Thoughts on life and society can be pointless, but that's what books are for. I've never enjoyed reading. |
It's always been difficult for me to read. Sometimes, I imagine little demons pulling at my eye lids.
The Devil is in the details. I like people, who can act. They're fun to watch. I guess I wish I could be an
actor, but I just don't have that charm and I stutter. My life is meaningless. I just lope from one place to
another. I think that's my strength. Most people need a career and family. .. Family is a nice idea, but
I've never had a nice family. Is this becoming annoying? ...
Let's start with Vertago! He's cool and a stud. He also is popping up a lot in my movie watching. The mind
can make association: like is the guy on the radio talking to me? Or why am I seeing so many eye balls in
my movie watching? Jeeeze! I just saw CASE 39. A really scary movie with an eye ball scene that's very icky.
This guy has a hornet come up out of his eye's lid.. tear duck. Any who, it's scary. Well, when I was
Veratgo on Private Games.com my picture was of my left eye.
It was trippy. Just a note to the CASE 39 writers: Lilith is not evil. I'm talking about Adam's first wife, expelled
from Eden, because she "Would not be his beast of burden." Lilith is the first feminist in Bible Lore,
she is immortal. So you can't drown her. Nope, only God can stop her.
Okay, this Vertago guy is still effecting me. Strangers will look at me and cover their right eye, cars will shut
one headlight off. That's dangerous! I had an elderly woman pinch my butt an call me "Vertago." in the mall.
There was a Vertago concert. There is a Vertago song by U2. I started writing about Vertago in the 90's on an
Australian web site Private Games.com. That's when I was working at Wal-Mart. Wal-Mart was awful.
I had an over night manager slap me in the face.
I just wish people would stop dropping pennies around me. I mentioned that Abraham Lincoln is looking to
the right, while all the other presidents are facing to the left, because he was assassinated. Now, I get penny's
dropped around me. I wish I had mentioned the dollar bill and the star of David over the eagel's head.
It has twelve stars in it for the twelve Apostles. Feel free to throw dollars at me.
Reflections: I wasn't completely honest about what I said about the penny. I was quoting the old Civil war
lore Lincoln was facing right because he freed the slaves and turned his back on the brotherhood. That's
what I wrote on Private Games.com. I'm not in favor of slavery.
| I think you do a great job
as a reporter and political
commentator of Fox Five.
Whenever, I make any comments
on politics and social conflicts
I get a lot of negative responses.
I guess I'm not as subtle as you.
So, here I go again..
My social anthropology course taught
me that we all evolved from tribes.
Tribes are racist. The Old Testament
is full of racism. The Jews believed
they were the chosen people of God
and you had to be of their bloodline
to be part of their tribe.
But, if you look at the Jews as an
anthropologist you see a small tribe
that originated in Africa.
The logical conclusion is that Jews
were African. That angers some Evangelical
Christians, who insist Jesus was white.
This is how ingrained racism is.
Birds of a feather flock together.
It is natural selection that drives racism.
All animals judge each other visually.
That is a basic instinct ..
I am guilty of this, but I try not to be
prejudice. Obviously, your career is proof
that northern European culture is not dominant.
You were born in Colon, Panama and have
achieved great success as a journalist in
The United States of America.
There are many Americas.
There is Central America.
There is South America.
There is North America..
And there is the
North American Trade Union
that Obama signed.
Why amongst all the Americas
is there so much racism in the
United States of America?
Simply, there are more tribes here.
Yes, the U.S.A in 2016 is tribal.
The Old Testament records genocide
by the Jews against Arab pagan tribes.
Tribalism is violent.
There is a long history of racism in
the United States in the name of racial
purity and Christian manifest destiny.
It is ironic that a study of the Bible
would suggest that the Jews are African
and so was Jesus.
Nevertheless, Jesus is depicted as a white
blond blue eye savior.+
I don't believe this can be fixed rationally.
It is very dominant.
You wrote about the, "Culture of Failure"
in the black community.
Do you see yourself as a failure?
You were born in Panama. Do you identify
with Black Lives Matter?
Panama is a Latino tribe.
The black activist in Black Lives Matter
identify with African Americans.
They refer to Black African American slavery.
This is tribal.
I don't see a happy ending for this tribal war.
It will create a police state and make slavery
legal again. .. But, who will be dominant?
