Thoughts on life and society can be pointless, but that's what books are for. I've never enjoyed reading. |
It's always been difficult for me to read. Sometimes, I imagine little demons pulling at my eye lids.
The Devil is in the details. I like people, who can act. They're fun to watch. I guess I wish I could be an
actor, but I just don't have that charm and I stutter. My life is meaningless. I just lope from one place to
another. I think that's my strength. Most people need a career and family. .. Family is a nice idea, but
I've never had a nice family. Is this becoming annoying? ...
Let's start with Vertago! He's cool and a stud. He also is popping up a lot in my movie watching. The mind
can make association: like is the guy on the radio talking to me? Or why am I seeing so many eye balls in
my movie watching? Jeeeze! I just saw CASE 39. A really scary movie with an eye ball scene that's very icky.
This guy has a hornet come up out of his eye's lid.. tear duck. Any who, it's scary. Well, when I was
Veratgo on Private Games.com my picture was of my left eye.
It was trippy. Just a note to the CASE 39 writers: Lilith is not evil. I'm talking about Adam's first wife, expelled
from Eden, because she "Would not be his beast of burden." Lilith is the first feminist in Bible Lore,
she is immortal. So you can't drown her. Nope, only God can stop her.
Okay, this Vertago guy is still effecting me. Strangers will look at me and cover their right eye, cars will shut
one headlight off. That's dangerous! I had an elderly woman pinch my butt an call me "Vertago." in the mall.
There was a Vertago concert. There is a Vertago song by U2. I started writing about Vertago in the 90's on an
Australian web site Private Games.com. That's when I was working at Wal-Mart. Wal-Mart was awful.
I had an over night manager slap me in the face.
I just wish people would stop dropping pennies around me. I mentioned that Abraham Lincoln is looking to
the right, while all the other presidents are facing to the left, because he was assassinated. Now, I get penny's
dropped around me. I wish I had mentioned the dollar bill and the star of David over the eagel's head.
It has twelve stars in it for the twelve Apostles. Feel free to throw dollars at me.
Reflections: I wasn't completely honest about what I said about the penny. I was quoting the old Civil war
lore Lincoln was facing right because he freed the slaves and turned his back on the brotherhood. That's
what I wrote on Private Games.com. I'm not in favor of slavery.
September 17, 2014 at 9:19am
The Greatest Speach Ever Made
| Youtube ~ The Greatest Speech Ever Made
Charlie Chaplin plays the little dictator
As I have explained in many ways, war is genocide.
It is impossible to bomb a city and not kill
civilians. But, evil must be stopped.
Unfortunately, I have a limited cable selection
and am forced to watch Fox News. Their hatred
for the President is seething in every report on
the gang warfare in the middle east.
How do these bandits communicate and coordinate
their blitz creed? There are no cell towers in
the desert. Do they have access to satellite
communication? Cannot the CIA or Inter Pol
stop that or trace and locate their source?
The United States will become the policemen of
the world for the Saudis ? A perpetual state of
war created George Orwald's 1984. It is not
treason to say that nation building in the Middle
East will lead the United States into a military
One EM bomb would paralyze Syria.
One neutron bomb would kill every Syrian.
But, the oil refinery would still be functional.
All that is needed is the initiative to do it.
How does a government promote war?
The threat of attack is perpetuated.
Genocide is the final solution.+
Remember the rush to invade Iraq.
The high-jackers of 9/11 were Saudis.
Billions of weapons manufacturing dollars
were spent by American tax payers and billions
more rebuilding what was destroyed.
What difference did it make?
But, evil must be stopped.
September 9, 2014 at 6:04pm
| Honest to God, my life is boring. I live like a hermit.
Cathy, my sister, has never told me her feelings about our childhood.
She refuses to have children, but has been a school teacher...
Cathy is 5 years older than me. .. The first thing that struck me about
my sister in my childhood was her missing a penis. It was startling.
I thought she was a monster... Cathy and I were bathing together.
It was disturbing to me. I was 6 years old.
