Note to daughter

Is that you?
Are you there?
I turn to look
Everywhere!

I miss you daily
I look for a sign
I think I see one
But it is only in my mind.

My friends all say
Your are doing so well
But they cannot know
My inner hell.

I do not share
I must be strong
They have no clue
They are so wrong

I see your son
He looks like you
His smile, his eyes
It is so true.

You have left this earth
To go onto another
Eight months ago
And still I shudder!

Will the pain get better?
Will I finally accept?
I don’t really think so
But I have no regrets!

I am not a poet
I do not write for acclaim
I merely do it
To help ease my pain.