Northern European Christian culture is failing
and Islam is growing stronger in Europe
and amongst African Americans.
There could be an Islamic state in the
United States of America.
Reflections~ In olden days Heavens knows anything goes.
The Egyptians had their monuments and the Romans had their
Empire and Jews had a really great story.
The Jews have always been great story tellers.
Do you believe everything your told?
I think I have a fan following.
My dad taught me to drive defensively
and always check my mirrors.
Sometimes I feel like I'm in a Bond film.
I assume I'm being followed and my phone
is tapped and my computer hacked.
There isn't a day that goes by I don't think
about visiting my sister. She lives nearby
in Kittery. But, she doesn't want to see me.
I could just drive over and knock.
I might get shot.
You can buy a gun in Maine without a permit.
The way I see it; my sister doesn't like me talking
about our family on the inter-net.
She's a teacher at a high school and needs to
maintain her authority ..
Did I mention she use to bath me?
Yep. There was this huge iron sink with a deep side
to soak dishes, sometimes I'd get my bath there.
I was just a toddler and mom let Cathy and Maura
bath me. .. I'll never forget it.
Little things in our youth can have a profound effect
later on in our boring lives.
I was driving on 95 into New Hampshire after the big bridge
and this crazy girl speed up behind me and then
turned off, flipping me the bird.
She looked like Hanna .. A prostitute I knew,
not professionally. She was a neighbor.
I gave her a lift around town and she never paid
me for the gas. I thought that was odd, considering she had
several hundred dollars in her purse.
Prostitutes can be neurotic.
Which reminds me if you need any advice
you can write to me at:
I haven't had any great responses.
One girl wrote she thinks she is growing
a mustache. I wrote that is very common.
We all have testosterone , even women.
Not exactly Dr. Ruth..
I think I have a unique life experience
and can give helpful insight to those
troubled by life's peccadiloes ...
| I first met Peter at a hearing exam.
There was just the two of us, standing
opposite each other with headphones
and the examiner at a sound control panel.
We would raise our right hand when we heard
This exam took place at the Peabody grammar
school. We were boys and Peter had been sent
to this exam from St. Peter's grammar school.
I smiled at Peter after the exam and he hit me
in the temple. It sounded like a hammer hitting
wood and I felt dizzy.
The examiner took Peter outside the examination
room and returned to ask me if I was okay.
He flashed a tiny pin light across my eyes.
I didn't see Peter again until High school.
I noticed Peter in my homeroom on my first
day at the Fundamental House of Cambridge
Ringe High School.
He walked over and hit me in the temple
I picked him up and tossed him into a desk.
He ran out of the room.
We were called to the principle's office
and told to behave.
I asked Peter why he hit me.
"I don't like your face." he replied.
He wouldn't give me anything more specific.
Over the four years, Peter repeatedly attacked
me. He'd hit me and I'd toss him.
I guess I'm more of a wrestler.
Several, years latter I met Peter again.
I greeted him and he said, "Fuck off!"
A friend from high school has informed
me Peter Callahan is dead.
He was married and had two kids.
He was a bus driver.
And I believe he was a psychopath.
I still don't like him.
| I had completed my literature exam.
As usual , I felt confident and was the last to present my paper
to the professor... I like to reread the questions.
I handed my rewritten and eraser smudged paper over with a smile.
"My son drowned snorkeling." the professor stated with a blank expression.
I froze in a dilemma between saying something trite or something personal
from my own experience with the loss of a loved one.
"I can't swim. I've always had a fear of drowning.
I'm an atheist and I'm so sorry for your loss.
Why are you here?" I stammered ....
"It's all right. I made it up. I just wanted to see how you'd react."
the professor smirked.
I gave a nervous smile back an exited quickly to avoid any poor
remarks. .. I didn't want to flunk a simple literature course.
I got an 84.
My life experience has given me an odd perspective on human nature.
But, I have spent many years reanalyzing these odd events.
For example, my sisters baby sat me.
They liked to dress me up like a girl with their hand me downs.
At the time, I thought this was normal, but, mom did not.
Okay. Why did this odd event happen?
My sisters were teenagers and their ethics had not fully developed.
It takes time to learn social behavior and respect for others.
I had sex with my best friends sister ..
I was in high school and Michael was not happy about me
dating his sister Rachael.
Once again, this was an irrational teenage impulse.
