family chaos

family chaos
schedules were complicated before but now it's a civil war
explosions happen to the best of families
ours got hit with the divorce disaster bomb!
they call them "recomposed families" nowadays
papa moves out in a storm boxes everywhere
a new town for a year, taking the trains and going to the country
mama finds new house
she gets a job with longer hours, never home
school changes, I liked the old neighborhood, a lifetime of stablity
two birthdays
two Christmases
losing track of where my favorite jeans are
homework easier in my old room, but it's gone too
papa finds a boyfriend, a girlfriend, either way it's different
they move back to the city, a new apartment, bigger, but not better
mama gets married again, a new daddy, but I'll call him Mark
they find a house in a close-by town
he's not bad, but he's not papa
papa calls mama on the phone before every weekend
they don't fight, they even laugh
why didn't they stay together and fight the chaos
friends have parents hating each other
some say we're lucky to have two of everything
(do I have to tell them I have three daddies?!?!?!)
I don't know yet
it's complicated in my head,
always changing cars, beds, smiles,
I've never had so many pyjamas!
it would have been better to have just one of everything
but then I've got family chaos
and that gives me something special
I guess it's nice to have extra love
makes up for a bit of heartbreak,
because we should have been just five
and now there are seven of us, and mama's going to have number eight
family crowds don't go well with chaos
I prefer "family calm us".



family chaos
23 september, 2004