Decisions

To live a life hidden by lies,
Is to live a life your heart denies,
And to feel the pain you'll alway's hide,
Only because of what other's decide,
To hide behind the mask you've made yourself,
To live alone with no one else...

To live a life of plain denile,
To have your feelings- feel so vile,
To hate the thought of living tomorrow,
To loath yourself and fill with sorrow,
And to create a river- of false tears,
For you to drown in through the years...

To not be to sleep at night,
To hide your face in shame- and fright,
To ignore the attraction that you feel,
And tell yourself it isn't real,
To have faith that it will fade away,
Only to find it wants to stay...

I will not do what you want me too,
I will not be afraid of you,
I will not be bent to your every word,
To have thought I would was- Simply absurd,
I will live my life the way I want to live,
Because into you- I refuse to give...

~Dedicated to the world that shun me out~