G'day Peeps!

Finding it hard to write of late... between work and home life I'm exhausted - think it might have something to do with the heat - not only has it been boiling hot but work doesn't have air-con at the moment, half of it isn't working properly and apparently it's not fixable. So the fight between the company and Centre Management continues; they've been fighting over who is responsible for the air-con for as long as I've been working there at minimum.

Weather today was nice - overcast and showers, meaning it's been quite cool all day including during work today, also was not as busy as it has been the past few days - fingers crossed tomorrow is just as pleasant. I don't really function in the heat especially when both home and work are crazy... if it's just one I can manage alright. Insane pressure from both home (generally meaning my dad) and work kind of pushes all my personal goals and dreams away in a dark corner - I'm generally so exhausted ALL the time that I can't even exercise - when I do try to push myself and add 30mins of exercise my health takes a nosedive.


So, I went to the dentist on Wednesday, he took one look at it and said it had to go. The hole was larger than the chip that came out, so has definitely been a problem for some time... well, the dentist did give the option to pay $1300 to kill the nerve and fill the hole, needless to say I picked the $200 instant fix option As the tooth in question was the end tooth on the upper right jaw, he recommended removal anyway, if it was a front tooth it would have been a different story.

Told him they took x-rays of my teeth because my teeth are apparently "crooked" only to be told my teeth are perfectly straight, they are just smaller than normal - I even have a baby tooth (not noticeable because my adult teeth are so small). He had a look at all my teeth, as when one tooth is that bad there are others but he couldn't see anything noticeable - need to go back in the new year and get new x-rays to check for any more holes. He also believes the baby tooth is still there - on the bottom left of my jaw.

After numbing down the area and giving the tooth a couple of taps he asked the assistant for the forceps to attract the tooth, took one look at the ones she was handing over and said 'they were way too big' and asked for a different size, got them to my mouth and immediately asked for a smaller size again After telling dad that he informed me that my great-grandma's teeth were also smaller like mine (so I inherited my eyes, youthful looks/attitude and teeth from her).

Anyway, after telling me before starting that when a tooth had a large hole like mine, it would make for easy extracting... tooth didn't budge when he finally got the right sized forceps and had to go back and tap the tooth several times before he extracted the tooth - stating several times that it was giving up a decent fight. Definitely felt myself squirming every time he tapped my tooth and attempted to extract it. With each tap on the tooth a different set of nerves down my spine would just jump... do you know how hard it is to sit still when your body involuntarily jumps? Managed to stay reasonably still, moved my feet a bit though.

My back felt weird as I sat back up and walked out, could feel my arms shaking but couldn't stop them as I was paying the bill. I walked down to the other end of the shopping 'complex' to where my Aunt was waiting for me and about halfway down and it was like a ball of energy exploded around the area of my spine (in line with shoulder blades). And the pain my back/neck/shoulder had been in (always the right side) disappeared!! The areas also freed up and I could actually stand tall and move freely about. Well, at the time felt like it disappeared; some pain is still here, mostly muscle soreness from being locked up for so long and I'm getting another alignment soon to make sure my back/neck/shoulder are in.

Friday my jaw started aching like there was no tomorrow... felt very painful nowhere near what I have been in but as it was in a different place to what I'm used to so it hasn't been a great few days... even resorted to buying teething gel to numb the area when it was feeling bad and I was popping painkillers like candy. Today was the first day that my jaw hasn't hurt haven't needed the teething gel or painkillers. It's starting to ache now, so I might numb it before I go to bed.


I've been trying to start up an exercise schedule since coming home from my holidays but haven't done anything because of the zero energy thing... Thursday, being the first time I wasn't in pain for quite some time I decided to give my body a couple of days 'rest' before I start the exercise schedule I devised - will be starting off slowly with light cardio before anything too strenuous. As it seems most the pain I was in was due to tooth problems I'm thinking I may be able to exercise and increase my health for a change despite home and work being crazy at the moment. I have felt exhausted the past week but I think that has been heat exhaustion more than anything else and the body finally loosening up after being locked up in pain for so long.

Thinking I may wing it this week in regards to exercise - want to try for at least 2-3 sessions... just want to get started with so many of my projects and to-do lists I barely know where to start. Did hope to have started part of my OGD project and have it updated and online by today ("pitstop"  originally 30/11 but then tooth problems day after I set the goal)... have done very little to the project and as I'm working tomorrow (Tues is normally my uninterrupted writing day) I don't know how much I'm going to get done this week - honestly I don't know how long it's going to take, there's too much to do in my only day off this week (Wed) so I may not get it all done until next Tues/Wed...

