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Jian~Ashen
    My main portfolio contains 8 items.
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My Line-Item Bio    (ASR)    # 606553:
        trivia about me (format borrowed from user:mstempest)
[Poetry Folders & Unfolders]    (E)    # 383380:
        4 folders couldn't hold all my poetry, so now they're all in here
[Stories for Your Review]    (E)    # 164334:
        Stories! not my strong suit, but I am working on it
[My Life Was Mostly Nonfiction]    (E)    # 188273:
        real life anecdotes & tattoos of memories
[Image Is Nothing But A File]    (E)    # 195265:
        all my images including real pictures, illustrations for stories, and drawings.
[Mature Items: R+]    (13+)    # 164952:
        poems and stories, all rated R or higher
[Before & Afterthoughts]    (ASR)    # 259489:
        thought-provoked views on various topics
[Miscellaneous Mumbo]    (E)    # 334917:
        non-static items plus compilation pieces
#164043:   Poems: Passingly Peculiar    (E)     [Top]
poetry: miscellaneous works each with a dash of mystery or wonder    (19 items)

Turbulence    (ASR)    # 403745:
        A rough night on an airplane named Mattress
Arizona Jean    (E)    # 163941:
        wistfully thinking of a lass from arizona
Bruises from Dancing    (ASR)    # 505004:
        despite our hopeful encounter, I must in caution decline
Last Escape    (ASR)    # 198216:
        in salute to "The Gift" (last WB episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer)
Rollerskatress    (ASR)    # 163968:
        a zen moment at an ice-skating rink
Weekend at Baltimore    (E)    # 507490:
        a lot of us were insecure about meeting other authors in RL for the first time!
On The Prowl    (ASR)    # 463706:
        I was on the trail of a cat...
Indigestion    (E)    # 483148:
        my tummy isn't so settled these days...I wonder why
Golden Years    (ASR)    # 176861:
        in the future, your retirement has been prepared for you - congratulations?
5 Minutes Not Soaring    (E)    # 453858:
        I need a little more than the scraps of your attention span
Well Wisher    (13+)    # 392645:
        a chance dream reminds me of a long-lost friend
Star Gazing    (ASR)    # 192124:
        10 years ago this same star looked back at me
Tactile Prowess    (ASR)    # 791434:
        jarred out of reality and into a memory
Anger's Visibility    (E)    # 605066:
        unfortunately we're not always on the same wavelength
Painting Ritual    (13+)    # 681691:
        putting on our make-up for the relationship marketplace
Archaeologist    (E)    # 1744823:
        often the fun is on the getting-to-know someone journey, and not at the end of that road
On Losing Gold    (ASR)    # 1156437:
        fantasy sonnet about the hazards of low-intelligence spell-casters
An Astronaut's Vacation    (ASR)    # 1156394:
        pseudo-sonnet about what astronauts' dreams are made of
Unseen Spills    (E)    # 896584:
        a dream of sleeping beauty in the woods
#164334:   Stories for Your Review    (E)     [Top]
Stories! not my strong suit, but I am working on it    (13 items)

Xeyra's Nightfall    (13+)    # 167931:
        66 hours of total eclipse. what goes bump in the night?
Tumbledown    (ASR)    # 793172:
        I took a bad fall once. Where this is going, you can't see.
Stony Gaze    (ASR)    # 207251:
        barking dogs, dirty dishes, cool cats, & a little sympathy
The Fall of Revenants    (E)    # 226760:
        professional space dogfighters must deal with a hotshot outsider
Snow Angel    (13+)    # 572384:
        a flash fiction (under 500 words) in the snow
The Doctor's Office    (ASR)    # 585268:
        he needed a cure for his swollen writer's block
Cadets' Gambit    (E)    # 165561:
        not everyone despairs when threatened with certain doom
Hogwarts "What If..?" Tales    (13+)    # 760541:
        Harry Potter short stories inspired by "What If...?" prompts
Harbored Thoughts    (ASR)    # 188382:
        a brainy kid tries to overcome his fears and ask the pretty girl out
To See Or Not To See    (13+)    # 401021:
        once upon a time, a vampire had too much fun
Little Stormcloud    (13+)    # 612255:
        one careless comment turns me into a little stormcloud
To Save A Soul, ch. 1-5    (13+)    # 389326:
        Spike embarks on a mystic quest to recover Buffy's soul
The Pond Out Back    (13+)    # 1154924:
        The backyard holds a terrible secret!
#164952:   Mature Items: R+    (13+)     [Top]
poems and stories, all rated R or higher    (5 items)

