Well, the change for you is the getting-rid-of-the-guilt. It may not change Jackson, but you'll be happy. And you deserve that. And not just the momentary happy (I do well with that) but the deep down joy (if I ever find it I'll share).
Where do you find motivation? I need to dig deep to find my willpower and do what has to be done. I have been putting it off for long enough. Why do I do that? I make excuses.
I need to light a fire deep in the pit of my soul. I need to ask myself some hard questions and figure this out.
It's not like me to be so laid back about this. I think I do better when I am under pressure or back up into a corner. I suppose I better get busy and make something happen. I am tired of standing in the corner!
It's a new day and a new week. No time like the present to make something wonderful happen!