Tonight’s Wound

TONIGHT'S WOUND

Tonight’s wound bleeds deep
Cuts deep to the depths of this desperate soul
I watch intently as each drop of blood forms
Fills to a tear and falls to the floor released
To the same melancholy rhythm of my tears

I wish to scream
Hoping to release the anger and pain trapped inside my heart
Still no matter how hard I try
I can’t release a single sound
As slowly I choke on the pieces of my own shattered heart

As I watch closer
Deeper into the forming mass of crimson drops
I make out a picture of your face
As a movie plays out in sordid detail
A replay of your night’s discretions

You said you were sorry
That I was never meant to see
To know
It was all just a mistake
Just like all those mistakes before
Just like yesterday’s wounds

Still no longer can I take this betrayal
I am and never will be the creature you desire
To continue in this life with you only serves to destroy me
As each day
With each discretion
Another piece of me dies
Still I love you
Still I told you to leave

Now I sit alone
Surrounded by a growing river of my own creation
Suffering the deepest wound of all
All by the loss of the love I told to leave
Seems the deepest wounds of all
Are those we self inflict