Heart Full Of Sorrow

My life has always been full of sorrows.
I don't look forward to my tomorrows.
I keep taking whatever life sends,
But I wonder, will this pain ever end?

Everyone I've ever loved, I've lost,
My heart has paid such a very high cost.
I don't know if I can take much more,
But I know a Higher Power,
Is keeping the score.
They say the Lord doesn't give you
More than you can handle,
But I wonder if this life of mine,
Isn't just a scandal.

I was ten when my father passed away,
And I prayed to God to give us just
One more day.
Five years later, my mother met his same fate,
And my heart was filled with such pain and hate.
I have grown and learned that life goes on,
But the pain of the past comes right along.

I want it to stop, to just go away,
But I believe that it is here to stay.

I was married when I was 22, but 20 years
Later, that ended too.
I have 4 children that I love more than life,
But two of them are giving me such strife.

I wish I could turn back the hands of time,
To when I was a young child, and life was fine.
As children, we're in such a hurry to grow up,
But the struggles of the world never give up.

I don't know where my life will go from here,
I may live one more day, or maybe a year.
The future is not mine to see,
I just want the pain to go away, and let me be.