I'm sure everyone knows what they means, and if you don't know then listen up! Shit is about to get real. Nano or go home baby!

I'm on Team Black and we are so gonna win!

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Song of the day is special for Halloween and if you want to sing along by all means check out the lyrics below the video.

Happy Halloween Everyone.

Well, today didn't turn out as I had hoped it would be. There were many things that went on today and none had to do with relaxing watching a movie with my significant other. Although, there were other things that needed to be done. I'm grateful I could help. I've been more annoyed lately than usual which isn't necessarily normal for me. I found myself in my bath tub writing again which is always good for my writing, it is the only place I can truly relax. I think it has something to do with the running water or the potential of running water, one or the other.

I see now that it is close to 3 in the morning and instead of making some much needed reviews I find myself again writing a blog, procrastinating. I at least have a plan for NaNo this year for which I am glad. My character I have decided to write about is nagging me in the back of my mind. I have another, his name is Lucas. Now Lucas is a character all his own and I've slowly but surely have written his story out. It is one of love, loss, betrayal, and mystery.

I have also just realized that I had piled a lot on my plate for November, which I'm definitely up to the challenge to complete.

One good thing that came from last night was a heartfelt conversation that lifted my heart to new heights.

I suppose I'll end this day that didn't happen with a couple of reviews then a strong cup of my old friend Super Coff.

I can almost taste the chocolate treat now.

Another thing I would like to note before signing off, well I couple of things.

I mentioned a had a conversation in my earlier blog dealing with the D.E.B.C. well, I have been having a few conversations about "it/her" I'd like to note that I didn't come up with that name. I was in the middle of one of these conversations when I broke off into song, the song being that from provided below. The funny thing about this is that my neighbor Alex must have heard and thought something was wrong and came out to check things out. It turned into a sing along, and I was able to meet his girlfriend who is a violinist to Alex being a 2nd year med student. It was awesome to say the least. Another neighbor joined in. It was odd and random, but nevertheless, fun.

If you know it sing along if you don't well read the lyrics and sing a long too. Enjoy!

Lyrics are below the video.

It amazes me how much time I spend procrastinating when there are legitimate things I should be doing. Today has gone pretty much like I expected it to, which was the day going by too fast with nothing that I wanted to get done being done.

I've been surrounded by the best Halloween has to offer with that being, Vampires, Werewolves, and Mummies etc. It has been one of those kind of days. I've gone and made a decision about my life and what I'm going to do. In my family there is an imbalance you could say, and I aim to correct that. I have been thinking about it for a while now. This all depends on a few factors however, but the decision has been made.

I'm tired, and knowing I'll not have the treat I would love to reward myself with I'm going to immerse myself in a story that I started a while ago. After, of course a few reviews that need to be made.

Again, the thought of all the things I do to procrastinate amazes me. A note I might add is the creation of this blog entry here that was only half done.

As per the rest of the blog entries here is a song I find myself listening to most of the nights that I am awake. Enjoy and remember the lyrics are located below the video in-case you want to sing along. I think you should I know I do.

Bullet In My Hand

by

Redlight King


I've got a fast life and a slow cuttin' knife
I've been drinkin' at a poisoned well
No home and a bag of bones
Nothin' else left to sell

I know why I'm in this hell
I just don't want to believe
Past that line you just can't tell
But right now there's someone lookin' out for me

I came out of the darkness with a bullet in my hand
I got one more shot at livin', I'm lucky that I can
'Cause I got a little roughed up, I really got fucked up
I came out of the darkness with a bullet in my hand

I've got a cold stare the wound's still there
And there ain't much left to bleed
A short fuse that I still use
I'm my own worst enemy

Stare at the faces I once knew
Lined up just to bury me
There's a long black car that's waitin' to leave
But right now there's someone lookin' out for me

I came out of the darkness with a bullet in my hand
I got one more shot at livin', I'm lucky that I can
'Cause I got a little roughed up, I really got fucked up
I came out of the darkness with a bullet in my hand

With the bullet in my hand
'Cause I got a little roughed up
With the bullet in my hand
I really got fucked up
With the bullet in my hand

Can you see the light?
Can you see the light?
Can you see the light?
I can see the light
I can see the light
There's someone lookin' out for me

I came out of the darkness with a bullet in my hand
I got one more shot at livin', I'm lucky that I can
'Cause I got a little roughed up, I really got fucked up
I came out of the darkness with the bullet in my hand

My sleeping wasn't the best in the world. I found myself in the body of someone else. Although he was dashing like my smexy self. *Yes, I just used the word smexy* It wasn't me and made me feel awkward, but it gave me the base for a good story that I'm going to write. However, this all happens a few days before the start of NaNo! I find what went on in the dream terribly fascinating to the point of spending hours on end in research for what it was dealing with.