[Tales of Boiling Blood]    (18+)    # 522600:
        these items are patently erotica, so don't complain. just comment :)
[18+ and + Poetry]    (13+)    # 922697:
        poetry rated 18+, GC, and XGC
Santa's Helper    (18+)    # 184420:
        lonely during the holiday, Drew's imagination runs amok
Getting Lucky    (18+)    # 445003:
        on a weekend trip to Hawaii, three buddies seek some action
Repositioned    (18+)    # 259518:
        some things to love about intimacy
#168228:   Poems: Philosopher Stoned    (E)     [Top]
poetry: various themes with philosophical undertones    (15 items)

Popping Knuckles    (ASR)    # 567487:
        a habit that has stayed with me over the years
Desperate Expanses    (ASR)    # 163903:
        the mind empowers after death
Chasing Infin8y    (E)    # 260248:
        hypnotized by the hair of a jogger
Starbathing    (13+)    # 174191:
        advice from two unusual friends: the stars and nicotine
Butterflies and Angels    (E)    # 861276:
        wings, angelic and buttery. not buffalo style!
Off Track    (ASR)    # 686267:
        how do you deal with disaster?
New City    (ASR)    # 922672:
        contemplating the dearth of my lifespan
Check Yourself    (ASR)    # 611579:
        take stock while there's still stock to take
Enter Twylight    (E)    # 164908:
        ever take an ALL night walk with someone?
Asea and Going Down    (ASR)    # 602386:
        inexorably I'm drawn into a whirlpool
Come-uppance    (13+)    # 647326:
        you cannot insult me with impunity; even I resort to retribution
War In A Glass    (ASR)    # 674651:
        the glass is never half-empty, for our want to fill it
Silk and Sandbox    (ASR)    # 828812:
        a nature poem? sorta. maybe. nahhhh.
End Run    (E)    # 505107:
        the ball is mine to run with, but how far should I go?
In Salty Depths    (ASR)    # 1154975:
        there be mermaids below, up to no good!
#168231:   Poems: Wired By Desire    (E)     [Top]
poetry: various themes with underpinnings of desire    (18 items)

Writing Crush    (ASR)    # 530696:
        I fell for you online, anonymously smitten
Fixation    (ASR)    # 200813:
        an obsession over buttons
Wearisome Game    (ASR)    # 190245:
        a self-destructive march to mental meltdown
Starlit Proposition    (13+)    # 624382:
        a magical walk and a question burning to be asked
The D In Distance    (13+)    # 865051:
        to what gruesome lengths will we go?
Advent    (ASR)    # 180928:
        escapade of an adventurer in love
Prelude to Indulgence    (13+)    # 890134:
        a swirl of thoughts while awaiting your arrival
Touchy Situation    (13+)    # 511329:
        flirting with disaster, courting adultery
A Picnic Affair    (13+)    # 163921:
        theme and scheme spread loosely and lazily, like a picnic blanket
Untouched    (ASR)    # 688779:
        as the night wears on I grow restless
The Baker Never Fights Fair    (ASR)    # 191801:
        bakeries smell great, whether you have money or metaphor
Migratory    (E)    # 585986:
        sometimes you don't intentionally set birds free
No Postage Necessary    (ASR)    # 606534:
        a kid's valentine card to his unusual crush
Before You Go    (13+)    # 647299:
        there's something I desperately want you to know
Kissing Consequences    (ASR)    # 770632:
        a woman's thoughts on conception, perhaps
Random Fan    (ASR)    # 864605:
        a hockey player wonders about a cute fan
Locked in the Dark    (13+)    # 1154972:
        the lucky victim of a party game
Accidental Touches    (ASR)    # 1143196:
        shakespearean sonnet about flirtation in the office
#168234:   Poems: Bring Me Down    (E)     [Top]
poetry: emotional themes of the guarded or bleak variety    (15 items)

