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For a while now, I’ve tossed around the idea of opening up an actual, honest to goodness journal on here. “It’ll be cool!” I told myself. “You’ll have a place to rant, vent, whine, praise, bitch, etc., everyday!” Sounded therapeutic, when I put it to myself that way. But I know myself. I’m Bipolar and have Adult ADD. My attention span is about as long as … Ooh, look! Fritos! Sorry. What was I talking about? Oh, yeah. I’d convinced myself not to, because I was sure that I’d be manic about posting in it for a day or two, but then it would get lost in the shuffle of other “Great Ideas, but Unfinished Products.” Besides, who wants to read the ramblings of this sometimes dark, brooding mind? Why would I want to share the spew of this brain with the general populace anyway? But then I read the entire journal of someone who inspired me. In her journal she shares all the ups, downs, hills, valleys, moments of Heaven and moments of Hell that she goes through, and she seems so strong to me. Maybe by sharing my own life, or at least by writing it down, I’ll find my own peace and strength in life. By getting feedback on some of my entries, maybe I’ll see myself more clearly by viewing myself through outside eyes. We can all change for the better and by sharing our life’s experiences we can help each other through the change. By writing down the good and bad in my daily life, I can purge myself of useless feelings and gain a new perspective on the blessings I receive and the problems I perceive. So, you all have Sultry Enchantress OBLIGATORY DISCLAIMER Be warned, before diving in, that this is a journal. That means I will be sharing my thoughts and feelings, all of them, as they come to me. I swear, a lot. I also don’t hold back. I’m not out to hurt anyone, and will not use names if I am lashing out. But feelings are feelings. All of them are valid. If you don’t like honesty, strong language, bad attitudes, a lot of whining, or sickening sentimentality, please click away now. This journal is not for the faint of heart, the delicate of nature, the closed of mind, the weak of stomach, the young, or the ignorant. Keeping all that in mind, if you’re still reading this, then please, feel free to Enter The Insanity known as my mind! |
| 87. The First Two Miles | ID #609312 |
| Posted: 9-25-2008 @ 7:43 pm EDT | |
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I call the first two miles of any of my runs the "Ass" miles. I'm dragging ass, I feel like ass, I want to kick my own ass for convincing myself that running a marathon is a good idea. ... You get the point. But once mile 2 (ish) rolls around, my shins go numb, that oh so wonderful burn in my thighs subsides and I feel like I've sprouted wings. |
| 86. On the Run Again! | ID #603758 |
| Posted: 8-25-2008 @ 9:20 pm EDT | |
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Finally! |
| 85. Writing Dry Spell is Over? | ID #601832 |
| Posted: 8-13-2008 @ 10:31 pm EDT Edited: 8-13-2008 @ 10:34 pm EDT | |
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Thank goodness too! I was getting worried. In the past week, I've written one rough draft and revised yet another story. If you feel like taking a gander, I'll post the links. |
| 84. Well-Rounded Woman? | ID #601734 |
| Posted: 8-13-2008 @ 12:20 pm EDT | |
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My day yesterday was not a dull one, but I did discover that I seem to be a well-rounded woman. Not only did I make wheat bread from scratch, but I also repaired my own roof (with help from my father who had the supplies)! |
| 83. The Prognosis.... | ID #598194 |
| Posted: 7-23-2008 @ 6:17 pm EDT | |
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| 82. Sidelined?? I Think Not! | ID #596864 |
| Posted: 7-16-2008 @ 7:24 pm EDT | |
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Ok, so apparently, there is a possibility that I have a torn meniscus (sp). I have an MRI tomorrow morning at the ungodly hour of 6:15. Maybe I can sleep in the machine.... |
| 81. A Random Complaint | ID #596228 |
| Posted: 7-13-2008 @ 9:27 pm EDT | |
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*Beware ... this blog post contains randomness. Continue at your own risk!* |
| 80. Home Owner | ID #581386 |
| Posted: 4-24-2008 @ 5:36 pm EDT | |
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I've been putting off announcing this because I wanted to wait until I had some pictures to show. Unfortunately, I'm an idiot and keep forgetting to bring my camera over to my new house. |
| 79. Published Again! | ID #579962 |
| Posted: 4-17-2008 @ 7:14 pm EDT | |
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"Fear Burns Calories" has been published! That makes two stories this year. WHOOT! |
| 78. My part in the fight against breast cancer... | ID #573058 |
| Posted: 3-11-2008 @ 7:59 pm EDT | |
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I have taken on an incredible challenge. On October 24th, I'll be walking 60 miles over the course of three days, camping out at night with thousands of other women and men taking this journey with me. |
| 77. The Ever Elusive Romance | ID #570376 |
| Posted: 2-27-2008 @ 5:30 pm EST | |
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I have discovered that I have a problem with “Romance.” And I don’t mean because I’ve been married (and divorced) twice and am now making my current boyfriend wish he lived on Pluto instead of three miles away from me. While the above does indicate problems in the romance arena, I’m not talking about “life” problems. |
| 76. Countdown to Disney | ID #565790 |
| Posted: 2-5-2008 @ 6:40 pm EST | |
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January 11, 2009 will see me back at Disney. This time though, I won't be stopping at 13.1. I'm going the whole 26.2! |
| 75. Just Sickening ... | ID #564927 |
| Posted: 2-1-2008 @ 11:13 pm EST Edited: 2-1-2008 @ 11:14 pm EST | |
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The Constitution, whether it be the federal one or a state one, should not, I repeat NOT be used to legalize discrimination. |
| 74. Spreading the Word | ID #562911 |
| Posted: 1-23-2008 @ 9:01 pm EST | |
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Spreading the word for my fourth Seester. |
| 73. Just Stuff | ID #562692 |
| Posted: 1-22-2008 @ 8:58 pm EST | |
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Well, due to some child support issues, and other general financial issues, I've had to pull the parking break on the home purchase. In a way, I'm sort of relieved. It gives me some breathing room in having to come up with a total of $9000 if this grant falls through. Unfortunately, unless the child support checks start arriving soon, I'm going to dwindle the money I do have saved in just paying the every day stuff... |
| 72. The story that scared my son ... | ID #561881 |
| Posted: 1-18-2008 @ 11:05 pm EST | |
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is up for a short time. As always, my undying gratitude to everyone who reads and/or comments on it. And eventually, when my life gives me some breathing room, a return favor of a review. I am seriously keeping a list of names. |
| 71. Look Before You Read? | ID #561447 |
| Posted: 1-16-2008 @ 8:05 pm EST | |
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Well, while I was cleaning up the kitchen, the eldest decided to check his email. First, however, he decided to read the story I'm working on. (It was still up on my computer.) Apparently, I am now the reason he is a) going to have nightmares and b) afraid to look into the mirror. |
| 70. I Am Published! | ID #561167 |
| Posted: 1-15-2008 @ 12:55 pm EST Edited: 1-15-2008 @ 12:56 pm EST | |
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The first issue of The Far Side of Midnight, which you can find at - http://www.thefarsideofmidnight.bravehost.com/index.html - is up and within it's dark pages you'll find a little story called "Funeral Misdeeds" written by yours truly. |
| 69. 13.1 Been There, Run That | ID #560741 |
| Posted: 1-13-2008 @ 8:45 am EST | |
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The Disney Half Marathon is an amazing experience. They pull out all the stops, really. There were fireworks, bands, food, and merchandise! And that was just pre-race (3:00 am - 6:00 am). |
| 68. Disney Bound | ID #560115 |
| Posted: 1-10-2008 @ 6:49 am EST | |
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Finally! This is it! In ten minutes we're on the road to Disney! |