To My Family

         A note of repentence. Or repentence-going-to-be.

         There was a tragic thing happened to me 2 years before. My mother was always a cool person. I never saw her cry. However, I saw her cried - tears of unspoken bitterness, which I had never imagined. My father's heart was broken. My babysister was totally terrified. Yes I can see that, though they tried so hard to hide it upon their face.

         When I was in primary school, I was big-sized and I always bully younger students. After I got to secondary school, there were bigger bully to fight me and I finally got to taste it. It was really horrible, when you've done nothing but they just got you because they're stronger. My results got worse after each year. Until I found out that I'm totally defeated (by the results and the peoples) I left the school. But the scars they left still carved in my heart.

         However, this incident made me realized how strong is my family. They really cherished and doted me. Fully, 100%. That was when I began to learn how to appreciate kinship.

         You might think I should be a nice kid now. However, I'm sorry to tell you, I'm not. I've been trying to be nice, but there are still times I hurted my family.

         I prayed ... wishing that I can be a good girl. How good? Which means, my parents feel great when think of me; when others ranked up of me, they'll praise and say how obedient I am. It's kinda far-ambitious, isn't it?

         There're times I think of how nice my family is and I cried, out of touched. I can't express my gratitude through word, I can only try my best to behave well. However, my wish seemed to be a star in the sky which is sooo high I could never reach.

         Father, Mother, My Babysister, My Aunts :

         Here's something I'd like to say ...

I always tell others to say "I Love You" to people they cared before it's too late. But it seems I never did it. For all the hurts I've brought into your life, I apologize (though it doesn't helped much) and please don't be sad because of me. I really loved you guys in my heart, though I don't behaved well enough to show it. Tears couldn't express my gratitude, my unwilling to leave you and the touches you've gave me. Thanks, really, and take care ...