I find myself becoming irritated when I don't have a persons full attention when I give my full attention when engaged in conversation. I know one can multi-task, but it just annoys me sometimes, okay it annoys me all the time. It doesn't hurt to hold off on watching TV and totally ignoring the conversation which I find rude.

I think I need a cup of coffee.

I'll probably have one later.

I want something.

I know I can't have it.

I'll probably immerse myself in writing.

Random Piece of Awesome

Lyrics are below the video







"Party Rock Anthem"

Everyday I'm shufflin'

PARTY ROCK
YEA
Whoa!!!!
LET'S GO!!

Party rock is in the house tonight
Everybody just have a good time
And we gonna make you lose your mind
Everybody just have a good time

Party rock is in the house tonight
Everybody just have a good time
And we gonna make you lose your mind
Everybody just have a good time

We just wanna see you!

Shake that!

In the club party rock, look for your girl
She on my jock non stop when we in the spot
Booty move away like she on the block
What the track I got to know
Top jeans tattoo cause I'm rock and roll
Half black half white domino
Gain the money out the door

Yo!!

I'm running through these hoes like drano
I got that devilish flow rock and roll no halo
We party rock yea! that's the crew that I'm repping
On the rise to the top no led in our zeppelin

Hey!!!

Party rock is in the house tonight
Everybody just have a good time
And we gonna make you lose your mind
Everybody just have a good time

Party rock is in the house tonight
Everybody just have a good time
And we gonna make you lose your mind
Everybody just have a good time

We just wanna see you!

Shake that!

Every day I'm shuffling

Shuffling shuffling

Step up fast and be the first girl to make me throw this cash
We get money don't be mad now stop hating is bad

One more shot for us
Another round
Please fill up my cup
Don't mess around
We just wanna see
You shake it now
Now you wanna be
You're naked now

Get up get down put your hands up to the sound [3x]

Put your hands up to the sound [2x]

Get up [9x]

Put your hands up to the sound, to the sound

Put your hands up!
Put your hands up!
Put your hands up!

Party rock is in the house tonight
Everybody just have a good time
And we gonna make you lose your mind
Everybody just have a good good good time

Oh! Oh! Put your hands up
Oh! Oh! Time to fill it now!!!!
Put your hands up
Oh!!!Oh!!!Put your hands up

Shake that!

Every day I'm shuffling

Put your Put your
Put your Put your (Yeah Yeah)
Put your Put your (Whoa!!!)
Put your Put your
Put your hands up
Your hands up
Push your hands up

Everyday I'm shufflin'

I was introduced to a new creature today. It was such an odd day today truth be told. I was able to watch a couple of movies. Paranormal Activity and 30 minutes or less. Both of these movies were alright although I felt 30 minutes or less could have been a bit better, I did however like that it was made here in Michigan.

Ever had the feeling that someone didn't want you involved in something but didn't exactly come out to tell you? Yeah, I had that today as well. So, it didn't put me in the best mood, but I suppose you win some you lost some.

As for the title of my blog, well that is the abbreviated name of a person I was told about which the full name is D.E.B.C.

It's been a while, so let me update...


Life has been a roller coaster of weird as of late. I found myself up to all hours of the night with no hope of sleep that leads me into the next day. I do sleep for a random amount of time waking refreshed.

My family has been and always will be a constant in my life, however we all seem to be moving in our own direction.

I don't mind people. People are fine to a certain extent. However, there are people who make it there business to cause trouble for my youngest siblings. I want to do the big brother thing and kick some ass, but I must allow them to fight their own fights...

Writing has become easier for me as of late which is good, so there is that.

I had a religious debate with my friend Josh. I won.

I am known as "Broda" now.

Listen to my new favorite song.

And

Sing along

Lyrics are provided

Kakashi was excited about Ume spending the night with him, and loved the debates they had, it all seemed to go just right, but he could not keep himself from getting drowsy and eventually falling asleep.

He found himself on a battleground bodies were strewn everywhere. In the distance Kakashi could see a battle raging. The air had a nasty smell to it so strong that Kakashi put his hand over his nose.

