Thoughts on life and society can be pointless, but that's what books are for. I've never enjoyed reading. |
It's always been difficult for me to read. Sometimes, I imagine little demons pulling at my eye lids.
The Devil is in the details. I like people, who can act. They're fun to watch. I guess I wish I could be an
actor, but I just don't have that charm and I stutter. My life is meaningless. I just lope from one place to
another. I think that's my strength. Most people need a career and family. .. Family is a nice idea, but
I've never had a nice family. Is this becoming annoying? ...
Let's start with Vertago! He's cool and a stud. He also is popping up a lot in my movie watching. The mind
can make association: like is the guy on the radio talking to me? Or why am I seeing so many eye balls in
my movie watching? Jeeeze! I just saw CASE 39. A really scary movie with an eye ball scene that's very icky.
This guy has a hornet come up out of his eye's lid.. tear duck. Any who, it's scary. Well, when I was
Veratgo on Private Games.com my picture was of my left eye.
It was trippy. Just a note to the CASE 39 writers: Lilith is not evil. I'm talking about Adam's first wife, expelled
from Eden, because she "Would not be his beast of burden." Lilith is the first feminist in Bible Lore,
she is immortal. So you can't drown her. Nope, only God can stop her.
Okay, this Vertago guy is still effecting me. Strangers will look at me and cover their right eye, cars will shut
one headlight off. That's dangerous! I had an elderly woman pinch my butt an call me "Vertago." in the mall.
There was a Vertago concert. There is a Vertago song by U2. I started writing about Vertago in the 90's on an
Australian web site Private Games.com. That's when I was working at Wal-Mart. Wal-Mart was awful.
I had an over night manager slap me in the face.
I just wish people would stop dropping pennies around me. I mentioned that Abraham Lincoln is looking to
the right, while all the other presidents are facing to the left, because he was assassinated. Now, I get penny's
dropped around me. I wish I had mentioned the dollar bill and the star of David over the eagel's head.
It has twelve stars in it for the twelve Apostles. Feel free to throw dollars at me.
Reflections: I wasn't completely honest about what I said about the penny. I was quoting the old Civil war
lore Lincoln was facing right because he freed the slaves and turned his back on the brotherhood. That's
what I wrote on Private Games.com. I'm not in favor of slavery.
My mom believed in Camelot and the marriage of King Author to Jesus'
daughter Sarah. She believed that the messiah would be a descendant
from King Author's line.. I got a copy of People Magazine with Kate and William's
baby girl Princess Charlotte. Is this the divine line? Oy.
The queen is the head of the Church of England, like a Pope...
The older I get; the crazier life seems. I suppose if there is a God, he or she
would want to communicate with us. Maybe, God is nuts?
That would explain the hate, love relationship. God drowned every living thing
that walked or flew, except for an inbred family and their live stalk, like the
Duck Dynasty they floated away. Then came Abraham and Moses and Jesus
and Mohamed .. Oy. Did Jesus really save the world from sin? How?
I thought suicide was a mortal sin. Aren't we responsible for own sins?
Abraham started sharia law with circumcisions ..
Moses made it legal. All those stone throwing laws and genocidal tribal wars
came from old testament law. Yup, Mohamed copied the Jews.
"There shall be no graven image of the Lord" Leviticus decrees and today
cartoonist are marked for death. Praise the Lord?
I wonder if anyone can reason with a cartoon jihadist?
I have a dream that Christians and Jews and gentiles can civilize Islam.
But, history has demonstrated that true believers kill first and then make peace
with God. Atheist just want to get along..
Richard Dawkins likes to argue that the universe does not need an intelligent designer.
Well, then is the universe God? The first requirement of Divinity is not having a creator.
He can accept infinite dimension , but deny an infinite God.
That sounds like a natural prejudice. I'm confused... I better take a nap.
My big brother thinks I'm lying about the
weirdness of my family upbringing. Well, he wasn't
there and there is no advantage for me to lie
about my older sisters. One is dead. The other
could careless; "You'll die alone and no one
When a I see the politics of government , it is
clear to me that no one cares about truth.
They just want to win. But, win what?
Do you honestly, believe anyone can solve the
problems of this country? What will happen when
the bubble bursts and the welfare checks stop?
