I did it to myself (like he said)

Torn apart from who I used to be with who I want to be
You can say that I have a double personality.
Can't understand what is it that I am doing wrong
And when I think I have it figured out, no one goes along.

The love he said he had for me just came out of him one day
No explanation, no comments just got up and went away
He never told me how he felt and now he hates me
But no matter what happens I will always love that man to be.

I have no idea when he is going to talk to me about anything
I have no idea when he is going to come to me with everything
No matter what we talk about, we always end up fighting
Crying is a waste (he doesn't care) that's why I started writing

I still love him as I keep telling myself everyday of my life
And since the first day we met, I thought of being his wife.
But he is not able to open up to me like he use to
So I ask you, what the hell am I suppose to do.

I know I had my bad and hateful moments with him
And he hates me with all his heart for all I have done to him
But I am very sorry for all and everything I have done.
I wish I can take all that back and run.