Rachael's dad Gunther did not approve ..
I assured him I was using condoms .. I actually believed that would
appease him. It did not.
I was banned from his house and forbidden to touch his daughter.
Rachael and I got together outside and continued to have sex.
What I concluded is this, we think we are rational, but we have a basic
instinct to mess with each other.
Most of human history has been driven by a desire to be dominant
Nevertheless, we are essentially monkeys with big brains.
I still can't fathom why that professor wanted to monkey around with me?
Maybe, she thought I was cute?
There I go ... Silly monkey .
I have odd thoughts. I am aware of the danger from society
when expressing these oddities.
First off, 5000,00 people have died on the Congo
from last month. Many were killed in tribal wars,
most were eaten by the wild life. Should the United States
send troops to protect the defenseless?
Syria has oil. That is why Russia and The United States want
to control it. A conventional war is practical, nukes destroy everything.
Over a million Syrians have fled their country. No one has counted the dead.
So, the United States pulls out of Syria and Russia does the dirty work
of thinning the opposition ... That's genocide.
What is practical can be genocidal.
I fear that moderate Moslems will be targeted by Islamist extremist
and secular globalists. It is practical to demonize your enemy as
the United States demonized Japanese Americans after Pearl Harbor.
Can you trust a woman in a hajim?
Go to any Catholic Church and you will see a statue of the Madonna ,
wearing a veil .. It was Mosiac Law.
I am not a fan of the Seria Law. However, a desperate people will take
up any banner that rebuilds their pride and hope for justice.
That is how Hitler was elected by a majority in Germany.
Hot topics in the news are mostly propaganda for the corporations that own
the media. Bill O'Rielly likes to champion the Republicans.
So, what? I really, can't see any way around a 18trillion dollar money pit.
The Federal Government will collapse and local State Government will be
on their own. Neither, Democrat or Republican can stop it.
There will most likely be marshal law and lost of personal liberties such as
private gun ownership.
How many private gun owners will stand against the military?
That is a revolution and treason.
There are many events in the news that sound like a lone killer ,
but there targets could be considered terrorist tactics.
A city can be paralyzed by a terrorist threat in strategic traffic routes,
such as, the sniper attacks in the news.
The United States Senate was evacuated because of a false risen threat.
Power utilities and water depots are soft targets.
All of which will lead to more police searches and monitoring of citizens.
What if every Syrian was killed?
That would not kill Moslem extremism.
The only way to stop a bad idea is to reeducate the indoctrinated fanatics.
That takes a longtime ...
And where is God?
Well, I was raised to believe we live in the mind of God.
Ergo, it's all a dream.. Yeah, that's not going to stop the pain.
Please, don't shoot me.+
| I don't like crowds.
I especially dislike screaming fans.
Nevertheless, I stood in line for 3 hours
to sit in a cramped auditorium ..
to listen to Donald Trump.
I sat next to a guy jumping up and down
with his hand up to ask a question.
The Donald ignored him and answered a question
about going to Mars.
He was opposed to going to Mars.
Donald wants to concentrate on the infrastructure.
YES! He wants to focus on rebuilding America
and bombing the Iraqi oil fields..
? Then, the Marines and American oil companies
can take back the oil.?
This is Viking plundering.
Isn't Donald Viking?
The tactic only works if your target is
weak. What if Iran or Russia get upset?
Dose Donald want a war with Russia or Iran?
I suppose it sounds good at a rally.
My question for Donald Trump~
"How can the the United States
pay for another 2 trillion dollar
That's what the last war with Iraq cost.
Maybe more taxes would help?
A flat tax would tax all food and services.
So, the hookers and drug dealers at the Republican
convention would be paying for Trump's Viking
diplomacy.. Is that okay?
My mom believed in Camelot and the marriage of King Author to Jesus'
daughter Sarah. She believed that the messiah would be a descendant
from King Author's line.. I got a copy of People Magazine with Kate and William's
baby girl Princess Charlotte. Is this the divine line? Oy.
The queen is the head of the Church of England, like a Pope...
The older I get; the crazier life seems. I suppose if there is a God, he or she
would want to communicate with us. Maybe, God is nuts?
That would explain the hate, love relationship. God drowned every living thing
that walked or flew, except for an inbred family and their live stalk, like the
Duck Dynasty they floated away. Then came Abraham and Moses and Jesus
and Mohamed .. Oy. Did Jesus really save the world from sin? How?
