love's cruel high

My favorite drug calls me.
She taunts me.
Do I want her again?
She knows I crave her deadly flight.
I tell her yes.
From then on she stays just beyond the bars entrapping my soul.
Should I keep reaching anyway?
Can I keep paining myself for Novocain that slips away,
or should I let myself hit rock bottom and start over?
Shall I choose pain or pain?
Will I grasp at nothing or take the agonizing plunge towards my
Excruciating savior in loneliness?
I feel myself falling...