Thai food tonight?

Over the course of Three years I have learned five things. Four of them don’t matter but one does.
The first one matters because it teaches me that "To give up after hard work is like never trying at all".
I believe the other four things that I never forgot to leave out, but not use, lack substance. I need to find
a path in life that make since. I have come to this conclusion while lying a wake at night because of the lack of quiet. Julia was having one of her house warming parties. There were three things wrong with that, one we don’t live in a house, I pay rent so I own it, and we have been living in our apartment for 3 years now. I think about all of this on my ride home from the Thai food place. I’m in a taxi driving home to find a messy house filled with the smells of cheettos and glue. That’s what you get for living with your high school mate. Our small apartment is next to Star bucks. Some times I just sit down at my desk and star out the window at the happy students going to get latte’s , hanging out with a surplus of handsome frat boys. Wondering why I am the only one staring out watching everyone have fun. I studied Food geneticist for two years, got bored and dabbled into Speech therapy for children. I had no Idea where I was going. I find it hard to take time to think about family. But my mother has called several times to tell me she loves me. I assume it is one of her ploys to get me to come visit dad and help him with his internet business. I love them, but I need time to think about having fun for myself. Yes. That’s what I’ll do. I pack my bags for a weekend of skiing and snowboarding in Sonoma valley. The ride to the mountains was nice. Slopping scenery, skyscraping trees and lush green plains coated with blankets of snow. Me and Julia took turns driving her dads Jericho . Julia sat in the back seat singing that repetitive
Gwen stefani song. "I said I aint no holla back girl" she slurred smiling and grabbed another beer from her black duffle bag."I think that’s enough for you". I said snatching it from her hands and putting it in the cup holder. "awwwww come on, haze" she stuck out her lips and batted her eyes. "You look ugly doing that you know?" I scoffed as she playfully socked me in the arm. She finally sat back calmly and pulled out her cell phone and started dialing. "Who you calling?" I questioned. She sat back starting into the small LCD screen of her phone. "Who are you calling?" I repeated more anxiously . "oh, Jacob, Sienna, Charles and steph". I rolled my eyes. She was inviting a bunch of stupid pimply boys at Cal to get in our pants. " Julia" I said in a distressed tone. "Before you start bitching, I invited Steph, you got along with him didn’t you?" she looked like a fish gawping for air. " No, not necessarily" I said sharply. She sat back looking smug, apparently thinking she was going to have the time of her life. She layed back and drifted to sleep. I kept quiet and drove the rest of the way. Once we had arrived at our cabin we had rented I ran to my room and jumped on it, but not before locking my door. Maybe I was just born a good Ole’ stick in the mud. After undressing I ran hot water in the tub next to Julia’s room. The water was nice and soothing , nice and calming. "Hazel!!" I heard Julia yell accompanied by heavy foot steps. Oh god. The boys where here and I was naked in the bath tub. "Haze? Where did you go?". She knocked loudly on my door. "Haze, you in here?" she knocked again. "I’m not fucking deaf, Julia". "oh ".she said giggling with other voices. "well get dressed we have company". As if I couldn’t tell. I came out into the lounging room wearing a sweater and denim overalls. Steph, Jacob, Sienna and Charles sat in the couch’s set around the fire place. Steph slid over to make room for me to sit. " Jacob, move your ass" he hissed . Jacob stiffly got up and moved over to the bar in the kitchen. "Nice overalls , hazel , where’s jack and Jill"? He cracked a wiry smile. I ignored him. I turned back to steph and asked him if he was thirsty. He just blushed and shook his head. I guess Julia was hinting at me , when she had said that me and him got along. He liked me. I found that surprising. Not because im as much of a barren old hag as I sound, but because I had no clue. He egded closer to me and put his hand on mine. That was the first male contact I had, had in a long time. He looked into my eyes and smiled. We both got up and head for the kitchen. I saw Jacob watching us out of the corner of his eye. Sienna and Julia were to busy eating each others faces. Charles sat polishing of bottles of wine. I led Steph to my room and closed the door. H e sat back on my bed, his feet twitching.You um, want anything?I asked him. He nodded. I opened my mini refrigerator door and pulled out two cokes and a bottle of jack Daniels to share. We held up our coke cans and toasted. He beamed at me from behind his glasses. "To friendships". I smiled and agreed with him." to friendships" ."Maybe more" he said putting his drink down and playing with the ends of my long curly hair.