If you know/knew me in real life, I ask that you please stop reading this item and go elsewhere as this is my personal journal/blog and you might not like everything you read. You can visit http://sites.google.com/site/tehutiswriting/ instead if you wish to look at my fiction writing.


Please note that everything in here is just my opinion, neither right nor wrong--occasionally ignorant, more often made after much thought--so trying to argue my opinion's rightness or wrongness through blog comments is kind of pointless (especially since I probably won't change my mind).

In other words, I wouldn't step into your parlor and criticize your choice of wallpaper, no matter how much it might clash with the drapes, so please show the same respect here.


I have a journal. But I haven't felt like personal journaling in a long while. When you're perpetually anxious and depressed, there's little point in continually putting that out there for the world to see.

So I'm going to try something a little lighter and see what happens. *shrug*

This can be deleted or made private at any time, I suppose.

If I don't reply to a comment, it's nothing personal, I'm just terribly shy. Even online.

About me: I'm a Libra with an Aries Moon and Taurus rising, and both my Venus and Mars in Scorpio, but I really should have been born a Cancer. Take from that what you will. I write, read, and feed birds. I regularly yell, "Objection!" during the court scenes on Law & Order. Anything else you need to know about me you can find in my writing, my dreams ( http://tehuti.dreamjournal.net/ ), my photos ( http://sp-albums.livejournal.com/profile ), or the books I read ( http://www.librarything.com/profile/tehuti88 ).

Or if that's not enough, here is my brief bio:

ID: 230662   (Rated: 13+) Le Bio D'Tehuti!  Welcome to my portfolio! :) *waves* by Tehuti, Lord Of The Eight

My writing status 11/4/09:

Escape From Manitou Island: Pt. 218 in progress
The Ameni Chronicles: Pts. 69 and 70 in progress; on temporary hiatus for notes
Lucifer rewrite: Ch. 10 in progress
Various shorter stories and novellas


Important links:

My WDC portfolio (all my important writing): http://tehuti_88.writing.com/
My InkSpot (same as the above, for non-WDC members): http://tehuti_88.inkspot.com/
My GoogleSite: http://sites.google.com/site/tehutiswriting/
My DeviantArt: http://tehuti.deviantart.com/
My Flickr Photos: http://sp-albums.livejournal.com/profile (I'm social_phobe on Flickr)
My DreamJournal: http://tehuti.dreamjournal.net/
My LibraryThing: http://www.librarything.com/profile/tehuti88


Mackinac Island trips:

"Big Mackinac Island Entry, Numero Uno!" 
"Big Mackinac Island Entry, Numero Dos!" 
"Big Mackinac Island Entry, Numero Tres!" 
"Yes, This Is What You Think It Is." 
"Mackinac Island 2006, Pt. 1" 
"Mackinac Island 2006, Pt. 2" 
"Mackinac Island 2006, Pt. 3" 
"Mackinac Island 2006, Pt. 4 Finale" 
"Mackinac 2007 FINALLY" 
"7/20/08" 
"7/13/09" 
"8/21/10" 
"9/7/10" 

I totally agree with you. I find that sometimes I just post stuff just for the entertainment of others, but still I get the review of how I should change this or that. I enjoy reading your blog and how you post what is on your mind. I do pretty much the same.

I'm just glad to finally know where all my books are! (Even if they're already crowding each other. ) And to actually be able to pick them up without everything collapsing. ;_; And not having to worry about what disgusting things might be hiding under everything else.

Eurgh with the hidden chicken's nest!! I hope that's the worst thing found out of all the flooding, period.

I love reading the details of your cleaning. You must feel great when you walk into your room and have all of that clean space. It makes me feel like sorting through my bursting shelves to get the garbage out. As I was reading, I'd finish a paragraph, then get up and clean something around here, then read another paragraph. You're very inspiring.

We just cleaned our garage after the local flooding and I found a rats nest, the remains of an unidentified animal, and a hidden chicken's nest with about a dozen rotten eggs (by far, the worst of the three).

Yay, T -- I had so much fun with you on Mackinac! We should make a date to go again another year and do less of the touristy stuff and more hiking.

Trevor is reading Lore of the Great Turtle for school this week and he thought it was cool that the Wendigos are similar to the Laestrygonians of Greek myth. It was sweet of you to take him through the Haunted Theater. :)

I've been wearing my green bracelet ever since to remind me of our wonderful trip!