         
Don't dream it. Be it!
 

G'day Peeps!

In a kind of Good News / Bad News situation... On Thursday night my neck and shoulder realigned (yay!), however Friday morning I woke up to find a chip of my tooth in my mouth! Not a drop of blood anywhere - weird, right?

I think it may have exposed a nerve or something cause it's hurting lots! Panadol/Advil isn't doing anything to help, so I'm going to see the chemist if they have something stronger - as I have to wait until Wednesday morning before I can see a dentist because I can't see the hospital (free) dentist cause I don't have a low income healthcare card (even though I am a low income earner(!) Centerlink won't give me one).

Not sure what's going to happen with it on Wednesday... will only have $300, at minimum it'll cost $50 for a consult as I can't get an estimate until they see the damage - with some luck I'll get it fixed Wednesday, send some posi thoughts my way

I'm also starting to think the problem may have been there longer than the last couple days... Earlier this year I had a tooth fall out, very minimal blood - I was at the day job at the time, so I quickly excused myself to the bathroom spat out the blood rinsed my mouth out and couldn't really tell where it came from. Didn't do anything then as no pain (except for my back neck & shoulder being out) and I knew I had a baby tooth still in there from when I got xrays in high school - my teeth are apparently perfectly straight but you can't tell because my teeth are smaller than usual and so the resulting gaps make them look crooked.

Anyway, as I said above, my neck and shoulder realigned and I could tell instantly the pain level drop... since the tooth chip came out there are a couple points on my neck, shoulder and back (very similar area to where the pain was when it was out) that are now pulsating with pain along with the pain in my jaw (which to me feels very swollen, but can't really tell looking at it)

I grind my teeth a lot ... don't know how long I've been doing it, just something I noticed this year - so the tooth in question may have been cracked for some time... and the pain from it mistaken for my back issues. Yet another thing I put on my to-look-into list when I finish paying my credit card ... which I had been planning for next year, not sure when - though am now thinking of moving it up on the list...

Anyway, here's a link to the pic I took on my camera or the chip: http://twitter.com/#!/RavynsGuide/status/140976809599696897


         
Don't dream it. Be it!
 

G'day Peeps!

No time to do anything right now... getting ready for the day job only this shift and one tomorrow afternoon - then I'm free to write!

         
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G'day Peeps!

Just had the Shiny-est idea for how I can salvage the burning heap that was my "Live Research" for my major project!!

All will be revealed by Wednesday (30/11) I'm hoping for Sunday (as is an important project date ) but anyone who knows me (or reads my blog) will know my life is pretty chaotic and anything can, and does happen - so I've given myself a buffer; see, I learn

Got to go to bed - is going on midnight and I need to be up at 6:30!

PS I also just purchased my Christmas gift to myself - so I at least get one gift that I'd truly love this year (going to secretly wrap it up for myself this year so everyone can see 'What I'm interested in'.... I'm making a stand - sick of them telling me what I'm 'in to' and it mysteriously being exactly what they like...

I'm taking my voice back!

         
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G'day Peeps!

man it is so hot here of late... a super cold winter and then straight into a super hot spring/summer - does not really help one think clearly or want to do anything... the last week has almost been unbearable.

No air con at the day job - well there is but (surprise, surprise) it is broken like it is every year at this time Today I think was kind of worse... or at least I felt it more. Leaves one completely drain by the end of the shift. I finished about two hours ago and I'm still recovering - usually feel back to normal by about bed time.

Still trying to find a balance between myself, what I want to do, and the insanity of those 'loved ones' around me. At the moment one day will be normal, the next will be totally unbearable... sometimes it all happens within minutes/hours, so it's kind of up and down at the moment.

Won't happen overnight but it will happen...

Did plan to write more but I'm completely drained. I'm almost falling asleep in front of the laptop and I have more things I want to do tonight

         
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G'day Peeps!

I cannot do ANYTHING without being interrupted!

Tell me please - how does one make a big amount of money is a small amount of time?

         
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G'day Peeps!

