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| 94. Guilt Trip | ID #701576 |
| Posted: 7-15-2010 @ 9:59 am EDT | |
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"I don't want to go to the gym today," I said. |
| 93. Lost in a Haze | ID #700943 |
| Posted: 7-6-2010 @ 11:00 am EDT | |
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Lost in a haze |
| 92. Happy Father's Day (early) | ID #699577 |
| Posted: 6-18-2010 @ 3:57 pm EDT | |
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I wrote this as a writing excerise. The story deals with questions we all deal with when we reach that certain point in life. I'm not sure what I am going to do with it. It does seem like the beginning of a novel I want to read. When I know what happen next, I'll work on it. In the meantime, Happy Father's Day and enjoy. |
| 91. What Sweet Treat is it? | ID #699040 |
| Posted: 6-13-2010 @ 6:18 am EDT Edited: 6-13-2010 @ 6:27 am EDT | |
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Which Sweet Treat is it? |
| 90. Set Sail | ID #698994 |
| Posted: 6-12-2010 @ 1:44 pm EDT Edited: 6-12-2010 @ 1:46 pm EDT | |
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"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." -- Mark Twain |
| 89. Talking to the Air | ID #698875 |
| Posted: 6-11-2010 @ 6:07 am EDT Edited: 6-12-2010 @ 11:39 pm EDT | |
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No comments for the last couple of entries. I sometimes wonder if I am talking to the air. Some of the people I used to read and hang with have left the site. And I was checking stats. Most of my readers are from Unknown websites and cannot comment. So who is reading? If a writer writes and no one reads is she still a writer? Like the proverbial tree in the forest that no one hears falling, how do you answer that question? |
| 88. Happy June 8 | ID #698535 |
| Posted: 6-8-2010 @ 7:19 am EDT Edited: 6-8-2010 @ 7:27 am EDT | |
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WHAT DAY IS IT? |
| 87. Captivating | ID #697029 |
| Posted: 5-23-2010 @ 7:38 am EDT Edited: 6-6-2010 @ 11:08 am EDT | |
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That Girl I want to be that girl. The one who’s free in words and spirit. The one who said, “I love you,” without hesitation. I want to dance like a ballerina twirling my skirt. I want to be that girl, the one who lives behind my mask that hides her beauty. The one not tied by fear and anxiety, but the one who is lovely and free. Please God, I want to live and love with my whole heart. ======================================================================================= I wrote this after I reread a fascinating book by John and Stasi Eldredge. Captivating is about the spiritual woman's journey and place in this world. However, it's not the usual Christian bullshit about making babies and walking two steps behind your husband. Did you know that Eve was made last of all of Creation, making her the pinnacle of Creation not an after thought. She is Beauty and the Giver of Life. She is the Help mate and Completer of Man. She is other side of God making a whole picture when the Bible says that "we are made in His Image." Lest we get a big head, she was the the first deceived by Satan. Satan is also called Lucifer or Son of the Morning. It infers a glory, a brightness or a radiance unique to him, but he fell because of pride in his beauty. Now he hates Creation's Beauty and Eve because she is the incarnation of the Beauty of God. John and Stasi talk about the three things that every woman's heart cries out for. 1. Romance and Relationships Women are relationship oriented there is no doubt about that. But so is God. We talk about having a relationship with Jesus after we are saved. We spend one on one time with Him in prayer. We talk, argue, laugh, cry and He is real. Women reflect this quality of the importance relationship to God. And God pursues us. "I have loved you with and everlasting love"(Jer. 31:3) Who wouldn't want to hear those words from a lover? And God said them to us because He "yearns to share beauty, intimacy and adventure with us," as John and Stasi write. 2. An Adventure to Share God looked around the Garden of Eden and said "It was not good for Man to be alone." Wow. New world, new Man, no sin and it"s not perfect yet without Woman. So God creates Eve and calls her "ezer kenegdo". They did not translate it as the predictable "helpmeet" or "companion" they found Hebrew scholar Robert Alter who spent twenty years translating Genesis. He says a better translation of ezer is "lifesaver" and kenegdo as alongside or opposite or counterpart. The mission before the Fall was to "Be fruitful and multiply and fill the earth and conquer it, and hold sway over the fish of the sea and the fowl of the heavens and every beast that crawls on the earth."