Cannot Help It    (E)    # 231307:
        We cannot help whom we love...or don't
Nibbles    (ASR)    # 176674:
        the other side of things left unsaid
When She Was Bad    (ASR)    # 198218:
        we all need outlets. and sometimes a friend, too.
Ever Mindful    (ASR)    # 678765:
        I can't ever escape the You that's in my mind
Buffers Again    (ASR)    # 582508:
        desire battles restraint - story of my life
Babbling Apparently    (E)    # 684973:
        how much bad advice can I blindly follow?
Exigency    (ASR)    # 182000:
        "The identical old questions are again upon you." - Abraham Lincoln
Another Alias    (13+)    # 580771:
        a barfly considers changing his name
Can't Dance    (ASR)    # 652920:
        how inability to dance can be good for a relationship
To Be Still In Love    (13+)    # 198840:
        is it over yet? or am I still in love?
Among the Broken Trees    (ASR)    # 1154980:
        I linger in the place I lost my love
Sullen Pools    (ASR)    # 1154998:
        (7 tercets) I tread in sullen pools of water, trying not to drown
Unsent Letters    (ASR)    # 1143175:
        sonnet about the waste of letters never sent
Stranded    (ASR)    # 1051644:
        you dropped my heart in the middle of nowhere
An Insomniac's Dream    (ASR)    # 876139:
        I'm restless in anticipation of...
#188273:   My Life Was Mostly Nonfiction    (E)     [Top]
real life anecdotes & tattoos of memories    (8 items)

Fishing Buddies    (ASR)    # 188280:
        discovering a little something on an innocent fishing expedition
Jello    (13+)    # 188335:
        I was not rude; I invited her in...
Double Knot    (13+)    # 188353:
        Resolving a predicament at a waterpark...
Alarm    (E)    # 189064:
        the mystery of a boy's alarm and his father's alarum...
Malfunction    (13+)    # 189052:
        you know, hearts aren't the only things that break...
Witness    (E)    # 190302:
        a nice embarrassing moment - nice because it didn't happen to me!
Woodwork    (ASR)    # 188322:
        Ever notice how you get more attention when you're already taken?
Aquaphilia    (13+)    # 189166:
        come on in, dear, you're already wet
#195265:   Image Is Nothing But A File    (E)     [Top]
all my images including real pictures, illustrations for stories, and drawings.    (11 items)

Peeka-Boo    (E)    # 541381:
        my ghostly face says a Halloween hello
Webcam QuadPic 1    (E)    # 605705:
        four combined webcam pics of me goofing off
Webcam QuadPic 2    (ASR)    # 630370:
        another four collaged pics of some wacko
From 18 to 30    (E)    # 895064:
        my appearance progression from 18 to 24 to 30
Mama's Boys    (E)    # 692087:
        John and Mom and Jason, from March '03
"Well Wisher" illustration    (ASR)    # 585442:
        a pretty face to illustrate my "Well Wisher" poem
"Golden Years" illustration    (ASR)    # 432369:
        gorgeous art combo by Mook for my futuristic poem
"Rollerskatress" illustration    (E)    # 440855:
        (chalk?) illustration Jaccine did for my rollerskatress poem
"Stony Gaze" title image    (E)    # 405446:
        dog art and title for my story
Haizey's Lipstick    (ASR)    # 468736:
        I won this for 169,000 GP in the 3rd Stories.Com celebrity memorabilia auction
Brothers Duel    (E)    # 1103527:
        my brother and I fencing at a renaissance fair
#259489:   Before & Afterthoughts    (ASR)     [Top]
thought-provoked views on various topics    (10 items)

Crush Crush    (ASR)    # 259491:
        Just what are crushes?
Communication Tollbooths    (ASR)    # 530923:
        a solution to unwelcome email and telemarketers
Go For the Throat    (13+)    # 259523:
        Why is kissing intimate?
Prove It    (ASR)    # 331254:
        some comments concerning facts versus values
My First Rose    (ASR)    # 624030:
        my first vision of a perfect mate
The Club of Cool    (13+)    # 259504:
        coolness: the pyramid scam of acceptance
Usefulness of Junk    (ASR)    # 259500:
        Why keep your writings that aren't any good?
Dew It To It    (E)    # 259515:
        Let me tell you why I like Sprite.
Thoughts on GaLs    (13+)    # 259482:
        some perhaps novel thoughts about alternative lifestyles
That Dweam Within a Dweam    (ASR)    # 259513:
        Marriage, I take issue with thee. Engarde!
#334917:   Miscellaneous Mumbo    (E)     [Top]
non-static items plus compilation pieces    (11 items)