Why is it that every time I go to move forwards with my goals and dreams, the people around me go crazy and do everything they can to make it as difficult as possible? Finding time to write productively has been virtually impossible since I've come back from my holidays. I have had some free time but I've been so exhausted I haven't had much energy for anything. Have been refining ideas for my O.G.D project which, by the way has officially started, it's just severely under construction at the moment - am working on it and hope to have it completed and online within the next week or two. Also working on other projects; like "Guide to the WWE Uni[Under Construction]" , Postcards, Walkabout and "Chapter V" 

And yes, I know that I am horribly behind my deadline for my WWE blog... I've only been working on the idea of the blog since January 2010 well, to be honest a little earlier but hey

It's getting easier... I think just coming home after being on holidays and having to restrict myself to how they want me to act and behave was harder than I thought it would be. Still don't understand why I can't be myself around them - more determined now to start my "Get Out of Dodge" Fund so I can move away from this place and closer to more supportive Peeps (feel free to donate )

Been productive the last few days - not writing, but other things I've been needing to do like catching up with the mountain of chores they've been leaving me

The day job has been fairly busy, starting into the Christmas rush so the shifts aren't dragging on, I love when things are constant - not standing around bored out of my mind. And good news!! I've managed to score some more contracted work hours, so now I'm rostered five days a week. So over the past four months I've scored an extra $188 in the pocket. May not be much to some people but it means I can actually put money aside for savings (and a decent amount too!)

Now I'd like to find a way to earn more money so I can move in the first half of 2012... while still having a decent amount of writing & studying time - it's not too much to ask for, is it? Well, I don't think it is

Got a bit of writing to do today/this week... even going to try and do some of my 'catch up' blog entries, got a few things to update on (like my holiday, birthday) as well as some ideas I've been working on - I should really get a move on if I'm going to get anything done at all... want to sort my computer files, get everything organised and looking how I want!

         
Don't dream it. Be it!
 

G'day Peeps!

Yeah, real creative title but nothing was really coming to mind

Only time for a quick entry today - still trying to sort my thoughts of various issues, think I've figured out the basics... just need the time to sit down and write. Today is my late day at work... they put my shift start back to 2:30 and, naturally, finish later so I don't usually get home until about 8 on a Friday night. They even pay me at a higher rate for the last hour (as I'm the boss) What does that mean? I get $1 for the shift I will be sure not to spend it all in one place

I'm supposed to be doing "live research" for my O.G.D project... haven't done too much for it - fortunately the part I'm supposed to be doing is sort of like the Practice Run. Well, not exactly but best way I can describe it right now. I am hoping this "weekend" (Mon-Wed) to get caught up and actually do the 'live research' thing.

Dad is being extremely generous the past few days, hate it a bit because I know it is all empty. Can't even have the option to say no to it as then I'm just an 'ungrateful bitch' and it is less headache just to accept his hollow apologies - see No Voice when I'm here. Take a deep breath, smile and take the 'high way'

Managed to do some amazing Energy Healing on Wednesday... details for another blog/project I hope to start soon Not exactly sure how I did it, will be something to meditate on the next few days.

Not exactly sure what else to say right now, so I better sign off

Have a shiny one!
         
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G'day Peeps!

I know... it's been awhile. Things got crazy for bit... Who am I kidding? Things are always crazy!

From October 20 I planed to write in here every day, for my blogging goal [5] in "30 Things..."  ... I know not a good start - am still determined to do this challenge so have decided to modify it so that I can just write some extra blog entries to make up the days that I've missed... as long as there is a blog for each day it won't matter if I kind of missed the start, as long as I 365 blog entries by my birthday next year all shall be good. November 2 = day 13, so I have 12 extra entries to write... have a couple of ideas to help remedy the situation I promise they will be decent entries.

So this blog entry number is the 'first blog' maker (for those who come from "30 Things..."  at a later point in time)

Did try writing at several points since my last entry, but never posted - just deleted what I wrote. Did not have a full grasp of what I wanted to say... perspective is the word I'm looking for - I think. Still collecting my thoughts, but wanted to write something here

I was supposed to start my new fitness schedule on Monday - only done one workout (today), planned to do one 30min workout a day to see what I can achieve in one month... as I just lost 1.2kg (from Oct 2- Oct 30) with all the junk food I ate last month at the bff's and since I got home, with very little exercise - just walking to train station, around shops - nothing strenuous

         
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G'day Peeps!

only a quick update - still don't have net access (stealing the bff's connection while she's not here)

Have not started writing yet, just trying to relax a bit for a couple of days - will probably start writing tonight or tomorrow... really depends on what's happening.

Bff is currently under obs at the hospital... she kind of had a meltdown, so please send some posi-vibes her way. I think the new meds the doctors put her on is the problem. Only time will tell. Haven't seen her yet, I'm looking after the kids, while her partner & Mum went up with her.

Kind of feel useless at the moment with it all. Will let you all know how things go when I'm able.

Bff's Mum just arrived so I gots to bounce.

Stay safe peeps

Don't dream it. Be it!