I chuckled a bit on the summarisation of chipmunks as "little boogers". I suppose we would then have to classify racoons as bigger boogers.

Not too sure what "fudgies" are so googled that - and look what I came up with in the Urban Dictionary:

"a tourist, typically middle-aged and often overweight, who enjoys fudge and similar confections, especially in places like Mackinac Island Michigan or Door County Wisconsin." by Joe Bone Apr 1, 2005

L.O.L

Sound like MI is getting more and more crowded by your account. Good thing I suppose - more revenue for the Island which means it will continue to stay open and maintained. Bad thing is more fudgies and litter.

And bolder boogers.

Googled up the amount of water we're meant to be drinking on a hot day:

"The latest new conventional wisdom from the field of sports medicine holds that you should drink daily half your body weight in ounces of water. That is, if you weight 120 pounds, you should drink 60 ounces of water every day, or seven and a half cups. If you weight 180 pounds, you should drink 90 ounces of water daily, or eleven cups and another few sips.

Some people who suffer from water retention, also known as bloating, are reluctant to drink extra water, on the assumption that it will make the bloating worse. This is not true; in fact, retaining water is often a sign that you are not getting enough water, causing the body to hoard what little water it has. Counter-intuitively, if you suffer from periodic ankle swellings or days when you can't fit into your "fat pants," drinking more water will actually help you shed the excess fluids in your tissues. "

Source: "http://www.wisegeek.com/how-much-water-should-i-drink-daily.htm"

Loved your description of Winnebago trail. If one day I do visit MI, I'll be sure to look out for this area.

Interesting to hear about the Ocryx and the haunted theatre. Naturally, I googled Ocryx in Google Images, and saw this fierce looking horned beastie. Visited the image's website and came up with this blog entry about the Haunted Theatre (http://inaholdingpattern.blogspot.com/2009_06_01_archive.html).

Lol, I suppose I'll also mention that out of the image results that appeared in my Google image search, Results 5 and 6, right beside Result 4 which was the Ocryx pic of the above-mentioned blog article, were two of your Ocryx sketches from your Flickr site. For reference, they were: (http://www.flickr.com/photos/social_phobe/1727812164/) and (http://www.flickr.com/photos/social_phobe/1728027459/)


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Dear T,

So glad to hear that you have finally managed to get back to MI. A deserved trip indeed! Unfortunate that the bladder is still acting up, but it seems you were able to cope with that for the trip. Kick ass!

This is actually the first time I've read one of your MI entries - I've seen some of the pictures in your DA port before but haven't actually read a direct entry of yourself in MI aside from your MI inspired story chain.

(update: Just noticed the list of MI trips that you have listed in your main - will have a read through)

Being a person who really enjoys listening to what other people are listening (especially of artists I haven't heard of before), I You tubed up two of the songs that you mentioned - Nolitus and Selisona. Nolitus Pi is pure win. Nolitus is even more win - flutes and a floaty kind of voice just does it for me. Also, that underlying theme of both these songs (around 0:34 on Nolitus Pi)- sort of like a up and up kind of thing - is good. Not to say that I didn't like Selisona - loved it too.

Some comments on Youtube about these songs:

"This is to be played when my ashes are scattered in an already-determined spot. SO blissful, so joyous."

"this song makes me suppper happy...and i have no idea why"

Yes, pure win indeed.

I've actually got "In Caelum Fero" on an Adiemus disc somewhere - didn't remember the name, but I do recognise the tune.

(Update: been listening to Nolitus for a couple of days now – addictive stuff)

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Life is full of shit. But its full of the good stuff too - the things you enjoy, the things that make you feel alive, whether it be chasing those raccoons, experiencing your first earthtremor, exploring Mackinac Island or petting your cat. From your entries that I've read this year and those entries I read when you were live journalling about 5 years back, I understand that the shit you had to bear is worse than most.

You are strong in your own way, T. Just look at the vast work of fiction you've created of high technical standard. From the many things I've read in your port, none of them have a single grammatical or other technical error I could detect. Your journal entries are error-free even in times of great stress and sorrow. Such a mind behind the millions of well-formatted words cannot be anything but disciplined. I have monumental problems even writing this short reply.

Yes, it just might simply be a compulsion - but What is life if nothing but a series of compulsions of doing the things that you like to do and have to do? The compulsion to explore. The compulsion to feed the birds and watch them in the mornings. The compulsion to trust people even though you have been burned many times in the past.