I thought suicide was a mortal sin. Aren't we responsible for own sins?
Abraham started sharia law with circumcisions ..
Moses made it legal. All those stone throwing laws and genocidal tribal wars
came from old testament law. Yup, Mohamed copied the Jews.
"There shall be no graven image of the Lord" Leviticus decrees and today
cartoonist are marked for death. Praise the Lord?
I wonder if anyone can reason with a cartoon jihadist?
I have a dream that Christians and Jews and gentiles can civilize Islam.
But, history has demonstrated that true believers kill first and then make peace
with God. Atheist just want to get along..
Richard Dawkins likes to argue that the universe does not need an intelligent designer.
Well, then is the universe God? The first requirement of Divinity is not having a creator.
He can accept infinite dimension , but deny an infinite God.
That sounds like a natural prejudice. I'm confused... I better take a nap.
We've all lost our tempers. One time I was eating an ice cream cone
and a dope bumped into me and spilled my ice cream on my t-shirt.
He didn't even apologize. I was quietly peeved.
Another incident involved my mother, she would police my room for
drugs and porn. Oh, I was a high school nerd. So, I didn't have any drugs
but lots of Playboy and Hustler magazines .. She burned them.
I shouted at her, "That's what Hitler would do!"
Fast forward, to riots in the 70's anti-war protests. I just did not care.
Nor did I care about the race riots in New York.
I had my train set and porn. I especially enjoyed Rachael's visits ..
and Virginia would strip in the center of my train set. I'd lay the tracks
on the floor. Rachael was a Jew and Virginia was a color girl.
They both loved to strip and had bouncy boobs. My mom never caught on.
Maybe, she approved of live porn?
I like variety. If you ponder racism, you'll see how silly it is to believe in
racial purity. How could any one believe they're ancestors never
came from Africa? Or, never had sex with color people?
Paul Donavan is a big Irish American friend. He'd talk down on color
people. So, I asked him, "Do you have any Italian relatives ?"
He did. But, he didn't believe Italians were colored.
Paul's a Boston cop. He has a catch fraise , "If it's white it stands.
If it's brown it's down." Yup, he's a racist.
I think critical thinking should be taught in school. There are a lot of
stupid people. Just watch Fox News and you'll see color people demonized.
Most slave owners had sexual relations with their African slaves.
Thomas Jefferson did and he wrote, "All men are created equal."
Bernadette was a nice girl, who had her father's barrel
chest. It was the summer of 1972 and I and my buddies
were walking around the neighborhood .. Bernadette
came out of her house dressed in black jeans and a
black short sleeve shirt. Michael and Andy and I lined
up to meet her. She sat down on the curb and had a blank
expression. I asked what was the matter. Her sister
Marcella was away and she was alone in the house.
I had a wicked thought about having my way with her
in her empty house.
"Can I come over?" I asked.
"Sure." Bernadette answered blankly.
I excused myself from Michael and Andy and followed
her into the side door that led to the kitchen.
Bernadette asked if I would remove my shoes. I did.
She sat at a stainless steal kitchen table set, sipping her soda
through a straw.. She asked if I would take off my shirt as
she put her shirt over the back of her chair and pulled off
her t-shirt.. I have a hollow chest and was reluctant, but
I complied. Bernadette made a face of disgust.
That ended my striptease.
I returned to Michael and Andy and played some baseball
in Raymond Park.
Oh, I'm still kicking myself.
Does my cat want to be a U.S. citizen?
Constitution Day or Citizens Day was
ratified on September 17, 1952.
However, my cat can't read or take the
exam to become a U.S. citizen.
A pet is naturalized by gaining recognition
through the C.D.C. and U.S.D.A.
They must be cleared of zoonotic diseases
that effect other cats and rabies that can
There is a movement amongst pet owners in
California to give their pets U.S. citizenship.
The precedent would place animal rights on the
same standard as human rights.
Pets are property, according to existing law.
If this legal action is ratified, then meat
processing of animal meat would be illegal.
I would have to find another job...
Human rights prohibit the eating of humans.
Although, animals have been known to eat humans.
Animals eat animals. Under this new law that
would be murder.+
Enjoy your Christ-Mass turkey or ham.
It may become illegal contraband.