God In The Eye Of A Needle

You told me that I'm worthless,
This foil I will burn,
I'm locked inside myself,
But I will never learn.

In time I will be different,
In time I know I'll change,
I won't need you for strength,
I'll be myself again.

God, how I wish I could different,
How I'd do anything to change,
I'll never be just like you,
We'll never be the same.

Inside my mind I forget,
I make you disappear,
I'm not a hateful person,
But hate is all thats here.

I feel you move inside me,
I feel your adrenaline,
You want me to be just like you,
You want me to give in.

I guess I'm not a big man,
I guess that I'm not smart,
My real life has just ended,
Now my new life can now start.

Drugs have an everlasting promise,
That your world could never keep,
This tab, this pill, this needle,
I won't ever let you sleep.

Forever I will be here,
I am part of you now,
I've dug my grave and filled it,
But I'm not to blame somehow.

Don't hate me I'm not worth it,
I'm something to despise,
I don't give a fuck about you,
Just look into my eyes.

When I wake up I feel righteous,
But something tells me that I'm wrong,
God In The Eye Of A Needle,
Your strength will make me strong.

I beg you for forgiveness,
'Please God I will change',
But Im trapped up in addiction,
I will always be the same...

...Sometimes the most meaningful words come from the mouth of an idiot...