sorry

Dad,
I know you are my dad,
I've seen pictures of you as a child
You looked just like me.
(except you're a boy of course)
Even my cousins say so.
So why don't you love me?
I don't understand.
Haven't I been good enough for you?
I do the best i can.
I try my hardest.
Maybe you do love me
In your own way,
But as a daughter
Not as a friend.
That's what I really want.
A dad I can talk to,
Laugh with, cry with.
Did you try to be that person once?
When I was younger, did I let you down?
If I did then I'm sorry,
But I've changed now.
Why can't you give me another chance?
I know you were pleased when I got my SAT's results.
But couldn't you have shown it a bit more?
You could have hugged me, taken me out
Or...I don't know...done something!
I know it was hard for you when you broke up with mum,
But can't you see it affected me as well?
Anyway, what i really wanted to say was...sorry.
Sorry for everything I've done wrong in the past, everytime I've let you down.
Sorry for all the times I've made you angry, stressed or sad.
And I wanted to ask you,
To give me another chance,
To be a good daughter,
To be a good friend,
To help you through your hard times
And for you to help me through mine.
You mean a lot to me,
And I'd be more upset than you'd ever know if I lost you.
So whatever I've done,
Sorry.