I know I stole the title from a song by Green Day but only because this covers most of my past and well how I feel now and I guess I'll look into the future too because this is where all my ramblings are going to be held. All the things that go through my mind, so sometimes it'll be completely random and you probably won't have a clue what I'm talking about but other times you will understand.

Pretty please don't judge what you read here because this isn't just a story this is life for some of us, I'd appreciate it if you respected that...

Oh yeah if you tend to be a bit more fluffy then I would strongly advise you not to walk down this road, this is a story that happened... so there is nothing to blunt the truth.

(For Staryl : omae wa mada hanatarekozai (jks))

See, apparently I have no clue.......I read this one post and I didn't see what the others who wrote it saw........I read wonder.......I read knowledge. That there is pain in healing, and beauty in sorrow........well, some people never see how true that is..... I loved this post.......and I think you will be fine......because you realize something that most do not......that the greatest journey begins when we look inside ourselves......... Beautiful.........and clear.....

Tornado (Bobbie)

What is love? To me, it is the to be with, of knowing someone and understanding all of the short comings. Love is waiting through the icky stuff. It knowing and sharing the tiniest things of our lives and finding joy in them.

I read the poem you wrote for Writers Cramp and I thought I would pop by. Boy, I thought I was neglectful of my blog.

I have never done such an exercise for any of my characters. It is interesting to read.

Have you not found though that when you are writing that the characters seem to sometimes decided their own path and can really surprise you? To me, that is one of the delights of writing.

Hello, well what can I say, I've read your blog and something told me that I should perhaps write something uplifting. But I've come to believe that when people do that, that maybe they have no clue as to what pain can lead a person to do. I am sure that everyone has been through their own kind of hell, or maybe not. I know I have, almost certainly different from yours. Not worse or harder but most ceratinly different. And in my experience, Time does heal all wounds, to a point. Getting there isnt easy. but you do if you want to. I've seen loved ones die, leave for no reason and so on and so forth. Living life on lifes terms is something I've recently had to learn. Life is what you make of it. Destiny is yours to mold and follow or not, you'll always get to where your going no matter what path you chose. The path you chose will determine what you will encounter and how you will live. I do rammble dont I? Have no idea what Iam trying to say or if Iam making any sense at all. I'll leave you with this, somethng that was told to me many years ago, that still works to this day.
~Smile, it makes people wonder what you've been up to.~
~Z~

I can relate...having been down a similar path, myself. Maybe not the exact same road, but some of your sentiments struck me. Surely haven't walked a mile in your shoes. I've encountered a lotta people of the "Get Over It" mentality. There's a lot more to it than that, as you recognize. The passage of time dosen't make it any easier, either.

I have an article on grief in my port, if you're interested...

Take care.

Hi,
I know you don't know me and you don't have to if you don't want to, I took the liberty of reading your blog. I must say not that I enjoyed reading your pain. I did enjoy the way you wrote about your life.Your right not for the faint of heart. But hell life is not easy we are looking for something or someone to make it make sense. Not sure it ever will but we keep trying! Never give up! the sun shines with out us! Might as well enjoy it while it is out.
Thanks for sharing!
Shelly

Angel of Hell?

Indeed

Twisted

stay as you are matt! i wouldn't want you any other way!