The cities will burn.
Just my two cents.
We've all lost our tempers. One time I was eating an ice cream cone
and a dope bumped into me and spilled my ice cream on my t-shirt.
He didn't even apologize. I was quietly peeved.
Another incident involved my mother, she would police my room for
drugs and porn. Oh, I was a high school nerd. So, I didn't have any drugs
but lots of Playboy and Hustler magazines .. She burned them.
I shouted at her, "That's what Hitler would do!"
Fast forward, to riots in the 70's anti-war protests. I just did not care.
Nor did I care about the race riots in New York.
I had my train set and porn. I especially enjoyed Rachael's visits ..
and Virginia would strip in the center of my train set. I'd lay the tracks
on the floor. Rachael was a Jew and Virginia was a color girl.
They both loved to strip and had bouncy boobs. My mom never caught on.
Maybe, she approved of live porn?
I like variety. If you ponder racism, you'll see how silly it is to believe in
racial purity. How could any one believe they're ancestors never
came from Africa? Or, never had sex with color people?
Paul Donavan is a big Irish American friend. He'd talk down on color
people. So, I asked him, "Do you have any Italian relatives ?"
He did. But, he didn't believe Italians were colored.
Paul's a Boston cop. He has a catch fraise , "If it's white it stands.
If it's brown it's down." Yup, he's a racist.
I think critical thinking should be taught in school. There are a lot of
stupid people. Just watch Fox News and you'll see color people demonized.
Most slave owners had sexual relations with their African slaves.
Thomas Jefferson did and he wrote, "All men are created equal."
| I'm sure this is racist, but I never trusted Asians.
They just look so alien. I'm very visual .. But, I did help out a chubby
Chinese boy in high school. It was a typical fatty persecution.
Nobody likes bullies.
So, I told Chris to just laugh it off. That worked most of the time.
He got jumped going home alone through the pedestrian tunnel under
the Bud-liner tracks. He was really messed up.
I knew the guy, who did it. So, I went to his house to talk to him.
Bill had a Jack Russle and that tiny dog ran circles around me.
"I just don't like him." Bill said. His last name was Rupert..
I didn't like his dog barking at me.
So, I shot his dog. It sounds stupid, but I could have shot Bill.
My family had many guns. My sister used a rifle my brother had
purchased from a Sears catalogue to suicide. +
I learned about guns and death at an early age.
Of course, Spud was an innocent bystander, but he was off his leash
and running around me. I had a permit.
It was legal...
Nobody, bothered Chris after my dog execution.
I met Leonard Nimoy at a Star Trek convention.
It was very loud and he laughed a lot. I think he was saying something
about how Star Trek has encouraged people to pursue careers in
science. I was just in awe of him.
In MINDMELD , he talks about how he thought Star Trek was
an educational entertainment show. He also said that he was always
expecting to be fired. He was looking for other acting jobs, while working
on Star Trek and he thought the show would be cancelled ..
I was born in 1962. Star Trek started up in 67.
So, I discovered it in reruns. I honestly did not take it that seriously.
I was more excited by Linda Carter in her Wonder Woman tights.
I was in high school and enjoyed science fiction, but I didn't like to be
preached to. I got the Gospels from Dad and it got annoying.
Here's the message I gleamed from Star Trek, humanity will survive
and explore the universe. Each episode started off optimistic and
usually ended with some aliens getting shot. I wonder if Spock ever
got married? There is a new Spock, who has something going on with
Uhura. Why not?
Bernadette was a nice girl, who had her father's barrel
chest. It was the summer of 1972 and I and my buddies
were walking around the neighborhood .. Bernadette
came out of her house dressed in black jeans and a
black short sleeve shirt. Michael and Andy and I lined
up to meet her. She sat down on the curb and had a blank
expression. I asked what was the matter. Her sister
Marcella was away and she was alone in the house.
I had a wicked thought about having my way with her
in her empty house.
"Can I come over?" I asked.
"Sure." Bernadette answered blankly.
I excused myself from Michael and Andy and followed
her into the side door that led to the kitchen.
Bernadette asked if I would remove my shoes. I did.
She sat at a stainless steal kitchen table set, sipping her soda
through a straw.. She asked if I would take off my shirt as
she put her shirt over the back of her chair and pulled off
her t-shirt.. I have a hollow chest and was reluctant, but
I complied. Bernadette made a face of disgust.
