Book excerpts

‘The hated Pit"

I hear the whispering; the pit gently calling me
Beckoning me to come play in the land of mind games
Along for this merciless ride
I cannot be witness to this
The pit beckoning, calling my name
My ears shut, I want to run, I want to flee
Please stop; you chase me down
You come for me; why must you call for me now?
Have I not given enough of my soul?
Have I not given so much of me?
My innocent childlike self
Distraught, you have taken me so often
I'm brittle as old bones
I fear my mind is wasting away
The half-life left in me, helpless
I'm a rag doll; you have taken my will, you have stolen my identity
Do not call for me; I beg of you
Have mercy on my soul...


"The thought in Sand"

She followed the path home
Trodden upon the hot sand,
Her footsteps imprinted,
Forever emblazed in time
She is surrounded by nature
Flowers yellow as the sun
Orange mazes, little brown buttons
Center of its life
Sharp whispers,
Prong like things
Stab into the steps of my footfall


"Echoes"

The darkness of the night brilliant diamonds on blue velvet skies
The quiet of this place another world I must be in
Dark ages of long ago; the black forest
Black fate the darkness trying to take me
The deafening sound of quietude
No sight, no sound
Awaken all of you; awake and see the luxury if this night
Yet please do not appear; darkness all for me
This darkness, this night
Open the door I cannot
The darkness will reappear
Welcome it as I do; darkness is mine,
It protects me; no lies, as it cannot falsify me
I'm true; darkness is true to me...







"Shout"

I look upon the gathering falseness of this earth
The wanderings in human disguise,
As they ramble on in their own tune
They keep the distance
Their capabilities, oh so naught
Stench, the scent of their inner being; rotting flesh
I sense them always in my path
You destruct me; off with you,
Belong, who?
Naught,
I curse you, I loathe you
Your powering scent musky odor of ancient bones
Human disguise; you try to justify your identity
Your darkness has no light
You are pitch black as the night
All of you roaming, in wanderlust
No imaginings, no emotion, only numbness of the mind
I shall call you?
Call upon you I will not; heed this warning
For I am my own, my beacon shines
My purity clings on
You falsify, you disgust me; your human form sickens me
Disease and death is you...............


"Injustice"

Weep for them I ask of you
The bug’s lye crushed,
The breaking of their wings,
Their bodies mangled
Our footsteps crush life
Our tongues create chaos

Life as you see it so simple
No complexities
The ease of life for some
Crushing of so many hearts and souls
My bearer of bad news
You come knocking down my door
My bugs in their jars spill, strewn on my floor
Taken, by your foot you crush life,
You waste your own; you have no care
Blindness is your sight; your mind so simple
So out of tune.............



"Breaking Free"

I'm my own self, my own nightmare
I appear as human a mortal I must be
My mind leaks, spilling the fluid of past thought
Old times; the past catches me
Why cannot I be free; free of this fear?
This monster in me
I feel as if I’m not me
Or is this just a remembered memory
Time winds up my clock it spins my thoughts
Disshelved, I must be; lost in my mind
Light and dark seem to meld into one
Black, oh so bleak,
Flight, I fight fear of breaking free.................

















“Falling”

I know when I fall, I shall tumble grace is not me
My bones will bend I may break and crackle as old glass
Life lessons have taught me so well; or so it seems
I know my capabilities as a human
I have overcome many hurdles,
The distance I have traveled
Could be summed in millions of miles
Or perhaps light-years
My mind has been stretched
To far unimaginable places
Most in this life for the sake of humanity
Can never travel the depths I have gone
Pure emotion can be me,
My mind to explain to you in the simplest of terms
Imagine, a feeling of pain that can be defined as
Your body ripped apart for days
Inch by inch, you feel this fleeting heat of pain
In vain, the pain to explain I must continue.
Your skin burns as its being stretched
By the light of the sun
Your body on fire; left in the sun to heat up
Imagine this feeling
Your flesh, searing with pain, you almost pass out; this endurance
But you must keep going, stay alive, fight,
You suffer but even this is not enough
To explain is incomprehensible, to me to convey to you
The pain I have felt in my life,
The pain of depression, the pain and fear of anxiety
The hoping and praying and wishing I could feel normal.
What I perceive as normal
My mind with this allowance and endurance
Of such pain,
Has enabled me to strengthen
Within, the pain, oh the glorious pain, oh punish me, with pain
I would rather burn and endure physical pain
My mind has been so tortured, to the depths
That I cannot explain, words are not in existence
To explain this my mind has traveled light years
Yet at times I welcome it deserving I am
It’s my old friend; pain has been with me so long
Part of me, I hold it embrace it cherish it ..............



