Hi folks, I hope you're having a good Monday. My day is blah.

I'm completely overwhelmed with my life right now, and I don't know what to do. I feel completely out of control and I want it back! Things are just spinning absolutely crazy these days and I'm weak and powerless to stop it.

How do you regain control of your life? I'm sick of life happening TO me. I want to make my life HAPPEN again. I'm sick and tired of the winds of fate blowing me around.

One big problem in my life these days is that I'm getting very frustrated with people that are wishy-washy and can't see the big picture. They want what they want RIGHT NOW and aren't thinking about what the consequences of RIGHT NOW will be in a week, a month, or a year. I wish I could say it's just one or two drama addicts, but it's more widespread than that - so much so that I'm afraid to drink the water. I'm usually a very patient person but that patience is wearing pretty thin. Add a sinus infection that seems to like me a bit too much, and you have a bomb in the making.

I don't know. I took a walk during lunch and thought about how I regret not signing up for NaNo this year. Why the heck not? If everything else in life is going amok, why not add in something I want for a change? I mean, I take a look around and everybody else is doing what they want in my corner of the world regardless of anything else. Why on Earth am I just sitting here and letting life happen? I know I've taken some knocks but dang, it's time to get up and move sometime and I'm starting to get that itch that the time might be right now.

That brought me to the more important realization that perhaps I should just say hell with it all and do what I want. Everybody else is, so why not me? I'm starting to seriously consider starting on my novel soon, rather than waiting for the start of the new year. I'm a bit hesitant to do that with the holidays coming up but as I said, everybody else is doing what they want without regard to anything else so why the heck not? I shall ponder this more.

I think I can say that at least one thing is explicitly clear to me right now: It's time to quit sitting here. The writing hiatus is over, if it ever really was in the first place. I have returned to the ranks of the writing and we'll see what happens. Maybe I'll start this novel sooner rather than later. Maybe I'll bat around a few more contest entries first. All I know is that I'm done sitting here and doing, well, nothing. If I need a break in early 2010 I'll take it then, but right now it seems a break is the last thing I need. Already today I've updated "Invalid Item"  and wrote "Invalid Item" . Both pieces are fairly brief, so feel free to drop by my port and check them out.

Here's hoping you're having a better day. See you later.

Bye!