JohnAshen Newsletters    (ASR)    # 723667:
        newsletter back issues written by JohnAshen
OVER - Slapstick & Sorcery contest    (13+)    # 1163665:
        completed - poetry & short fiction combining comedy + fantasy, Oct'06
a Buffy/Angel fanfiction index    (13+)    # 763919:
        index of links to static Buffy or Angel fanfiction items
a Harry Potter fanfiction index    (13+)    # 614026:
        index of links to static Harry Potter fanfiction items
Poetry to Catullus    (13+)    # 406999:
        fictional additions to famous poet Catullus's affair with his muse
2002 Stories.Comvention    (ASR)    # 503647:
        the Aug'02 Stories.Com Convention from my POV
John's Spider Snacks    (E)    # 543975:
        a cool-looking holiday snack that's easy to make
Mom's Cheese Ball    (E)    # 612321:
        mmmm! my mom's recipe for the perfect cheese ball
Something In The Way    (NPL)    # 878981:
        there's something standing in our way
old contest results    (ASR)    # 1065977:
        results from my old contests
Awardicons Given    (ASR)    # 518777:
        description and list of my given awardicons
#383380:   Poetry Folders & Unfolders    (E)     [Top]
4 folders couldn't hold all my poetry, so now they're all in here    (7 items)

[Poems: In Relationships]    (E)    # 383602:
        yay, my favorite subject for poetry writing & reading
[Poems: Wired By Desire]    (E)    # 168231:
        poetry: various themes with underpinnings of desire
[Poems: Philosopher Stoned]    (E)    # 168228:
        poetry: various themes with philosophical undertones
[Poems: Bring Me Down]    (E)    # 168234:
        poetry: emotional themes of the guarded or bleak variety
[Poems: Passingly Peculiar]    (E)    # 164043:
        poetry: miscellaneous works each with a dash of mystery or wonder
[Poems: Extra Extra]    (E)    # 383387:
        formal styles, lyrics, old stuff, etc.
[Poems: Cheese Nips]    (E)    # 1398450:
        some previously non-public short poems. sharper bite than the usual cheese
#383387:   Poems: Extra Extra    (E)     [Top]
formal styles, lyrics, old stuff, etc.    (18 items)

Gadfly    (E)    # 163870:
        truth-seeking with impunity
A Rose in the Darkness    (E)    # 615785:
        the first poem I ever wrote holds a special place in my mental museum
Reverie    (E)    # 164917:
        stumbling across an old, forgotten diary entry
Liberation    (E)    # 190251:
        breathless in our reclined candor
The West Side    (E)    # 168108:
        graduated from the neighborhood school of hard knocks
Parade Watcher    (ASR)    # 163898:
        conflicting feelings of longing and apathy during a parade
Can You Feel It From Here?    (13+)    # 168117:
        across the room their eyes meet, and something happens
Rubbernecking    (ASR)    # 610095:
        would you believe, a dodoitsu on impossible fascination?
Rebecca    (E)    # 626450:
        when a radiant aura becomes radiant airs
REM Tonight    (13+)    # 164911:
        thinking of you at a distance, I can't sleep
Written Invitation    (13+)    # 607559:
        a triolet about a tryst :) enjoy
Indecisive    (E)    # 374039:
        a lantern 1-3-5-3-1: snorting at Robert Frost
Crinkled Paper    (13+)    # 1154978:
        Villanelles? What a waste of my writing time!
We Now Pronounce Us    (13+)    # 1740427:
        in my mind we are married
Bubble Girl    (13+)    # 1152864:
        poker spoof of Aqua's "Barbie Girl"
Harboring Thoughts    (E)    # 912283:
        inside my head are ideas that make my eyes shine
Dancing to Sleep    (E)    # 881265:
        fond remembrances make for sweet dreams
Poetry Formats    (E)    # 571666:
        assembled descriptions of many formal poetry formats
#383602:   Poems: In Relationships    (E)     [Top]
yay, my favorite subject for poetry writing & reading    (15 items)