"Sanctuary"

Ocean sounds are on my mind
I hear the waves softly roll
My beach, my sanctuary
Peace falls upon me at this moment
I lye on my back
Hearing the tide as it slowly declines
Taking sand and shells; within its path
Birds flock, see them fly past
Twigs and shell particles nestled gently in their beaks
Building their nests
Their destination, their home
Keeping their own safe, and snug
Gently the breeze stirs
The sun shines brightly
I lye under my palms, my sanctuary
My feeling of secure ness, I am safe from harm
I listen, to the lapping of the water,
As it comes gently; rising upon the shoreline
In peace and tranquility my mind rests
I feel, I feel so at peace...


"My Home"

The sun gently fades into afternoon skies
Voices travel gently through the salt air,
The sky still a muted blue
The sun, casting its shadow upon the ocean floor
The water sparkles, gentle green, crystal blues
Sea animals, far south, seeking shelter
Hibernation in rapid succession
Oceans far, so far away
My mind drifting
Lulled by the sound of the sea
Peace is here, always here
Imagine, the sky fading setting sun
Orange it glows, the quiet of the day, this place
A holder of such beauty, Mother Nature
I’m alone here, the only creature in human form
Miles between another; imagine the solitude, this tranquility
The sound of the ocean, as it gently rolls the wave
Softly it flows, melding into the open sea, it carries me away,
I flow, we are as one..........














"Sea II"

Drink the water, salt ness of the sea
Quench your soul, as it thirsts, baptize yourself in the ocean of life
The sea will capture you it shall quench by your own thirst
Mother nature hauntingly stirs the gusts
The wind will arise and meet you in the West
Clouds become angry, their fury their wrath
Upon you, you must see
You turn as if you are blind; you spit out angrily
The bitter saltiness, of this sea
You are blindness, you are evil
This dweller, upon my land
Your life force bathed in darkness, you enrage me,
Not belonging are you
Trespass upon me, my sanctuary, and my soul
Yet I ache, for Mother Nature, as you do not,
How can a blind man see?
You filth of human disgust, I spit upon you
Go, you must go belong, you?
Not welcome; find your fire
Your evil dwellings
Lost you are, blinded you wretched being
The Key, across the way, the Egmont pass
Cast your darkness upon your own,
Bathe in your filth, I spit upon you, the salt, the sea......................

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Destiny of Time"

Our destinations, as individuals,
Sometimes, fall silent,
Upon life's dreams, our future our pasts
Heaven and earth, know our sorrows
Mother nature holds our secrets
Time, and tests, and our knowledge
Our open minds, absorb
Life, sorrow, love, death
Peace in wishing
Fall silent we must
Escape this world, this lifetime
Happiness lies ahead
We must believe, She casts faith upon our mortal souls
We must hold our pasts, our present
Cherish the moment, the time will pass
The moment you must capture
The essence of life
To live, to breathe, to love and to hope











“Love"

What is this word "Love”?
The spirit of love in all; that live and breathe
Does love capture our hearts; our minds
Our bodies, weak with the feel
Love is a feeling, love is pain
Love is light and hope; passion and sorrow
I shed tears for love
I shed life for love
Love strips you of your being
Piece by piece, it can destroy
Love a word, powerful is love
Love is war, love is peace
Love is me; love is lost, and held
Capture love, you capture life
The meaning of life is love..................


“Undoubtful?”

I see the realism in you, your spark,
The color of blue-pale in its light
You are an object of peace and tranquility
By; objective and circumstance
We have been led into each other’s path
The lessons of past learned
Reason and rhyme make sense of it all
We come together as individuals
Never the two of us-to make one
As we are each; as each is
We meld we speak we teach we listen
We love we feel we grow
We as individuals- we are as two as always and yet
Even and fair in sync; together we grow
We find our way


"For Al"

From the heart,
We give our most precious gifts
To express emotion and feeling
Our hearts sometimes swelling with need and desire
Understanding our own minds in tune and in time
Nurture us;
Blood red a heart is feeling,
A heart is soulful a heart is fleeting
Patience and time
Our hearts sometimes grow cold
Saddened, it seems
Patience and time
Our hearts grow warm we glow
Blood red passion our souls burn with desire
In tune in time patience is my desire..........