Fast forward to 8th grade. My best friends sister Rachael sits
on the stairs in front of me. I was racing Michael, my best friend,
up the stairs. Rachael spreads her legs.. She is wearing a short skirt
without panties... I stop and gawk. Michael shoves me.. We continue
our race.. Later, in that month Rachael asks me if I would like to take a
shower with her. .. I nervously, agree.. We suds each other and Rachael
masturbates me. She likes the hollow in my chest.. I don't.
Rachael is a year older than me.
Michael was angry about the shower I took with his sister..
He told his dad. Gunther told me never to come to their house again.
Cathy had many boyfriends and continued to flashed me... She liked to
walk about naked in front of me and walk in on me when I was on the toilet
or showering... I was sneaking Rachael into my room.
Rachael confessed to me that her father molested her, while on heroin.
Gunther is a professor at Harvard University.. Her mother warned Rachael
they will loose everything if she tells anyone..
This was my puberty. After Rachael's confession, I was allowed to visit Rachael
at her home.. Nothing was said about the molesting and I rarely saw Gunther.
Cathy liked to smoke cigarettes and pot and set her bed on fire. I pushed the
smoldering bed out her window.. Dad calls her "My problem child."
My oldest sister Maura committed suicide a year later. She had returned home
from a divorce... After mom had a double mastectomy , dad would go into my
sister's room at night when he was drunk. But, dad never shouted at or struck any of us.
Cathy's behavior was suspiciously similar to Rachael.
August 31, 2014 at 7:18pm
I first saw Robin Williams on the Johnny Carson Show.
I was watching with my parents. We all thought he was nuts.
And we couldn't stop laughing.
I wasn't a big fan of Mork. It was running opposite to Wonder Woman.
Sorry, Linda Carter was more ... entertaining.
I think that's why I'm a fan of Sarah Palin. I can imagine her in a nylon
When I heard about Robin William's death. I immediately remembered
how difficult it was to reason with my older sister, who took her life.
I can imagine the mood swings Robin must have had.
I hope his family has forgiven him and their own helplessness.
I felt anger and then despair over my sister Maura.
That happened over 20 years ago and I still wonder if I could have
prevented it. .. I said some mean things to my big sister and
she said, "Now your turning against me."
But, she was tormented by bigger demons. She had divorced her husband
for abuse. He would tie her up and go to work.
She had an addiction to meds and a hyperthyroid ... I wish dad had put her
in a mental hospital. Instead, he asked me to baby sit her.
I was 15 and she was 35.
I've watched a lot of Robin Williams on Youtube .. God he was quick.
Genius is always on the edge;
"From whom travelers born no man has returned."
What dreams may come?
Market Basket Whore
| It's a simple way to get some ... but, beyond my budget now.
So, any who, I'm at the Portsmouth Market Basket and the store
manager is setting up a display with a sign that says~
"Don't shop Here"
I asked him if he wanted to close the store.
He said , "You haven't been reading the paper."
This store manager had been with Market Basket for more than 20 years.
I went to the pet food and then to the bread.
There were signs not to shop ... The bread lady rep told me to go to Shaws.
Well, I cashed out my purchase and ..met a fellow who liked escorts too.
I had seen this gentleman at the Danish Health Spa and the Blue Motel in
Kittery.. where the escorts worked. This friend says ~
"They should fire all of them. No call, no show."
As I leave the Market Basket parking lot, there is a large group of Market Basket
employees in uniforms waving and holding signs , "Don't shop here. Honk your horn."
So, I honk my horn and wave back with my Market Basket shopping bag.
They didn't like that and shouted at me ~
Well, aren't we all? I'm certain if the CEO Albert could buy Market Basket he would,
but he can't. .. It"s just business. That's what I love about escorts ; they just want
the money. .. That old store manager must have a lot of cash to risk his pension.
Am I cynical? You don't bite the hand that feeds you, unless you've got money.
Female Celebrity ... Porn?
| Rosie O'Donnell is returning to the View.
Why? Has she lost her sex appeal?
The Rosie O'Donnell show was fun, but got low ratings.
I like Rosie, She reminds me of Kim Cabral in Peabody Grammar.