We've never met in real life. Why do I take the trouble to reply to your entries? Compulsion, with the inspiration from one of your stories.

"Sometimes, mere words can save a life."

Everyone is worth something, and if my words can make at least a small difference, I write them to you gladly.

Stick to your compulsions T - they are your instinct to survive and not give up.

(continuation)

Sigh - I don't really know what to make of it. If I remember correctly, some of the side-effects listed here were already pre-existing conditions prior to you taking Lexapro. I just pray that P has been doing a careful and methodical follow up and assessment for each treatment she administers.

I certainly hope that your situation isn't serious enough to warrant going to hospital. Brrrr - I was once sent to hospital for treatment of some Pneumonia. For a few days I was pretty much stuck in this ward room. The absolute boredem was bad enough. What was worse was that I was in a ward full of people who would just hack and cough late into the night. At the end of the three days, I was practically begging my Doc to discharge me ASAP, even though I hadn't fully recovered.

Still, you know your body best and indeed, I hope that P and the Urologist do as well (and exercise professionalism and due diligence)

Today's the 14th now - I hope the transport went okay, and indeed, hope that you have heard at least good news or at the very least, some resolution.

Incidentally, I tried looking for some Lovecraft books in a couple of libraries but there were none. The online catalogue indicated that they do exist but mysteriously, the books were not on their shelf. I'll keep an eye open for them on my next visit. Lol - reading about your enthusiasm for LC has made me inclined to at least try out one of his books and see how it goes.

Regarding your increasing power bill, perhaps take your own meter readings and see how your figures compare. Maybe they are indeed overcharging - definitely not uncommon.

Alright, I'm sending this off now. If I carry on, its possible that this reply may be delayed by another day!

Desktop T, was accidentally pushed off the desk. Happy to report that he is still intact and scribbling on his pad as per usual (no broken arms - whew!).

Hey T, good to hear from you again. Lol, apologies for taking for so long to post replies. I actually read it last week, and have been typing this up on and off since then. Even now, I haven't fully replied to your 7/6/10 entry! In the interests of getting a reply out there in a barely timely fashion, I have taken my orginal 7/6/10 reply (which was written before I discovered that you had posted on another one on 8/7/10) and did some updates based on what I saw from your 8/7/10 entry - apologies if its a bit disjointed at parts!

It looks like you've adopted (or been adopted by) a family of raccoons! If that happened to us over here, I'd be thrilled (all we get are the odd magpie, the rare duck and next door's cat who ninjas out the moment its spotted) diseased bundles of fur they may be. Yes, the backyard over here is quite boring in comparison...

Unfortunate that ICS is still giving you a hard time and that the treatments aren't having an appreciable effect. One hopes that the doctor has a follow-up plan up his sleeve as opposed to spamming more of the same.

Hmm, interesting to hear accounts from the forum of Elmiron taking a long time to work. I suppose the call now is to whether to keep at the instils or seek another solution. WHile you have been on Elmiron for some time now, I understand that the instils are a more recent thing, with oral intake being your previous primary method of treatment? I also recall in a previous blog entry that you mentioned that only a relatively small percentage of Elmiron taken orally reaches the bladder as opposed to the instils.

If thats the case , perhaps staying on the instils is the way to go for the time being. I suppose the question to ask here is, is it getting worse? The eternal optimist in me says "If its not getting worse, it must be getting better."

Haha, that eternal optimist dude sure can sound corny at times.

Regardless, I wish you the best luck in picking the next step of your treatment.

Good to hear that P's clinic has organised some transport arrangements for you. Indeed, it has its own sets of complications as you mentioned, but the big plus is that your appointment times are now more flexible AND you don't have to bother Mum anymore.

Don't worry too much about inconveniencing the Case Manager dude - he gets paid to do this kind of thing.

And between you and me (and any blog reader), if I had to choose between bothering someone else and Mum, I'd pick bothering the someone else in a heartbeat! Ok, maybe not ALL the time but I make my point.

I did a brief google on Lexapro sideffects and yep, there are indeed some. For convenience, this is an extract of what I found (http://www.drugs.com/sfx/lexapro-side-effects.html):

"Constipation; decreased sexual desire or ability; diarrhea; dizziness; drowsiness; dry mouth; headache; increased sweating; lightheadedness when you stand or sit up; loss of appetite; nausea; stomach upset; tiredness; trouble sleeping."

Those were the so-called common side effects. The more severe side effects (of which the doctor should be notified about) include:


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