pain still there

pain still there

enter the bathroom
alone and crying
close the door behind
heart still pounding
look at self in mirror
ugly and suffering
sit on the cold floor
tears all streaming
take out the blade
hands faintly shaking
cut self's arm
painful feeling
look at the skin
blood slowly oozing
clean up the arm
cheeks drying
exit the bathroom
even more depressing

nothing changes
so why cut?

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