That ended my striptease.
I returned to Michael and Andy and played some baseball
in Raymond Park.
Oh, I'm still kicking myself.
| So, you can't make fun of insane dictators anymore.
I'm going out on a limb here, but this was an inside job.
Some pissed off Sony employee gave the keys to the Evil Doers.
There are no secrets anymore and who would have thought
Sony producers were racist pigs?
I was heart broken to read the lies they tweeted about Angelina Jolie.
She is a Saint! God damn it! If we can't believe in our celebrities,
then it's all going down the toilet!
Meanwhile, Iraq is heating up. Did you know there are twelve U.S,
bases in and around Iraq? The media doesn't seem to know.
ISIS is getting shoulder missals from Russia.
Why don't these terrorist go away? I think someone is making
a lot of money selling guns to both sides...
Don't call me a terrorist! Any moron can be one.
But, a nut job in Florida ran over a group of X-Mass carolers ..
Walmart has a website to post suspicious behavior at their happy stores.
I wonder why Walmart has so many employees going postal?
Is there a pattern here?
Does my cat want to be a U.S. citizen?
Constitution Day or Citizens Day was
ratified on September 17, 1952.
However, my cat can't read or take the
exam to become a U.S. citizen.
A pet is naturalized by gaining recognition
through the C.D.C. and U.S.D.A.
They must be cleared of zoonotic diseases
that effect other cats and rabies that can
There is a movement amongst pet owners in
California to give their pets U.S. citizenship.
The precedent would place animal rights on the
same standard as human rights.
Pets are property, according to existing law.
If this legal action is ratified, then meat
processing of animal meat would be illegal.
I would have to find another job...
Human rights prohibit the eating of humans.
Although, animals have been known to eat humans.
Animals eat animals. Under this new law that
would be murder.+
Enjoy your Christ-Mass turkey or ham.
It may become illegal contraband.
Certain events stick in my head. I replay a lot of stuff and then scuffle it.
Ben laden getting shot and a friend telling me she has a girl friend , who
lived down the street from where it happened. Really?
I just visualize her girlfriend texting her, "Lot's of shooting next door. LMO!"
My sister hates me, but if she was assassinated by naval seals I'd be pissed.
My sister said to me , "Your a lazy bum. I want nothing to do with you."
And I said, "Did you hear about my girl friend's girl friend?
She lived next door to where Bin Laden got assassinated."
My sister thinks I'm pathetic, "You will die alone and no one will care."
We exchange Christ-Mass cards.
I've thought long and hard about shooting Bin Laden in the eye..
How did they know it was him? He had doubles and the body was dropped
in the ocean. Bounty hunters keep the body as proof.
What if was just some guy who looked like Bin Laden? That's bad karma.
If it was him , why not capture him for interrogation? He'd have a lot of secrets.
They could of scanned his fingerprints .. I saw that on CSI.
There are pocket size fingerprint scanners.. .. Is that show canceled?
The cast was probably asking for too much money.
It's just suspicious the way they disposed of the body without verification.
But, they did invade a country and assassinate a suspect in the 9/11 attack
with no indictment or trial.... No body, no crime.
Strange days indeed.
How much oil is there?
How much drinkable water is there?
My first memory of oil was baby oil.
If I had a rash, mom would use baby oil on it.
That was a very pleasant moment.
The bottle is plastic. Plastic is an oil product
and the oil inside is a petroleum product too.
We bathe in oil and drink from plastic bottles..
When I was a tiny tike my mom left me alone in the house.
I was very upset. I got a hammer and broke every mirror.
Then I slicked up the iron bathtub and
rolled about in the slippery tub.
It was orgasmic. I added shampoo too.
Until, I was a bubbly froth. Mom returned with a shriek .
She tried to grab me, but I was too slippery.
I ran about screaming. But, my mom relentless and
eventually threw a towel over me ..
She kept me wrapped in the towel as she spanked me
over her knee. It was orgasmic.
Mom did not approve of my orgasm and scolded me
which only increased the orgasm. She ordered me to shower.
That was not easy to do in a well oiled iron tub.
I smelled like lilacs and baby oil.