Reality

I lay in bed staring at the ceiling,
as I feel something I have never felt
before...
Nothing, I am numb and disconnected
from all feelings.
A blessing is what I thought of this
until finally, one day, my mind and heart
could take no more.
I felt and ocean of emotioncome flooding
in, as my eyes began to blur.
My head was aching as the world was spinning
and I was burnt by the flames of reality.
As my world came crumbling down I felt
helpless as all I could do was watch it fall.
There was a part of me that wanted to hide
the tears, ignore the burn, and sleep the
ache away, but the other urged me to
bring down the wall that hid the pain
and cry until there were no more tears
left to cry.
Is there no end?
Will I ever rid myself of this burdon?
I feel the weight of the world sitting on my sholders.
All I can do is wait for those few minutes
when my mind is clear and the world is
still to catch my breath and prepare for
one more rollercoaster ride.
And to this there is no near fairy tale
happy ending.