Conflicted and Confused

Conflicted and confused
Broken and Bruised
A heart that’s torn
Energy that’s worn
Feelings were hurt, yet only mine
Ya know what they say, Healing takes time
Time? That takes too long
My energy’s gone
My mind is spinning
A war I have no chance of winning
Love that has only one side
All the tears I have cried
What I thought was love was nothing but copulation
Copulation that turned to procreation
Procreation chased him away
With nothing but lies to say
But now he sees his inevitable fate
Unfortunately the next 18 years I wait
For him to grow up
For him to show up
For my heart to heal