“I’ve been here before.” Kakashi said to no-one in particular.

“Yeah, you have been here before junior.” said a male voice behind Kakashi.

Surprised by the stranger Kakashi jumped spinning around in a defensive position.

“Who the hell are you?” Kakashi demanded.

“Take a closer look. I promise I won’t bite.” The stranger laughed.

Kakashi looked at the stranger carefully seeing their similarities, the blue eyes, blue hair, only difference was Kakashi was taller then the stranger.

“Know who I am now?” The stranger asked impatiently.

“No, am I suppose to know you?” Kakashi asked equally impatient.

“Ugh…I see this is going to be harder then I thought.” The man sighed.

“What is going to be harder? What is this place?” Kakashi asked looking all around him.

“You’ve been here before Kakashi…this is the place you-we died.” The man said sadly.

“Wha-What are you talking about?” Kakashi stammered.

“I am Yunxu Liang.” The man said staring at Kakashi’s confused face. “We are one in the same Kakashi. There is something evil coming, and you must prepare for it. You need to realize the power you have, and use it to protect the one’s you love, not to mention everyone else.” He continued.

Kakashi was speechless for once in his life he had no clue what to say, so he just nodded his head in agreement.

“H-how did we die?” Kakashi asked hesitantly.

“We died doing all we could to keep everyone safe.” Yunxu replied walking toward Kakashi. “But me telling you isn’t enough is it? Haha…damn you are like me.”

Yunxu walked up to Kakashi, and said in an authoritive tone, “Don’t move, I’ll show you what happened before.” Without giving Kakashi a chance to say anything Yunxu placed his index finger I the middle of Kakashi’s forehead.

Instantly the ground around Kakashi came to life the bodies that were scattered everywhere began to move as being rewound in a DVD player. The bodies had twisted ugly faces that looked to be human. Kakashi saw familiar faces as well, though he kept telling himself it just could not be true. He saw Takeshi, Hana, Ume, Mr. Anderson, Amaya, Sayuri the lunch lady, Giovanni-the kid Takeshi helped out, and Rowan. There were others, but Kakashi could not see them all that well.

They were all trying to get away from the demon looking humans, and were not doing such a good job. Kakashi then saw Yunxu who was limping, but not too badly.

“Damn it! I’ve had enough of this!” Yunxu shouted to the others who stopped.

“Yunxu, we don’t have time for this, there are too many of them, we have to retreat.” The guy who slightly looked like Takeshi, but sounded way different said.

“Tetsuya, we won’t make it like this. Look at them all.” Yunxu said waving a hand at the oncoming enemies.

Then the guy who looked like Mr. Anderson came up to Yunxu and said, “Yunxu, come on we’re retreating so we can fight them again another day.”

“No, not this time Andrei.” Yunxu said defiantly. “We won’t get away like this, not with Basil and Alastir, and Azure needing to be carried along with everyone else who’s been injured.” Yunxu said determined.

“What you speak is true Yunxu, what is your plan?” the girl who looked like Amaya said favoring her right arm.

“I was thinking that I would give you all some time to get away.” Yunxu said holding up a hand to keep them from interrupting, he continued, “ I’m not hurt as bad as some of you so I’ll be able to get away quickly.”

“I don’t like this plan Yunxu…but we have no choice.” Tetsuya said defeated.

“Yunxu, when we’ve gone far enough, you must follow quickly.” Andrei said while switching Basil in a better position on his shoulder.

“No worries, I’ll be right behind you guys.” Yunxu said lying to his friends.

“We better get going. Look Yunxu do you best then hurry after us.” Tetsuya said seriously.

“Get going.” Yunxu said turning to meet the demon like humans.

Kakashi was excited about Ume spending the night with him, and loved the debates they had that night, it all seemed to go just right, but he could not keep himself from getting drowsy and eventually falling asleep.

Kakashi found himself on a battlefield, with bodies strewn everywhere, the sky was a dull grey, and the air had a sweet sickly smell to it.

Kakashi covered his mouth and nose with his hand as he walked over all the bodies. He stopped to examine one of the bodies lying on the ground, and was shocked to see Takeshi laying there with a peaceful smile played across his face.

