Missing something. I know, but I don't know what exactly.

ID: 1870609   (Rated: 13+) King Park  All these marks of youth soon transformed coldly into stone for fights and stupid feuds. by In Your Dirtiest Pants

I'm taking a break from writing The Anatomy of the Journey although I've received some really encouraging reviews on Figment for it.

I'm writing a short story based on this song:



It's not hard, since it's already a story and it's all laid out there. But I keep thinking about it. It keeps coming back to me, so I'm just going to write it out. I'm just going to give my take on it. I'm just gonna do it.

I'm just under 1,000 words on it right now. I was starting by following the song almost exactly, but now, to get the theme just the way I want it, I'm hashing it out. I'm going to add a scene, actually three scenes, that have nothing to do with the song, but everything the song was going to portray.

This is really the most inspired I've been in a long time. I hope that it holds as long as it takes me to write this short story. Sometimes, especially when it starts to get long, I can't see it working out, so I just stop. I don't want to stop. I WANT TO FINISH THIS and I don't want it to be too short, just short enough.

I was always afraid to really draw inspiration from songs, to keep the themes and stories so close to the actual song in fear that someone would think that I didn't do any of the work myself, that I just filled in the obvious blanks.

But I don't care anymore. I give credit where credit is due and the rest is mine, alllll mine. haha.

I don't know how I would ever go about publishing a collection like this though. I'm sure I would pay out more for the copyright problem then I would ever make. haha. I wonder. Especially "Drugs or Me" .

Ah, well, we'll see. I don't know if I will ever publish. I guess we'll see.

Goodnight.
 

I'm kind of on a YA kick right now.

It didn't help that when I went into Coles today the guy told me that my choices were awesome and recommended more...Oh man. haha.

I never finish reading a YA novel and feel the way I do when I read Bret Easton Ellis or Janet Finch or so on, but they're so entertaining that I can't put them down. Just like I stayed up all night reading Saving June. Six hours and I finished it. I only took a 4 hour sleep in the middle, so that I wouldn't die at work.

Saving June was a really good story actually. I read some negative reviews before had and I'm glad I didn't listen, because it turned out to be really good. I liked the characters. I understood why they did what they did. I was able to connect with the main character. There were a few things I couldn't connect to, but I feel that way with all novels [which is why I attempt to write my own].

I will let you know how these go as well.

 

I thought they were going to revoke my chance to go to Mexico for a month, but they didn't! I'm so excited to shop and see the city. I want to see all these is to see. I want to do the touristy stuff. I want to get a tan. I'm excited about these things, I really am.

The only thing that sucks is that I'm working 9-12 hour days. I'm going to be exhausted when I get back. At least all the money I spend while down there will be paid back in epic over time. hahaha.

Plus, even though I'll be working I'll be doing it in Mexico! I'll be spending one month in a city I've never been too, meeting people I would have otherwise met. I will be training and learning new things myself. I'm excited about this chance. I really am.

Next week I'm going to start taking basic Spanish lessons. I'll get the women at work to help me. I want to be able to greet people with confidence. I want to know how to talk to people when ordering food or when shopping. I want to understand if the people I'm training are shit talking me. hahahaha. I will be the only non-Spanish speaking person there, so this should be interesting...

There is only two downfalls to this whole thing:
1] I have to dress business casual, but I only own jeans and hoodies.
2] It's going to be 3948204 degrees out and I have to walk up several flights or stairs, outside, to get into the apartment where we're staying. I think I will probably die. haha. We'll see.

I leave in a month today. EXCITED!
 

Well, this is what I've written so far. It's just the bones, but I'll get to hashing it all out in full soon.

"Get in, bitch. we're going garage saling!"

Grandma, my ex's mom and I are going to this epic garage sale. My old neighbour put together 25+ houses on his and adjoining streets. There's a lot of older people on that street. Perfect, I'm in! I'm looking for vintage art. Plus, I heard they're selling plants, having a bake sale, etc. haha. Is it weird that I'm excited?

I'm unshowered and tired as hell but I don't care. I'm going.