Kim was a big girl, who liked to sit on my chest and punch me,
then she kissed me.
I feared her and was aroused.
Rosie has a similar effect on me, I especially enjoyed her cat fights with
Elizabeth Hasselbeck .. Just purr-fect.
Angelina Jolie has a funky feel too. I think I could get into her business.
But, my acting is lousy. .. .. I love a girl in leather.
Lady Ga Ga is a twin of A-Go-Go. I met A-Go-Go at the Fresh Pond Towers.
She gave blow jobs in the parking lot for $5. I rode down to her on my 3 speed bike
when I got some cash. I was 13 and . .. I loved hanging out with A-Go-Go.
My mom did not like it. She had me tested for STDs .
I was clean, I used condoms.
Oh, what a lecture my dad gave me on the slippery slope of fornication.
I got grounded. But, nature will find a way and I did with Bernadet.
Bernadet looked a lot like Rosie O'Donnell too.
And she lived 2 houses down from me. I didn't need my bike or $5.
Bernadet liked to give it away and take showers with me in her basement.
She was about 16 or 15 and I was a happy 14 . Is this natural or deviant?
I always gravitate toward an older woman or a woman who takes charge.
I am not very aggressive.
"Hello? Is Angelina Jolie available? I have $5."
"Oh? Hi. Carol Burnett. Angelina is busy. Okay. But, you'll be over?"
"No. Brad. I don't think I can handle a 3 way."
"Jeeze. What a stoner."
I like that copper woman on the Fox at Five or is it just FIVE?
She looks juicy and swauve... (spell check)
I like her in that red dress on a mechanical bull with a dildo up the saddle;
Red Riding Hood Republican.
I need some OJ and some lotion.
Walmart VIP David Toval : BS
|Dear David Toval ; Walmart VIP.
Are you for real? You wrote to Time Magazine that the average wage
for fulltime employees is $12.91. Really? I worked at the Newington Walmart,
NH and most employees did not get fulltime or $12.91. The management didn't
want to give out fulltime benefits. I worked there six years and left at $9.60.
I was cashiering and selling permits in sporting goods. I think your blowing
smoke in the face of your employees.
Oh? And you think Walmart supports American manufacturers?
Walmart's number one manufacturer is China. Why? China has slave labor.
Please don't think for a minute your fooling anyone. I know you measure people
by their income. That's why Walmart keeps 90% of its profits for upper management.
A billion dollar company wants to cut off its employees from insurance benefits
so you can get a big bonus. Your just another robber baron.
Your not fooling anyone.
Kill them all. God will sort them out.
Arnald Amalric, a French Cestercian Monk answered, when questioned by the
commander of the crusades in Southern France how to tell who was a heretic.
"Kill them all. God will recognize his own."
Pope Innocent III had sent the crusaders to kill the heretic sect of Cathar..
The Cathars were Christian , but they did not accept the authority of the Pope.
The commander of the crusade could not tell apart Catholic Frenchmen from a
Cathar Frenchman .. The Pope's emmessary ordered the massacre of all the
people of Loraine in 1209ad .+
Luke 19:27, "Bring my enemies out before me and slay them."
Jesus in Revelation 2:23 said, "I will strike her children dead."
If we take the entire Bible in context Jesus agrees with the ordering of slayings
by God in the Old Testament. If you add the concept of the Trinity, then
you connect Jesus directly with all the slayings of men, women and children
by God-Jesus in the Old Testament.
Joan of Arch would be born in Loraine and lead France successfully against
the Anglo-Saxon invasion. My grandmother was born in Loraine and immigrated
to the United State to escape the NAZI invasion. My mother told me the German
people love war. I think the Jews and Christians love war too.
They believe God commands them to kill the heretics.
Well, no matter how you slice it , I'm a heretic.
I just can't believe if someone wants me dead they are good.
And doesn't God want us dead? That was the punishment for eating that apple.
There is some ying and yang going on with the supreme being.
Do I offend? Go to a high place and jump.
God will not catch you.
I like to service my old truck there.
