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| Many thanks to iKïyå§ama-R.I.P Whitney H. A huge thank you to Gabriella It was a simple crack of an ancient fortune cookie that sparked the courage to keep writing on the eve of the new year. This is a test to see what a tiny slip of white paper can do for someone who was ready to hand in the towel, allowing every self-doubt and negative thought to take control. May this mark a beginning; a fresh start for the potential of something messy, dented around around the edges, and absolutely all mine. Here's to blogging in 2011. ![]() |
| 61. Huh? It's February? | ID #746664 |
| Posted: 2-8-2012 @ 8:04 pm EST | |
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"Attaboy" -- The Goat Road Sessions |
| 60. Day Seventeen: Counting Days | ID #744796 |
| Posted: 1-17-2012 @ 11:48 pm EST Edited: 1-18-2012 @ 12:25 am EST | |
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"30-Day Blogging Challenge" |
| 59. Day Sixteen: A Day Unknowing | ID #744456 |
| Posted: 1-16-2012 @ 11:48 pm EST | |
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"30-Day Blogging Challenge" I pulled at the tiny crinkles next to my eyes, their shade a lighter, deeper golden brown. Every strand of black hair had turned into a curl of dove grey. I twist it around my finger. It bounces a little as I pull my finger away. More curl, less frizz. Who ever thought that would happen? The smile in the mirror is less cynical than usual, but there is still small slant of sarcasm. I'm glad it's still here. Reminds me of who am still partially me. There is a knock on the door. The dull orange paint flakes away from the frame with the force. Such an odd choice for a hotel door. "Who is it?" The question is raspy, deeper. Like smoke trapped in a clear glass. "Umm...Dr. Harkness?" He had a young man's voice, barely broken into the prime of life. "There was a package left for you at the door." I open the door. The silk robe over my shoulders billows with the new found. It's the reason I hate silk. Too slippery. Too delicate. Too easily torn. The bellboy looks frighten at my appearance. He smiles slightly. I try to give him one back, but only serves to frighten him more. I grab the white box - "Dr. Jacklyn Harkness" sketched over the top. It's not my name. But the boy seems to think otherwise. I grab the cookie I found of the dresser and handed it to him before shutting the door in his face. There are no sharp implements in the room. The wallet I've been too scared to look at sits idly on the dresser next to where the cookie once sat. I open it now, looking for any means of cutting through tape. The ID inside shows a picture of me in my altered state. The name reads "Tosh Tam". I rolled the name off my tongue. It was too foreign, too new to be real. The plastic of the ID cuts through the box tape with easy. Inside white box sat a brown one, also taped to the gills. There more and more boxes. Black. Blue. Red. Aubergine. Finally, the last box, no bigger than my palm. I pull the forest green velvet ribbon from the bow and let it fall onto the comforter. Inside, nestled in a bundle of cotton balls, was a scarred medical bracelet and folded crane paper in origami. The medical bracelet fight well. The cool metal was nice against my skin. I ran my fingers over the engravings. This was my name. My true name. The name I could aloud over and over, and it would never grow old. The note on crane paper was not as joyous, the words running through my brain over and over. Next time, sweet. The words were as bitter as the realization was sweet. For the next time could always be better. |
| 58. Day Fifteen: Zombies and the House of the Rising Sun | ID #744362 |
| Posted: 1-15-2012 @ 11:16 pm EST | |
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| 57. Day Fourteen: the Misunderstood | ID #744278 |
| Posted: 1-14-2012 @ 11:37 pm EST | |
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| 56. Day Twelve: | ID #744072 |
| Posted: 1-12-2012 @ 11:01 pm EST | |
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| 55. Day Eleven: Where is The Doctor when you need him? | ID #744004 |
| Posted: 1-11-2012 @ 11:24 pm EST | |
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"30-Day Blogging Challenge" |
| 54. Day Eight: Strengths & Weaknesses | ID #743762 |
| Posted: 1-8-2012 @ 9:30 pm EST | |
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"30-Day Blogging Challenge" |
| 53. Day Seven: The Do-Over | ID #743629 |
| Posted: 1-7-2012 @ 11:54 pm EST | |
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"30-Day Blogging Challenge" |