Kakashi shook Takeshi, and noticed that his friends’ skin felt clammy to the touch, and realized that he was dead. He then went looking at the other bodies, and to his horror, he saw Mr. Anderson, Amaya, Rowan, Giovanni, Sayuri-the lunch lady, Hana, and the last body Kakashi found brought warm tears to his eyes. He saw that lying there among everyone else was Ume’s beautiful form that had been so full of life and laughter, now lay motionless along with his parents, his teacher, and friends.

“No…no please.” Kakashi pleaded to no one in particular.

“Do you love them? Do you love her?” A voice asked that echoed in the wind that sprang up from no-where blowing Kakashi’s hair this way and that.

Kakashi looked around seeing no one then knelt next to Ume with tears rolling down his cheeks; he took Ume’s hand in his own to find that it was still warm. He had a fleeting hope that she would awake, and say something to make him laugh. She did not.

“Why Ume? How did this happen?” Kakashi cried to Ume’s motionless form.

The wind that blew earlier returned stronger with a vengeance, and in it were bits of hail that stung Kakashi’s face. Again, the voice asked the same question, “Do you love them? Do you love her?”

Kakashi looked around and did not see anyone, and yet he answered the question anyway saying, “Yes, I love them, and I love her more then anything in this world.”

“Will you do anything to protect the one’s you love? Will you do anything to protect her?” The voice echoed suspiciously.

“Yes.” Kakashi replied, wondering where this line of questions was going.

The wind stopped abruptly, and all the bodies of Kakashi’s family, friends, and teacher disappeared. Kakashi stood looking around at the surrounding darkness.

A lone figure was walking toward him through the darkness, he looked to be as tall as Kakashi, but not as built in body. He had blue hair, and blues eyes, he wore loose fitting black and blue pants with a matching shirt, at his side he wore a sword in a sheath that like its hilt encrusted with ancient runes along with blue sapphire diamonds. The man was Yunxu Liang.

Kakashi watched as Yunxu Liang moved steadily towards him, each step he took seemed to cover the ground in snow Kakashi stood his ground, and when Yunxu was ten feet from Kakashi he said, “We meet again Kakashi Nakata.”

Recognition suddenly hit Kakashi, and he in turn said, “So we do Yunxu Liang, but from where have we met before?” Kakashi asked unsure.

“I used to talk with you all the time as a child, and it was I who would keep your bad dreams at bay…that is until you discovered girls. Moreover, one girl in particular. Ume whom I suspect is Lin.” Yunxu said with a laugh. Kakashi blushed slightly.

“Why have you come back Yunxu? What was the meaning of this dream? Kakashi asked with anger seeping into his voice remembering having to see his family and friends dead.

“Was that just a dream, or was that the future?” Yunxu asked in turn.

“What are you talking about? Stop talking in riddles, and give me some answers!” Kakashi demanded.

“There is something coming Kakashi. This evil is what the last heroes, and I fought against barely winning last time, it eventually cost us our lives. But this evil that’s building is stronger then what we fought against.” Yunxu said tensely while looking around as if the evil he spoke of would jump out at any minute.

“Are you talking about the Cataclysm?” Kakashi asked aghast.

“Yes, Kakashi things are happening again like they did before, and to stop this evil you must train your body to use my powers-our powers.” Yunxu said walking towards Kakashi again.

Time seemed to lose all meaning for Kakashi. He and Yunxu trained for days on end almost none stop. Yunxu taught Kakashi all he knew and more while Kakashi would teach Yunxu some of the Jujitsu that he knew.

“Kakashi I have taught you everything that I know. I only pray that it is enough to keep everyone safe.” Yunxu sighed sounding very tired.

“Thank you Yunxu, for all you have taught me.” Kakashi said with a smile. Then sent a gust of wind toward Yunxu that would have blown any other man into the unknown, but Yunxu dispelled it easily.

“Ha-ha…you’re going to have to do better then that junior.” Yunxu laughed.

“Just one more sparing match…Unless you’re too tired old man.” Kakashi challenged.

“Y-you dare challenge me? Winter’s Envoy!?” Yunxu demanded, with a sly smile on his face.

Hehe…sounds like I have.” Kakashi agreed with a wolfish grin.

“FINE! Let’s go!” Yunxu shouted running toward Kakashi.

Kakashi and Yunxu both sent gale force winds toward each other creating tornadoes that ravaged the dream world, but had no effect on the two combatants. They went into hand-to-hand combat, something they had been working on, and now they tried it against one another, neither of them able to land a good hit on the other.