I had a starter replaced and then replaced again.
I had an ac pump installed there and then replaced
and eventually bypassed. .. Recently, I had 3
batteries replaced and a fan belt twice all at
Pep Boys. Now, the water pump has started leaking
and that was installed at Pep Boys too, but its
under warranty like all the other defective parts
I had installed at Pep Boys.
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Portsmouth, NH 03801
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Events like these remind of other mishaps;
like getting a promotion with no raise.
Or my sister calling me a lazy bum, when I was
taking care of mom. Then again, getting fired for
having a hernia is little more shitty.
Of course, Tony did hit the top ten list when
he said I was selfish, because I wanted an equal
third of dad's estate. I got much less, but I
I guess I hold a grudge. Here I am rehashing old
farts and my truck is being repaired for free.
It's all under warranty .. Oh, the dick who tried
to get me fired from my current job is working
at Pep Boys now. He is so screwed. :)
I had a dream my sister got cancer and willed the
money she took from me back to me. I got a chubby.
That's not Christian. I just want to be fair.
I feel like some coco and then I'll talk to my
lawyer about Pep Boys. I like that.
What is it all coming to?
| Ah, the reflection in the ripples of time. I guess I'm sensitive.
My mother told me I was. She was spooky in her prediction.
She never missed ... One thing is constant , moms are spooky.
I loved my mother and not so much anybody else.. Dad was
considerate, but distant. So, what? How many people have had
the same regrets about family?
I look at my life as a journey , so far nothing much has popped up.
Where will it all lead? Look, I know this is rambling dribble , but have
you thought about Devine Providence? I have a lot of time to think about
this.. What if everything we do has profound implications?
Why do these crazies go ballistic and massacre bystanders?
Maybe, I was rude to one of them and that set them off?
There is a line of impertinence in my writing. I've often wondered
if I'm encouraging antisocial behavior. There are so many other larger
malevolent influences , like violent video games or violent movies...
It seems egotistical to believe that I have any sway in the flood of
hedonism and sardonic nihilism.. I'll bet much of the serial killings are
related to obsessive narcissism and masturbation. Have you ever thought
about how many times a day you are enticed?
People are encouraged to be impulsive and the media plays on their vanity
and avarice.. I just do not believe any good will come from this.
This Putin guy is nuts and he might drag us into WWIII. The kid, who goes
on a killing spree is nuts too, but on a smaller scale. They both are looking
for power in violence. It never works for me.
Oh well, I have no control over the whimsy of the masses.
Fox News and politics
|I guess I'm one of those fuddy duddies who watches
Fox News. I'm 51. I like news and debates especially
when they get nasty. The Fox anchor women are cute
and there's always a leg shot. Yummy!
Hmm, Benganzi reminds me of every other embassy attacked in the middle east under every administration. A congressional committee couldn't impeach Nixon. He resigned.
Who could be satisfied with the congressional investigation
into the Twin Trade Tower terrorist attack?
Congressional investigations are politically motivated. They can't handle the truth,+
George W. tried to stop any investigation into 9/11.
George H. stopped General Schwarzkopf from invading
Iraq , George W. thought 9/11 justified an
invasion of Iraq.. If the Bush family wanted to take the oil fields of Iraq, then George H. had the most legitimate reason to do it. Saddam invaded Kuwait. . That is an act of war.
It does feel like a conspiracy, but it's stupid.
Any who, I landed in Televi on 9/11. I'm a skeptic about religion, but I wanted to
walk in the land of the prophets. My flight originated
out of Logan airport at the same time the high-jackers
boarded their flights. Israel was wonderful and I only ran across
one military battle at the siege of Marry Magdalin's
Town. We couldn't enter the town, but it was exciting
to see Israeli tanks rushing up the highway.
Ramone my guide said, "What do you expect when you fuck us
over?" I replied, "The United States is the only
country to use the atomic bomb." Ramon and his Palestinian driver didn't like my answer.
900 and 99 to go... If I'm reading the Bible code
correctly. Armageddon should happen in 999 days.
God why ? The works of God are just, but this is
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