(Gen. 1:26-28) Now in the Fallen world, life is harder, dirtier, lonelier. God wants to be our ezer: our lifesaver, our essential companion. He is not Santa Claus or the Great Waiter. Women want to help. It's in the DNA of our souls.We are not 'in the way' or to be humored. We are not dolls on a shelf or one of the guys. We want to share a life together, an adventure. This desire is a pure reflection of the heart of God. 3. A Beauty to Unveil John and Stasi write that Beauty is essential to God because Beauty is the essence of God. They say we know this nature. Nature is not primarily functional. It is primarily beautiful they contend. And its true. What is the purpose of a beautiful sunset? God could have made the world a Pleasantville These passages answered so many questions for me. I've never considered myself beautiful. I look a pictures and wonder what others see. There is one though. My husband to be took when we were hiking the Pali trail on Oahu. I am radiant because I am pursing a right relationship with God and my new fiance is pursing me. I am sitting a rock beside some water. I turn at just the right moment for him to capture the light and love that shines in my eyes. I wrote the above poem thinking about that time and how to find that right relationship with God again and with my husband. Disclaimers John and Stasi wrote these disclaimers: "We did not say that a woman is prized only for her good looks. We did not say a woman is here merely to complete a man, and therefore a single woman is somehow missing her destiny. What we said was, first, that Eve was the crown of creation. There is something uniquely magnificent and powerful about a woman. We tried to reveal the immeasurable dignity, the holiness of your feminine heart by showing that it is God who longs for Romance; its God who longs to be our ezer; it is God who reveals beauty as essential to life. You are the image bearer of this God that is why you long for those things too." I have read this many times and listened to the iTunes version. It has given me insight and helped me heal some of the feminine parts of my soul. I think the most significant insight came from the passage:"All women are not mothers but all women are called "to mother." To mother is to nurture, to train, to educate, to rear. As daughters of Eve, all women are uniquely gifted to hep others in their lives to become more of who they truly are - to encourage, to nurture and mother them toward their true selves." This passage has helped take some of the hurt of infertility away and showed me why I love my job so much. The book talks about wounds of a woman's heart and how God wants to heal them. It's not an easy journey but it is well worth it. I hope to find my way back to the right path soon. John Eldredge also wrote Wild at Heart. It is the book for men about their spiritual journey, their place in the world and in His Great Adventure. Lani |
| 86. What it means to be a NICU nurse | ID #689885 |
| Posted: 3-10-2010 @ 11:40 pm EST Edited: 3-11-2010 @ 12:05 am EST | |
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Work has been stressful the last couple of weeks. There has been lots anxiety related to the general fear of the GREAT UNKNOWN. What will happen with healthcare, Medicare and state funding? No one knows at this point. And in the last couple of shifts I've worked, there has been some problem that has kept me tied to the phone: supplies not showing up or air conditioners and heating systems going crazy. P.S. This is not my hospital and I'm not in it. The author on youtube says "Just to clarify, all of the photographs in this video are from pictures that had release forms signed. They came from a stock photo distributor and were not taken by me. They are representative of babies that are taken care of in many NICUs. I would not take photos of babies and post them on YouTube without consent from the parents.Thanks" |
| 85. Kailua | ID #683344 |
| Posted: 1-11-2010 @ 10:59 am EST Edited: 1-11-2010 @ 12:42 pm EST | |
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This story makes me incredibly sad. I used to live in Kailua. I loved the soft white sandy beaches. I learned to swim in the protective cove that is Kailua Bay. Walking the beach used to be my therapy when things were rough. There was a house that was a marker to turn back. I called it “The South American dictator,” house because it looked like a place Eva Peron would step out and wave to crowds far below. The Spainish style balcony (or so it seemed to me) of the house was so out of place to the easy Island aloha. |