Kakashi moved into Yunxu placing his leg behind him trying to take him down, but Yunxu simply moved his agile body taking his weight off that leg then successfully planted his other foot giving him enough of an leverage to throw Kakashi.

Landing on his feet Kakashi stood facing Yunxu. “No more playing, I want you to use it.” Kakashi said trying to keep his voice steady.

“Are you sure, you can take it?” Yunxu said thoroughly loving every minute of this.

“Try me.” Kakashi said with a cocky smile.

They both stood staring at each other. Yunxu had a blue aura rising off him like a never-ending fire, while Kakashi had an aura of his own, which seemed to be engulfing him in a sliver/blue flame that made his hair stand on end. Yunxu took his sword from its sheath the blade that Kakashi had not seen until that moment was a brilliant lapis lazuli clear blue that went perfect with the silver sapphire encrusted hilt.

Yunxu waved the sword in a wide arc above his head then swung it down in Kakashi’s direction. Strong winds mixed with jagged ice shards were cast in from Yunxu’s simple wave.

Kakashi had been waiting for this moment, he held his hands in front of him, and steadied himself, and then concentrating his, hands began to glow even brighter to a shining blue.

The wind, and jagged ice shards hit Kakashi, but instead of doing damage, Kakashi caught it all with his hands forming it into a ball. Kakashi was about to take the ball, and hurl it at Yunxu.

Yunxu yelled, “Stop!”

Kakashi let the energy dissipate then walked toward Yunxu, and said, “What’s wrong?”

“You have done well Kakashi! You’ve grown in strength, and that move you just did there; I could not do myself, as an award for having excelled higher then myself. I present you with these gifts first my Ryuusaki.” Yunxu said smiling taking off his sword sheath with the sword inside, and handing it to Kakashi who took the gifts graciously.

“I-I don’t know what to say?” Kakashi said stunned.

“Say thank you.” Yunxu snapped

“Thank you Yunxu.” Kakashi said sheepishly

“Now for the last gift.” Yunxu announced taking off a sliver necklace, with two wolves on it.

“Thank you Yunxu, for these special gifts, but how will I keep them? This is just a dream.” Kakashi said soberly.

“Hahaha, don’t you worry Kakashi you’ll have them when you wake don’t worry.” Yunxu laughed. The he suddenly went back to being serious, and said, “Kakashi, I have one favor to ask of you.”

“Yunxu, you’ve helped me so much already. What can I do for you? Just name it, and it’s done.” Kakashi stated. Grateful for all the help Yunxu had given him.

“Its just one thing. I never got the chance to tell Lin how I felt about her; the time was never right for us. I was wondering if you could do that one favor for me. She was the only challenge that I failed to meet.” Yunxu said through clenched teeth.

“Y-you said earlier Lin might be Ume.” Kakashi stammered

“Yes. I know she is, now. Why do you think you have such a strong attraction to her?” Yunxu said thoughtfully.

“Tell her how you feel Kakashi, before it’s too late. I made that mistake do not repeat the same. The necklace I gave you breaks into two halves. I was supposed to give it to Lin before…” Yunxu said with a far away look in his eyes.

Kakashi awoke silently his body ached, and yet there was a warmth that surrounded him, and something was in his hands. In his left hand he found that Ume had crept down and interlaced their fingers together was and fast asleep behind him. In his right hand were Ryuusaki and the necklace that Yunxu had given him

If Ume were awake, she would have commented on how much longer his hair was and how it was darker shade of blue. In addition, how his eyes seemed to have more of a blue/sliver tint to them along with his slight facial differences, not to mention the extra set of muscle he managed to put on during his training with Yunxu.

Kakashi just lay there feeling happy for once. He squeezed Ume’s hand to make sure he was not dreaming then quietly turned to face her.

“You look so beautiful Ume.” Kakashi whispered.

Ume’s eyes fluttered a moment which made Kakashi feign sleep, and lifting one eyelid slightly to see if she had awaken, and when he discovered she had not he opened hi eyes once more to look at her.

“I love you Ume, I always have. I just never had the guts to tell you before now.” Kakashi confessed.

“And, YOU don’t have the guts NOW.” Yunxu pointed out from inside Kakashi head. “You’re talking to her while she sleeps!” Yunxu continued. “Kiss her you fool!” Yunxu shouted.

“Kakashi had an overwhelming sensation of cold charge throughout his body. He then leaned in close to Ume and kissed her, waking her up instantly.

“Kakashi, what are you doing?” Ume asked half shocked and half sleep.