Silent Symphony    (E)    # 250350:
        Finding some peace in a gut-wrenching world
Love That Might Have Been    (ASR)    # 374544:
        oh no, a woman falling slowly out of love!
Thoughtcaster    (ASR)    # 163973:
        a hard line to cross, between friend & something more comforting
Climber of Mountains    (E)    # 163927:
        in worship of a self-conscious friend's bolder qualities
Bypass    (13+)    # 454711:
        a frustrating "auto" motive misunderstanding
A Distant Muse    (13+)    # 686410:
        trying to keep distant possibilities at arm's length
Cast a Thought    (13+)    # 163971:
        open to more than just friendship
Loving Or Leaving    (13+)    # 622193:
        facing up to the truth: is it time for love or to leave?
Sowing Roses    (ASR)    # 611506:
        what went wrong, I still don't know
Thrower of Bones    (E)    # 521813:
        some things change when you leave 'single' behind
From What Once Was    (E)    # 688973:
        a new place to be, after being lonely
Take Me    (ASR)    # 344907:
        a monologue from an enamored Spike to a distraught Buffy
Changing Eyes    (E)    # 1154984:
        What could change my view of the finest thing in life?
Elasticity Test    (ASR)    # 875671:
        how far will I stretch before I snap?
To Janey Jabberjaw    (ASR)    # 871967:
        such a pretty mouth... too bad it never closes
#522600:   Tales of Boiling Blood    (18+)     [Top]
these items are patently erotica, so don't complain. just comment :)    (1 item)

Erotikyu    (GC)    # 200556:
        extended senryu: woman welcomes home her man
#922697:   18+ and + Poetry    (13+)     [Top]
poetry rated 18+, GC, and XGC    (8 items)

Puddled Shards    (18+)    # 185234:
        another way of "cutting my life away"
The Honeymoon Is Over    (18+)    # 172233:
        hell hath no fury like a woman scorned...
Raw Consequences    (18+)    # 191206:
        playful treatise of love's consequences, resplendent in trochaic tetrameter
Watch Your Backstab    (18+)    # 562227:
        waking up after being trampled on by a friend
Venus Sighs    (18+)    # 598199:
        an honest ode to the under-appreciated aspects of petite women
Rats in the Orchard    (GC)    # 611505:
        unpleasant take on an unpleasant topic: sexual molestation
Sphincter Jinxer    (18+)    # 671299:
        a rather flatulent piece of poetry...cover your nose!
One Remarkable Sweater    (GC)    # 626962:
        a sweater and a smile for our hapless hero
#1398450:   Poems: Cheese Nips    (E)     [Top]
some previously non-public short poems. sharper bite than the usual cheese    (17 items)

(Almost) Like a Friend    (ASR)    # 1734111:
        I saw you ; you didn't know I was there.
Dinner Without Grace    (ASR)    # 1554719:
        some may consider our dinner choice crude
Failure to Align    (ASR)    # 1459381:
        indecision renders my mind blank
Stars & Ghosts    (ASR)    # 1459379:
        I sense the glare of warning spirits' furor
I Saw Your Ship    (ASR)    # 1459303:
        my eyes were drawn to its impressive lights
Between the Asteroids    (ASR)    # 1459300:
        the stars don't mind us misfits humanoids
Something Stupid    (13+)    # 1398497:
        it's stupid to fear being seen as stupid
Distant Shadows    (13+)    # 1398493:
        memories from not so long ago
Kiss Her Tears    (ASR)    # 1398488:
        the many reasons for doing so
First to Fall    (13+)    # 1398483:
        chase the season? here's a better reason
When We Were Normal    (13+)    # 1398475:
        normality is about the only thing true by vote
Stealing Stars    (13+)    # 1398468:
        they're free for those who dare to take
Colorblind    (ASR)    # 1398466:
        at the end of our rainbow
Barely Breathing    (13+)    # 1398461:
        by choice I lie still here still
Paper Tiger    (13+)    # 1398458:
        I write a fierce game, don't I
Tangled in a Moment    (13+)    # 1398455:
        how delightfully I am ensnared
Feels Like Home    (13+)    # 1398453:
        a feeling natural, automatic, and unquestioned

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