My Dream the Evening of January 28, 2012

         Last night I dreamt I was at a class reunion celebration of my sister's class in our hometown. Everyone was dressed semiformal--but me. I was dressed casual and felt ugly and obtrusive. Many people looked over me or through me because of my appearance.

         At some point, I was talking with a lady and setting at a table. She left her purse and jewelry and went to get a drink. When she didn't come back for a while, I decided to get up and walk around--move on. Since she left her things at the table, I picked them up in an attempt to find her. When we connected, she accused me of stealing.

         After that, without awareness I began compulsively picking up jewelry from tables, stores, etc.--only later to discover these things in my possession. Horrified when I discovered something in hand, I would find a place to lay down the items without attracting attention.

         As the evening wore on I lost the sense of where I was and/or how to get out of there and get home---causing greater and greater emotional upset with each passing moment. Later I couldn't even remember where my car was... the doors were locked and I couldn't get back inside.

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My Dream the Evening of January 27, 2012

         I dreamt I was at some sort of a Christian gathering at someone's home or a townhouse rented for the gathering. I was not part of the group, just an invited guest. There was a young child, undernurished and emotionally clingy, who wanted me to hold her. Though old enough to have been potty-trained and wearing regular panties, she would continually poop and pee her pants--soiling herself and me as well.

         Feeling frustrated yet sad for the child, I found myself continually cleaning up the mess on us and our clothing, etc. At some point, I shouted, "She is pooping again!" Then the male group leader consoled, quieted me, and handed me a yellow Christian questionnaire with black typewritten letters to fill out. I was turn it back in to him directly after completing it.

         Finally we were without anything to wear and the mess was getting beyond my capacity to clean... I was horrified to find myself naked, walking around holding this child. I was ashamed of my nakedness, yet needed to turn in the form. I tried to slip it to a lady, and the male group leader asked me why I didn't turn it in to him directly. I lied and said that I had forgotten that I was to turn it into him and, therefore, handed it to a lady setting at a table with another gentleman who looked similar to him.




 

Saturday, January 28, 2012, 5:11pm

         Worked today... five hours of overtime---"oh, yeah."

         It's been an uneventful day otherwise. Waiting for my Goober to come home now before it gets dark. =)

         Have a pleasant evening.
 

Sunday, January 1, 2012, 1:05pm

         Life is good! Started my day off with Starbucks and a nice long walk. Now, I'm a mite bored... though enjoying Masterpiece Mystery! and a glass of wine.

         Happy New Year 2012!
 

Wednesday, December 21, 2011, 7:19pm

         Why can't one ask a questions straight out without his/her motives being called into question? Contemplate that one.

         Yet you can pose a question to God and He will answer you straight up! I think I'll just make sure I ask the right person next time. =)
 

Sunday, December 18, 2011, 12:16pm

         It's been a good weekend---good to be off work, that is!

         Missed church this morning... Got up after 7am. Took a walk.

         My kitty, Goober, has an injury on his right side... must've gotten into a fight or something. Two clumps of his fur are matted and it looks like he was bitten. It's tender and he doesn't want to be touched.

         I'm a mite bored. Think I might have a bowl of soup and eat outside on the porch with Goober.

         Take care and enjoy your day in the "Sun."
 

Saturday, December 10, 2011, 11:59am

         Once more with feeling... just got thrown out after typing three paragraphs---ugh!

         Anyway, as I was saying and as you don't recall---life is extremely good for me right now. I've started a new job---been in training both on-the-job and in the conference room for the last three-and-a-half-weeks. Day-by-day I become more comfortable with the position as well as the ladies I am working with---which is another good thing.

         A lady from church has invited me over tonight for pizza and a movie---looking forward to that... anything to break up the monotony of the day-to-day routine of life, eh?

         Pray for my mother---she has COPD and also has the flu. She has not felt well all week. If no better by Monday, she'll got to the doctor. Unfortunately, she has a smoking habit she cannot, or is unwilling, to break.


 

Sunday, November 20, 2011, 8:54pm

         How do you survive in an environment where the very sound of your voice is met with contempt?

         It hurts. I restrain the compulsion to cry, push back anger and withdraw.
 

Tuesday, November 15, 2011, 6:23pm

         The months are passing like seconds. Hard to comprehend. The older I get, the faster it goes.

         I'm happy and content. God is good... all the time. All the time, God is good.
 

Saturday, November 12, 2011, 11:06am

         It's been a crazy week... but then they're all a little "crazy."

         Was offered and accepted a full-time position at the place where I've been temping. Now I get paid whenever they're off for a holiday and if overtime is offered, I am eligible to work it.

         A few quirks on the homefront, which I won't even honor with a comment. =)

         The guy I like, likes me too!

         Life is good.
 

Sunday, October 23, 2011, 1:44pm

         ...what a difference twelve hours can make. Was so upset last night that I had trouble sleeping, wanting retribution, and yet this morning I feel nothing but forgiveness, peace and love. God is transforming my reality! May He transform yours as well.

         Today, I am focused on who I am in Him, and who He is in me. I am remembering there is a time for every purpose under heaven. This is my time to be silent, to acknowledge His presence and truth. No weapon formed against me will prosper. His Word is yea and amen. "Faith" is "my shield and bulwark for without faith it is impossible to please Him." He that comes to Him must first believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him. "He" is my "yea and amen." I believe that His Word does not return void, but goes forth to accomplish that for which He purposes.

         Above all things, I put on Love for God is Love. "He" is "my authority, my purpose, my all in all."

         Holiness, holiness is what I long for... Holiness is what I need. Holiness is what He wants for me.
         Faithfulness, faithfulness...
         Righteousness, righteousness...
         [chorus]Take my heart, and form it. Take my mind, transform it. Take my will, conform it.... to yours, to yours, O Lord.