Other news, I'm going to Mexico for a month. Dudddde, I'm excited, but most people have nothing positive to say. Everyone is certain I'm going to get shot, raped, robbed, stabbed, etc. Thanks for the encouragement, guys! But I'm not going to allow myself to be scared. I'm going to Mexico and teach people to do my job, so that in time I will no longer have one...

Good thing I start school in the fall!

Okay, garage salin' time.
 

I don't know why I can't come back here and commit. I want to read blogs every day. I want to comment and keep up with everyone's lives.

I want to read short stories and even novels. I want to get connected with characters and help other authors the way I want help with my novels.

I want to do these things, but I think there are a few reasons why I don't.

I don't find the mobile app all the convenient. Writing.com has so many things that people use all the time and it makes it hard to compact it into a small little app. But I would do most of my reading/writing/reviewing on the app. But I can't. My fingers are always bumping another link or what have you. If I had an iPad life would be easier. haha.

Also, I find it hard to meet writers with a similar writing style. I haven't been able to connect with many people who can read my writing all the way through. I guess it takes a certain kind of person and as much as I love giving feedback I get discouraged if I don't get any back. I'm not asking for everyone I review to review me...That's not what I'm getting at, although I don't know how to explain what I mean right now. haha. Caffeine has yet to kick in.

I have a hard time reading sci-fi and fantasy. I wish I could. I wish I could get into it and appreciate it the way it should be, but I can't. I think this is why I have a hard time connecting with writers here. I think that's generally the people I meet. There don't seem to be any groups for the type of fiction I like the most. I want to meet transgressive fiction authors. That's by far my favourite to read. Transgressive fiction never ceases to amaze me. I just want more of it. haha.

Man, I always write in here when I should be leaving for work...
 

i'm writing a short story collection, but the stories will all be based around the same small group of friends.

it's going to start with a death, a death of the main character that keeps all of the friends together. his death is going to cause everything and everyone to fall apart, drift away from each other.

it's not really the most original idea, but i hope the way i do it makes it completely mine, you know?

i hope i actually do this. i have so many other ideas i've been working on, writing, but they're not going anywhere.

i think this idea and all the details i have in my head is a really great project, but it could be one of the hardest thing i've worked on. it won't be continuous, so that may make it a little more difficult.

tomorrow i'm going to see La Dispute and i'm going to love every minute of it, i'm certain.

well, i must leave for work now. should have been 3 minutes ago though...


 

I'm up north. Goddddaaammmnnnn.

Honestly, I don't have much to say other than that, but I'm set on watching episode 2 of Girls and I can't do that with any efficiency because the internet here is fucked. Slow as a fucking snail. Instead of watching the kettle boil or the video to upload in this case, I'm browsing parts of the internet that I don't always have time for because they're inaccessible by my phone. Well, they are accessible, but not with ease.

I like my aunt's house. It's really nice. I love that when you drive down the road it's like you're in cottage country, except not the area with the massive cottages that are like mansions that don't even have trees on the property. I'm talkin' good little cottages with lots of space to walk around in your underwear. Woo.

I wanted a relaxing weekend and I'm getting it. That's nice.
 

Um...I think just over a year ago I wrote an entry here about a book I was looking for, that I had read as a kid. I think I mentioned a few of them [found one]. But one of the books I was thinking about went a little like this:

Some disease caused everyone over 20 to die. I think in the novel the oldest kid is like 18 or something. I'm fuzzy on the details since I was younger than 13 when I read this. Anyways, in the novel they have to rebuild. There is lots of extortion between the kids, violence and such. The main character is a young girl, who I believe has siblings that she's trying to protect.

It sounds a lot like this book that's getting a lot of attention in the YA world right now called Starters by Liasa Price. Sadly I can't prove this because I don't remember the name or author of this book. From the discription it sounds like the exact same story and that both intrigues me and bothers me a lot.

Sure, in the novel that I read as a kid there was no controling of teenage bodies or anything like that, but...I don't know, this just seems to close for my liking.

I wish I knew the same of the book I read as a kid. I mean, if I still think about it now, after all these years, it must have left some impact on me, in the kind of way Ender's Game did, but I found that years later.

Man, this is going to bother me until something bigger comes around to annoy me.