| 52. Day Six: Anything Goes - Motown Edition | ID #743526 |
| Posted: 1-6-2012 @ 11:52 pm EST | |
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"30-Day Blogging Challenge" A new semester of school is in session. Attending two different schools is definitely a new experience. Going to class takes much more energy than I remember. It really hasn't been that long since I've actually had to go, sit and listen. But I feel like it has been years, and I am truly out of shape. My schedule kind of went pear-shaped over the last couple of days. Instead of attending school four days a week, I'll be going every day. Not that much of change. Except I notice that I'm one of the eldest students in my classes. Makes me feel old, which is absolutely ridiculous, right? Right. Can I borrow someone's cane? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5NDholT0NdU&feature=fvst Maybe because of the holidays, or the added workload, or something in the water, but I've kind of lost my appetite. I was reprimanded the other night by my loved ones because I hadn't eaten dinner. Or lunch. Half of a tuna fish sandwich was forced down my throat. Ah, love. Today was the same deal. Made so watery mac and cheese from the box. Couldn't really taste it, but it got the job done. This would be worrisome if I cared. Honestly, I really don't. And I have enough padding on zee bod to not have to worry about starving. Apathy = Problem Solved. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XE2fnYpwrng Found a hole in my Led Zeppelin t-shirt the other day. That was kind of depressing seeing as it is not even close to being authentic. It was one of those whim buys at the store where you know you need a new shirt, but really don't have the heart to cut through a pack of raving hyenas (Southern California Discount Moms) to pick out a shirt. I went to the dude clothes section, saw the Led Zeppelin logo, "Kashmir" immediately popped into my head, and I bought the damn thing. I'll patch it. It almost has sentimental value. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8nA18g_PwG0 I've been thinking about my short time in the Bay Area lately. B'ham is close the same experience with less crazy people, less pollution, and less pot. Except there is no shiny Golden Gate Bridge here. There was something about driving across the bridge (Bay, no Golden Gate) with the windows rolled down so your car doesn't drift over the side that I miss. Usually Santana was involved. The Munchkin (my mother) and older brothers would trot out the old stories that wasn't even born for. Yet I know everyone of the people they're talking about. Maybe no in person, but the stories have been recycled so many times it's hard not feel a part of it. Everything happened in San Francisco. My brothers were born there. My parents met there. My grandparents died there. So much attachment to a city barely had a chance to get to know. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hdpe7TRGt74&feature=related A large box of boxes arrived today. Mostly late birthday and Christmas presents I have to ship out to California some time next week. I've stressed over what to get Z-- for quite some time. He's the baby of the family, and possibly a genius. This puts some pressure on the situation. He does math homework for fun. Taught himself how to play chess in two hours. He was six. One has to step up the gift giving or you fail as an older sibling. My first thought was to ply him with candy, however, besides the amusing factor for me since I don't have to be there when he warp-speeds off the wall, it wasn't memorable. I finally choose brain block puzzles and books. Feed the machine. Not the most exciting thing for an eight-year old, but I'm hoping the benefits outweigh the wow! factor. This could be a massive pipe dream but I've got nothing else. He'll grow from this. Without hating me. Hopefully. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1tOpwgrqshU Last year I did nothing really productive on WDC. Some new campfires. A few reviews here and there. I don't think I wrote one freakin' poem or short story. This is sad. I'm going to try and fix this. 2012 - the year of writing. Don't get me wrong. I wasn't a complete failure. There is research up the galore on my hard drive. Post-its, hand-written notes, pin boards, pictures. I just haven't done anything with it yet. Yet is the operative word. There will be blood. There will be headaches. There will be my head hitting the wall. But, by God, there will be writing! |