“Something I should have done long ago Lin. That is to tell you, I love you.” Kakashi admitted leaning in to kiss her again.

Kain pulled his sword from his scabbard with a loud scrapping sound. "I'll send you back to hell! Where you belong!" Kain shouted slicing through the body of one the undead soldiers.

Zaroushka was by his side doing the same as he was with her mighty axe that she weld like it was an extension of her arm putting it through everything that came her way. "Damn, how did they know we where coming!" She shouted over the sound of all the clashing from their weapons hitting against the on coming undead army formed of long dead soldiers called back to life from the evil that is Lokai.

Kain and Zaroushka had set out three days ago in search of the Dragon's Den in the forest of Epoch only to find that the valley of spirits leading to the forest was over run by hundreds of warriors that had been long dead.

"Arrgah, I've had enough!" Kain shouted. "Zaroushka stand back, I'll send them all down to the pits of hell!" Kain shouted while slashing at his nearest foe taking its torso clean off with one swipe of his sword.

Gathering his power around him, Kain's body took on a gold glow. Zaroushka was still battling the undead on the other side of Kain then getting tired of them as well called upon her own power thus making a glow her glow a bright blue color.

The Undead surrounded the pair, Kain had closed his eyes to focus more on his power he had not used it in a very long time. Zaroushka did the same focusing her power gathering it around her. Their magical aura gave them protection from the undead warriors.

Kain opened his eyes, then raised his arms up over his head, and at the same time the ground listened to the movement raising in front him clearing the way of the undead that were there a minute ago. Kain then waved his hand in the direction of the undead on the left and the right each time the earth listened to him moving in waves rippling like the ocean leaving the undead warriors caught in the ground that was unwilling to let them go.

Zaroushka called forth her great power making the little stream that passed through the valley surge with water transforming it into a great river, and then making that river water lift from its bed in an unnatural way, and making it blast the remaining warriors Kain did not sending them flying off into the unknown.

"Well, for not using our powers in so long I think we did pretty good." Kain laughed surveying the muddy scene before him.

"Yes, I would say that we did quite well, though it took us a bit too long to dispatch of these poor souls. Zaroushka said sadly looking at all the bodies strewn everywhere.

"That was an impressive show of power." A tall man said in black and silver armor walking slowly toward the two knights.

"Why-you old scurvy dog!" Kain said to the advancing man. "You could have helped us."

"Hey, now why would I want to intervene when I knew you both had things under control." The stranger laughed.

"Segry, even after all this time you still aren't funny." Zaroushka laughed pushing Segry playfully.
 

My life

Lately, I find myself thinking about the past as I watch people I love, change. I know that as they do change I have to get to know them all again. I have been in a downward spiral you could say dealing with family issues realizing that if I don’t do something different soon I’ll crash and burn. My mother isn’t doing so well to be honest.

She has good days and then there are the bad days. However, it is the bad days that just drain me of everything good. I appreciate the time I have with my mother because I love her. She stayed and took care of me when she didn’t have to. She could have run off on her own like many other kinds of mothers. I have been blessed with a mother who actually cared to the point of going without things she wanted for herself.

I believe in honesty, and sometimes brutal honesty just to get the point across so that I know where I stand. I hate not knowing where I stand with people, yet I find myself questioning that with the people I love. Then there are times where I think I’m viewing a stranger that taken over my life. When this happens there is this “What the hell” feeling that doesn’t exactly sit well with me.

I know what I want out of life, and still seek to have that even if I have to wait. Nevertheless, I find myself wondering if what I want should be placed upon others because it may not be what they want. I find myself sitting up alone with just my thoughts to keep myself company which is very different from what I am used to these past couple of years.

Creatively speaking, I have been going over things in my portfolio, and just campfires mostly and finding that they aren’t interesting. Or, the people in them don’t add because they aren’t interesting as they are. I am taking the time to flesh them out more, so they will be. It’s either that or just get rid of them entirely. I haven’t decided what I’m going to do with them just yet.

Terrible dreams have been plaguing me as well for reasons past understanding. The horrible part is that they feel so real. I feel, smell, and touch everything.

I plan to participate in Nano this year, but not sure if planning anything is a good idea. Life has a way of screwing plans made up by those who think it will happen if they make one up, still it’s good to try I guess. I came across a saying:

“If You Want to Make God Laugh, Tell Him Your Plans”

Until next time readers, this is me signing out.