January the 7th:

The hurting seemed to dull down a little. My hand feels a little numb, but thankfully not my writing hand for whoever is reading this!

You know, it's kind of odd. I used to not really care so much about girls. You know, the 'girls are yucky' stage! But now, I'm starting to have second thoughts...

I wonder what it would be like to go out on a date with a girl. What my first kiss would be like. I wonder what it would feel like to love somebody. Not just plain family love... but LOVE love.

I keep thinking back to when mom and dad were still around. Each time I look at that family album stashed in the shelf, I remember them. They looked so happy. I saw them kiss every once in a while. I used to think it was gross, now I kinda miss it! Sure, they fought a lot, but mom always used to tell me 'it only brought them closer together'.

I wish I could get married to a beautiful woman one day. I'd take her out all the time, shower her with gifts, protect her from harm, never cheat on her, always give her my shoulder to cry on... I'd be her knight in shining armor like all those romantic heroes in the lovey-dovey books I've been reading all day!

...Who am I kidding?
It's not gonna happen. There's no one else out there for me. That stupid virus killed them all! It's not gonna be long before I'm next. Why am I still wasting my time writing?! Why am I STILL writing?! This is annoying! I should just throw this stupid journal in the fire... along with my FANTASY about having a family.

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I'm sorry about that last thing I wrote. I'd erase that, but my eraser's worn out. I took a little nap earlier, so I feel a little better. It's just so lonely here. I wish I could find someone else I could spend some time with.

That's it. Tomorrow I'm gonna start looking. There's gotta be SOMEBODY else out there! I cant be the only survivor. I will find somebody! They're probably just as lonely as me.
If someone is reading this, then there MUST be somebody! I cant be the only one that didnt die from this stupid virus. I just cant.