if I could go there

if I could go there
for the utter silence
to listen to my heart beat
if I could go there
to forget the sound of your voice
its empty I love you
if I could go there
to forget the heartache
I must again fend for myself
if I could go there
to scream, unheard, in anguish
if I could go there
to forget the beauty of a rainbow
the gold pot has melted into despair
outer space would welcome me
with new languages to speak of love
with new sounds to fill the void
with new marvels to heal my heart
with new peace to weaken my sorrow
with shiny shooting stars of promise

but I can't go out there
to this space of timelessness
I am anchored in my imaginary visions
where the real world grabs so tightly
I want to spin forever like a new planet
in the darkness lit by starlight
where a millions of rays of hope
are caught in the blackness of nothing...
but my mortality has already rendered me
extinct




         if I could go there
         20 april, 2006
         for Writer's Cramp
         Received Honorable Mention