We'll be celebrating Eid ul Azha tomorrow. It is one of our biggest religious festivals, where we have to sacrifice animals for the satisfaction of Allah. I have my new clothes ready. Maybe tomorrow I'll be able to forget a bit of my academic sorrow. It is no use brooding over the past anyway. I'll have to be more punctual next time. I just hate the traffic here, it can be so unpredictable. I could get an A in statistics only if I could be in class on time, but now I'll have to bear the hard blow of an F, F is for failure, and I know I was a failure this time, but will succeed next time Insha Allah(praise be to Allah). I'll try as hard as I can.


 

My math instructor did not allow me to retake, due to the heavy traffic congestion, I could not do a single math class this semester. My class used to begin at 9:30 and ended at 11:00, but I could never reach my university before 10:15.
I have a F grade in math because of this. My instructor did not accept my project report, and she won't allow me to sit for my final exam. She just took out my records, and put a big fat F in it.

I had dreamt of getting an A in this subject, but now I have to repeat it to fullfill my dream. Oh well, failure is the pillar of sucess anyway.

As for computer, I won't fail, but won't get an A either. So, another repeat to fuilfill dreams. No problem, I always stumble at the first attempt, but succeed at the second try. Hope Allah Allmighty will help me reach my goal now. As anticipated, I'll have a very low CGPA, but can't help it.
 

I got a lot of things to catch. Gotta practice a lot of statistics today, so that I can go to my instructor for a tutorial tomorrow. A little bit of pain is bothering me, but I can get over it I suppose. Gotta read the programming book too. Will write a little children's story for my nephew. Have to practice art and music. Talked a lot with my two little neighbours. Have computer class tomorrow, gotta prepare for it. English homeworks have to be done. It's already 6 PM here now. have to hurry.
 

I am not gonna give up. I keep telling this to myself, just to boost up my confidence. Yesterday was one of those wonderful days without pain, and lots of enjoyment. I got 15 on 20 in an Art presentation, but my maths tutor did not allow the retake. English is alawys fun.

I sang a lot yesterday, my senior friends asked me for a treat, and they always ask for songs(not food). I really liked it cause they sang along too. One of my friends have decorated my palms beautifully with henna. I got 10 on 10 in one of my computer science assignments, where I was asked to create a diamond using asteriks in C++. My efforts finally paid off!

Coding in Microsoft Visual studio C++ is really fun when you can understand how to code. I'm well today, and I'm gonna enjoy every moment. I'll practice coding right after lunch. I'm hungry now. Gotta go eat. Just created a little graphic for WDC. Check it out:

ID: 1616919   (Rated: E) Simple pic  a simple work I did just now by Humming bird-glad to be back

I am not going to give up, no matter what happens. I did not miss the art exhibition that day, the best paintings got sold on the very first day, for 3000 taka each. Mine got sold for 1500 taka. 1000 is all I need as allowance per month, I still have 500 taka left in my purse.

Also did an art workshop as part of my course yesterday. I enjoy painting a lot, though I don't know whether I'm good at it or not. I can't judge myself, so I leave it for other people to decide. I do creative works just for the fun I get from doing it.

I was being torn apart by constant pain and temporary paralysis(these are part of my life, these are challenges, and I'm willing to accept them.) Today I'm a lot better than before. I'm in the computer lab right now. Did a program using C++ which shows 10 errors. Have to call the teacher assistant, I need her help. She's really sweet. At times I mail my program codes to her, and she helps me out. Thank God I had her, cause my instructor is not always available.

I know I've missed a lot of points in computer class, but I still have my final exam and maybe some quizes left, so I'm gonna try my level best for that. Hope math instructor will accept my test retake application.

I've started helping two of my classmates with English. I enjoy English class a lot, and I like helping people with their problems.

I'm hungry now, gotta go grab my chicken roll, will come back later.
THANK YOU TO ALL MY FRIENDS WHO'VE PRAYED FOR ME. THANK YOU FOR ALL THE ENCOURAGEMENT YOU'VE SENT MY WAY. I'M SMILING TODAY, ONLY BECAUSE OF YOU.

I love WDC.
 

Footache, temporary paralysis, declining grades, lack of concentation, I'm sunk in a huge pool of tears. It's really hard to keep smiling. I'm getting late for class every day because of the heavy traffic congestion, I'm getting hurt everyday, no matter how careful I am. Just how do I prove to my computer instructor that I really enjoy his subject, that I understand everything he says? Cause my grades don't reflect that.

Last class he asked me to explain my assignment in front of the whole class, but two of the most difficult works for me are 1. Standing for a long time and 2. walking for a long time. But I enjoy doing both of these, as I like accepting challenges that comes my way.

I had to stand for a long time that day, but though I understood, I could not perform properly in the quiz. Don't know what my grade is. And why did I fail to perform well? because standing for a long time caused serious footache, and now I can't walk properly either. I had a feeling that I might fell down while explaining, and if that happened, people would burst out laughing.

I missed my math class test, have to submit an application for a retake. But don't know if my instructor would accept that. Sickness is pulling me down, really down. But I think I can gather the strength to rise up again. I just don't wanna give up, no matter what happens!