Cursed of the unloved

As the clouds clear and the sun comes out
its a mystery why I still pout
it's as though I am still missing a piece of me inside, one that I have had for so long
one that made me sing crazy songs
being with people that really cared
when things got rough and nobody was there
when all came down crashing on me
they were there cheering me up and telling me that i'll see
what goes around comes around
and everything will be ok
but I know in my heart i'll never be the same way
you see, he tells me he loves me every single day but the way he expresses it isn't the best way
he acts as though i'm the wrost anyone could ever be
but i think he doesn't realize what he does to me
to have someone say they love you and really don't care is as bad as having somone who lies and cheats and isn't really there
as I grow up nothing has changed
everything stays the same way and it only causes me pain
sometimes i wish genies were real
then I would show him how he makes me feel
while laughing and thinking he is funny
making jokes about me saying,"it's just a joke hunny"
but it really wasn't meant to be a joke, a laughing matter, nor funny gesture
I know that is meant to hurt me and only say your not the best out of her
so what if I'm not like the others
not pretty nor thin
but sometimes I can't help myself
and i know I sin
but that's just me it's who I was meant to be
and I know you just can't see
you say hurtful things that I will enevr get over
things that made me want to get away and start all over
but I know in your heart that one day you'll get what you deserve
and when you do i will reserve
my heart of emptiness cause your someone just can't live without
but i want you to know i will always love you no matter how much you wanted me out
of your life and when i am i will be
it's over and done with there's nothing else that you'll see
my heart is broken and is set in a forever chance
this is the last time
i don't want to see you even a glance
you hurt me so bad it's something you'll never see
because i hide my tears in a face that isn't meant to be
youv'e made me afraid and there's no turning back now
because now I don't even know how
my last words to you would make you see
thank-you look at what you have made of me!